26.10.19



he  weeaaaved  through the house   not thinking he was loadednot him he whiskeyweaved and his staggering amuuused him      

when he was drunk he always stretched words out outloud nobody would hear him

only his cats
              they were his confoundantes yes a twist on confidantes he liked to twist

did he need five confoundantes

he could probably tolerate a few more

to bounce things off
                     because they could keep a secret

keeping was important to him 

secrets fester
               an if he confided in a fallible human being they were all fallible his secret was nothing more than a ticking time bomb
SURPRISE! blowing up 
I confided in you
                  SURPRISE!  Maybe you shouldntve

so he didnt


his cats could keep their mouths shut   




most of the time he was better than not he didnt weeaaaved all the time         

Better
        he said Better out loud tryin to convince himself trying to minimise his drauma
mask  deaden  nerves  so they didnt twitchdidnt react in any moment to a stimulus that haunted him 

he smiled laughed sardonically to himself  the very last fuckin thing he needed was stimulusstimuli which waswere nothing more than vulgar smelling salts the smell of vomit miasma rising off the lip of the toilet
No thank you

hed provide his stimulus


he had no need of haunting stimuli



sooo  he held court with his confoundates as he wheedled through the house on his heelson his toeshis hands grappling with walls to keep him uprightlaughing  

1539 or 339,  Reggae Friday,  25  10. 19
1426, Saturday,  26  10. 19
Savoy Brown  I’ll Make Everything Alright (on my own)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XmZXNJ8fQcI