So he told me if Id quit
dissociating psychically Id heal quicker I could even realise a more full social life
Quit dissociating
I gotta push back on that babe
I gotta push back on that babe
You told himhe knows youre a creative Seems ludicrous to tell an artist
not to dissociate
The creative act is dissociative
to wrest with the nothingness and come away with something new with something perhaps
not ever seen before a reality once nonexistent then a new reality youre able
to share with others that they can realise because you saw
Its a freakin gift and it doesnt come You have to remove yourself from the tribe
society any interference to capture it
Creativity doesnt like company
Ive told him as much he knows
that I would say he knows that
Very confusing
I imagine
Youre going back at him on this
Ohyes Hellyes
Reading a book we dissociate Watching
a film playing a game
Good girl Not that you need me . .
. . I need you to be my springboard the
wall I throw things at to see if they stick
I need you because since we met youve always gotten me have always encouraged me
I do look good in a cheerleaders
skirt dont I
she laughed
Im
big on your pompoms
they laughed
deep down they knew there had
been a cross-up her therapist was better than that
Im not as quick as you to push
back babe she said I suppose I need to digest
things a bit longer
No Youre confrontational
Im confrontational with you
Immediately so
But you know thats a safe confrontationyou
understand that Im unafraid to challenge
you because I know you love me
Yes But nevertheless you are confrontational
Yes yes
But Im not as confrontational as
you I cant say I know of anyone as confrontational as you
Yaknow I dont see it as confrontational as much as I recognise it as part of my nature
Im not here to please anyone over myself
Im not here to please anyone over myself
I
suppose selfish
But I gotta be true to me
And I have to be true to me
Im just a bit slower on the
uptake But I can always count on you to
accelerate it
she laughed again self-depreciating
he loved her laughter its sound
how she didnt cover her mouth wasnt
self-conscious how her face joyously
crinkled up her eyes shining above and with her laughter
Sweetheart I love how you dissociate
Never change a thing
Oh You say the nicest things to a girl
Am I picking up points
Youre always picking up points
Bingo!
1248, Sunday,
14 8. 16
0932, Monday,
15 8. 16
Happy Anniversary
