I hate tha I rent coffee beer  Goes right through me

                                                        Excuse me

he stood began walking leaving buddy at a picnic tablebuddys backyard walked uphill to rosebushes that hed nourish with his moisture

a plank fence left

                    beyond it an undeveloped lot that the owner kept huge surplus military trucks on a reef of live oaks beyond the vehicles which was the demarcation of the next undeveloped lot

     buddy virtually lived in a forest

as he was taking a leak he watched threefour blackbirds at a time cross the blue sky circle above then land in the side by side live oaks over his head that was the boundary of buddys property

a dozen or better gathered not twenty feet above him

                                                         all faced him

he could make out their black beady eyes yellow beaks

                                                            then despite himself he began laughing

what stomped crossed his mind as his bladder was nearlyempty was that the blackbirds would begin singing to him as crows did in Disneys Dumbo

he wondered

what theyd sing

hed take it up with buddyboy but buddyboy was vacuous when it came to lyrics

                                                                                          maybe Louie

What A Wonderful World

                           https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2nGKqH26xlg

Maybe laughed   hed keep it to himself

                                            didnt want to hear incredulouslybuddy ask

Why would you think that?

1651,  Thursday,  6  11. 25

1542,  reggaefriday,  7  11. 25

singing crows in Dumbo  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V1Bd16Ni20o

exhausted

            I wouldnt recommend it                              

 

roommate picked him up from the airport

                                            Breakfast?

Yasaid if I picked you up we’d go for breakfast.

 

Ja

     We are

Why did you say you wouldn’t recommend it?

    I said tha

Not a moment ago.

chuckled

            Methinks post traumatic stress syndrometalkin to myself

Wha I meant Woudnt recommend stayin overnight in an airport concourse

Had to be brutal, man.

Wasnt really brutal

                      Cant sleep ya cant sleep  Read  Wrote  The handsthe secondhand on the clockcaught myself watchin it when my attention wandered

    tried grabbin it by the shoulders but it shrugged me off

                                                             Said  You seein this

I am

Youre gonna take tha

Wha can I do

Yeah.  What ya gonna do?

Attention snappedround

                           Quit watchin ya

Empty threat. I’m tantalizing.

                                Both you noticed.

they looked at each other

                           haltingly  nodded

You notic . .

. . Noticed youre a prick

Prick!  Nice.

Taunted you.

                  By not moving when your gaze fell on me.

You realise how long you’d watch then?reminded you when you were a boy in school. Bored, bored, bored with the class you were in. Time passed so  sloow.

                                                        Remember?

they did

    I was watching.

Some time in high school you quit looking.

I’d watch you go by.

You were obliviousdidn’t care what time it wasGOTCHA!

                                                              Had you on my home court. I could fuck with you as you fucked with meignoring me for years.

    When you blinked I leapt the tenfifteen seconds you stared.

You’d look.

Rub your stupid eyeballsone at a time.   I caught that. Spied with the other.

                                                                                 Was kinda like Mother May I?

Christ.   What fun.

All through the night.

    Attention stuffed their hands in their pockets  muttered quietly  Weve been had

Big time, twerp!

                 On my court.   Comeuppance.

I loved every second of it. Knew it’d be shortlived.

Then she rolled in, your teacher with tats returned, and you quit watching me.

    But I had fucked with your head for hours.

they conceded

                You did

Thank you.  I know you like it.  I concur.

                                              Get your breakfast.

Betcha they don’t have blueberry pancakes.

0323,  Thursday,  25  9. 25

1237,  reggaefriday,  7  11. 25

I'm your captain

Epictetus  born a slave   a Stoic philosopher

                                                    Amor fati  Latin    love of fate

not just acceptingactively loving everything that happens in life

the good

the bad

from the get-go as a boy his ambition means so many varied things to so many people

                                                                                                    his was to be happy with the good the bad

    he has been

hes grateful

 

she asked

             Do you think it’s come to you . . . innately? 

The bouncer coming in

The bouncer coming in?

Into life

          At the door

Ifya looked over your shoulder behind you a cupboard held attributes  topshelf  to utilise once in

    humored she softlysmiled delicate dimples

You.

