only up for a short while he conceded
he heard his body outlistened to
its deliberationsits particular demands
there wasnt going to be a
discussion
it was either or
fuckin tyrant
but
he fought his body more times than he
cared to admit an mind over matter if you
dont mind it dont matter while utterly
improving his tolerance for pain it did not heel the pain it helped him ignore it to get through what
he needed to get through
then
through
his body had its way with him
he couldnt play victim
not when he victimised himself
Put that in your pipe an smoke itbitch
he ran an unmercifully hot
bathfrogs arent stupid theyll hop out of the water went it gets too hot the frog that boiled to death in
the notorious nineteenthcentury experiment
its brain was removed before it was immersed
his thick reptilian brain was wrapped up tightbound by his neocortex an it was fast an made wicked knots
he squirmed letting the hot water flow to the places he
needed it to touch then he slipped downput his right
heel on the spout
lower right back compromised crossed his ankles laid outhis
nose breaking water
he wished he had gills
he tried emptying his mind not a huge chore men dont usually have
much going around inside their heads unlike
women who seemingly recirculate an recirculating redo an redoing redo the redux they refuse to put it downput it away let it
go
one thing didnt let go
it got hungup on a spur a snag thrall
rapture were they one an the same blackmirrors did they precede death
before immersing his ears he
could hear from the kitchen the coffeemaker sputtering its lastconvulsing belching
steam through vents in its crown mad swirling steam gushes gouts pissed off at
him again for finishing out alone solitary even
machines like audiences occasionally an in
its liquid rattling he flashed on The Witchhad watched it the night before on
dvd Caleb Harvey Scrimshaw his paroxysmhis
death orgyorgasm going to his Sweet God
was that thrallwas that rapture are they precedents only the dying witness
ohbaby boys
why do parents push their sons hands
away from their penises when theyre changing their diapersfree only in that unswaddled
moment to touch an feel their sexualityan daughters from their clitsthe childrens
innate sexuality trumped by their parents embarrassmentperhaps too by their trumped sexuality
an organic chain paranoid
bits that then passingcling to the
spurto the growing elastic tendril
the mind refilling
mindfullness
Aah he got a halfhour
while his back
loosenedhis brain burgeoned Anonymous another film
I would go mad if I did not write down
the voices
they werent this morning
they were mute expressive pictographs an zoetropes
1224, Saturday,
6 1. 18
1424, Day-between-Two-Ts, 10 1.
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Kendrick Lamar The Spiteful Chant https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ISFUG005Flg
