4/20
there hadnt yet been a better day made for him to
fall on the paper scraps he used as bookmarks he scribbled words and notes and pagenumbers
on them so he wouldnt forget the interest they inspired vocabulary thin ideas like lizard bones
wanting flesh hung on them
osnaburg(a durable coarsely woven cotton
fabric – didnt know that) obeah(sorcery practised especially in the Caribbean –
like christianity elsewhere) a fart sounding like a primal scream clearing its throat
in one hellacious gasp Feel it comin onDanger Will Robinson Danger Gimme some
room(a kind of fart you dont dare deny) Gimme room Nothing make a nigger work
more black than whip scars
these scrap bookmarkers were tucked between the pages of Marlon James The Book of Night Women a story set in Jamaica at the knees of the nineteenth century during the Age of
Science and Reason imagine that! slavery in the Age of Science
and
Reason
hell the era coming down around his earswell beyond The Age defies both Science and Reason
if he had to say it had a
taste hed
suggest its closest kin was Darbys dose someone shitting in his
mouth
(ahJamaica – Jamaica shit in ma mout?)
he wasnt being hyperbolic
he could only
conceive that those who were elected to political office were supported by a bulk of their constituents who didnt have a worthwhile public education
or those who did were dead
or who mayhap comprised
their voters were babes raised on the pap of social media for-profit
charter schools(for-profit like love means never having to say youre sorry)
schools that arent obliged or mandated to subscribe to State or Federal
standards(sub-standard may easily have been their standardtheir students a
means to an end) beyond their financial wellbeing their other possible obligation
may have been to the franchise of God His insidious godma(have their wafer(Body
of Christ) and eat it too) Eat It
Too a dark part of him hoped they would
choke on it he knew the heimlich though hed be damned if he exercised ityou have to look
out for your own and if they werent his
own and one dropped off then fewer were those hed have to confront
confrontation
he was born for it
however not so his parents or seven siblingsNah
though to be fair he might have
enabled their docileness by always throwing himself headlong into the fray no
sooner had the hiss of their exhalation completed their insultslipped out of
their throat
often he trapped in their airway
before it completely escaped
he wasnt namby-pamby about what
he took as insultthe blueness of their gagged faces provide him preliminary sustenance the ensuing disagreements arguments a fistfight
if need beso be it he was all-in in a
hearts beat
his family could depend on himhad
counted on him
and he mayhap have inadvertently
neutered them
though -- even if he understood
he was – he wouldnt have pulled back
it wasnt in
his nature
wherever
it came from
breathe
breathe Aahhh
4/20 allowed
him deepbreaths deeper than usual
soulrummaging
1712, Thursday, 4/20
1020, Sunday,
23 4. 17
1368
days or fewer remaining
Danger Will RobinsonDanger https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RG0ochx16Dg
Love Story https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B5-8_1uCzR8
Dale Cooper Quartet and the
Dictaphones Mon Bibliotheque https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LIu-7PNR00M