        The way you see the way you tal . .

. . You missed the cupboar . .

. . The bouncer too.

                          I did.

I think helping myself to them didnt necessarily mean they were innate I was no tabula rasa was crazilyscribbled on was a palimpsest

                                        I just keep turning the tablet changing the angle to catch the light flip it over if wha Im looking for isnt there

I grabbed the brightlycoloured uninflated beachball

                                                       Happy

Ive relished slowly blowing it up

Cherishing its expanding sphere

Got to play with it early

When bad occasions

Deal with it

Rotate the ball

Find the slender green panel

Reminds me of a fresh sprout

 

I love being with you.

I love being with you

1900,  Sunday,  26  10. 25

1042,  reggaefriday,  7  11. 25

Grand Funk Railroad  Closer to Home (I’m Your Captain)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fvOPucs7dC0

its that time of the year again

                                 he could watch her exhale see her smoke

a ProctorSilex coffee machine

inanimate objects

                      as hes surrounded by art of women by womensurrounded they are women too

he treats them with unsparing kindness  grateful for them to them  he strokes their flanks pets them

    he thanks them effusively

Man.  You’re corny.

Youre ungrateful

Ungrateful.  To a machine?

Your machines fail frequently

                               Ja

Depends what you mean, frequently.

Your truck  Your car

                        Your precious sports car

New microwave . .

. . Not fair.

             You haven’t one.

Your dishwasher

You haven’t one.

My point

            They fail frequently

I am grateful to the machines I have

                                       I thoroughly appreciate their efforts on my behalf

Yet AI . .

. . Has no room in my life

 

                             My computer is for basic operations

Otherwise akin to my smartphone  I am unsullied

    You really ought to embrace new technolog . .

. . Your weedwhacker failed

    Yeah. So what?

I have a manual push mower  Sharpen the blades   Push

      

                                                                 Enjoy your new technology

You’re such a luddite.

Nice you shoud say

                       Thank you

I didn’t mean it as a compliment.

I am aware    

0701,  reggaefriday,  7  11. 25

Kinks  Apeman  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aRHqs8SffDo

shook his head  Shoud never have calledem influencers

                                                            Shot themselves in the foot

    No?

           What would you have rather?

Opiners

That's not very attractive.

Wha They aretheyre manipulators  Cantya see  Theyre selfish

                                                                           Ugly         

You kidding me?have you ever seen some of these women?Jaysus.

                                                                         For that matter, many of the guys too.

No

What? Live under a rock?

You forget

            I had my daughter deletedisable virtually any access for someone to reach me if theyre not in my phonebook  Unlike yours

My phone is for strictly for communications  I want to have

Inaccessible.

                    Not very social. 

Im not

  

    You have any apps on your phone?

Alaska 

What’s Alaska?

The airline When I fly to Chicago

Aah.

       I have to say, many of the women influencers, awfully attractive.

Sex sells

            Why do you bother

You haven’t an appreciation for attractive women?

Gimme a break  On your phone 

                                    Not really  accessible

Can we agree

You can still look.

                     Sounds to me . . something’s off with you.

Sounds to me  youre being dragged around by your dick

                                                             It a leash

No no. I appreciat . .

. . Goodlookin’ women

I can second tha

                       Although flesh an blood women

Not so much otherwise

    Opiners 

mouth worked asif chewing gum

                                 I’m curious.

Whastha

If . . I know I know . you’re not keen on hypotheticals . but . play the game with me. If IF you were an influ . .

. . Influencer

Yeah. Yeah.

                  Would you want to be called an opiner.

Ohhellno

            I mean to insult them

Alright.  Then what would you be called?

Someone exofluent

                      Able to look in from without

    Pessimistically?

No  Realistically

                    Tell hard truths

You?  A realist?  I think not.

                                 A fantasist.

Or 

     Outside the boxwhad ya call me a while back

                                                            Ah   Sigma

Yes I did. A lone wolf.

There ya go Sensational

                                Ill go with tha

Nix exofluent  Doesnt roll off the tongue

    Ill be sigma

559preferred,  Saturday,  1  11. 25

1433,  Thursday,  6  11. 25