When I ruled the world . .
thats been awhile
nine ten weeks definitely not the last sevennot the last
seven weeks
but whos counting
why count
why couldnt it just be like today
when he took a sip of water from the drinking fountain at the gym and walked
home reading Saenzs Dark and Perfect Angels and as he walked up the drive he surprised himself when he swallowed the water that he hadnt earlier that he didnt pay any attention to his mouth full of water
and
swallowing it it might as well have been a
bucket of water thrown in his face to revive him he thought its seven
weeks seven weeks to the day
his two angels were dead now he
knew they were his angels when they first met in a hospital room over him
since then whenever they were together they were usually to either side of him
when
his wife died he went lopsided his
sister said I can help, but I can’t carry you but for a little while. You’ll have
to stand on your own.
he told her he needed her arm needed
it for a little bit so he could be stable not fall or shuffle
Thank you so much he said
You’re welcome. You know I’m
here.
If I were blind Id know you were with me
and now shes dead shes dead
exactly seven weeks but
whos counting
right now he needed to count
seven weeks fortynine days almost 1200 hours he
knew that was 1176 hours then adding the hours from 0244 almost
eleven hours almost 1187 hours right now
he needed to count
and he knew hed
be counting for many weeks to comeprobably months to come
he was coping
everyone had their way of coping
he counted
its hard to negotiate life when
it gave you two angels and now has taken
them away
he
supposed he never ruled the world alone
2307, Friday,
12 10. 18
1532, Friday,
19 10. 18
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