22.1.18


it was the insipid buzzhums an aahs that attend people milling about an on exercise equipment that turned him off about health clubs  though he treated his as a gym an got in an out without the apparent necessity of socialising

he worked his circuit through them asking firmlyseveral times to please move so he could utilise the machine  not use the machine utilise it sitting on their fat asses using it 

it was a pet peeve (an one day hed name the right cat petpeeve  p p) that he had to ask and he asked both men and women

threw him for a loop

one  he had to ask

two the disturbing looks he endured for askingan endured isnt hyperbole  if he had his druthers hed yank them headlong off the equipment without a word  use it or loose it  kids get it  adolts are  well  dolts thick  asif entitled because life hadnt taken them out yet  their unconscious breathing heart beating blood flow  chits in their corner fuck 

few in the clutch were genuinely apologetic  something else a majority of adolts seem to have no need for


however  in their basting  he did overhear something that saddened him if he was remembering correctly

finally the bulbous bulk broke down into single cells approachable cells without the firmament or need of witness or aggrandizing  a guy he knew from inside the sauna  Steve  Steve who struggled with obesitywho spent two hours inside it sweating combatting it you have to give him credit

The circlejerk upstairs among the equipment  people I think youre familiar with Steve  someone who died in a freak accident  I hadnt heard

Yeah  Norwood

Im sorry you say his name was Norwood

Norwood  Yeah

Norwood sounded familiar  he moved from Western AvenueChicago proper to Norwood Park as a boy to live with his grandmother  was that what was familiar to him  Norwood Park  not the name Norwood
Norwood

Yeah Knew him well  I worked at the prison he worked security we yapped  he was the redheaded buzzcut who worked out here evenings then dressed out in uniform to go to work  Always did the overnight gig Liked it I spose


Norwood

Did you ever workout evenings 

Used to then lost my job  Corporate takeover

Sorry to hear that

Seems the way of the world No balls  Greed  It wasnt unexpected  At least not unexpected to meunexpected however to the majority of my coworkers who listened to their bullshit about jobswho put blind faith into what they were told not what they saw  During meetings I called corporate outcalled them liarstold em to put it in ink or shut their mouths  Coworkers told me to shaddupId certainly not be getting a job but I was jeopardising theirs

Awwell  hope springs eternal  Untempered optimism  They couldnt give me reasons for their assuredness  They just chose to hang on their words  They called them promises

They werent promises  They werent in writing  Talks cheap  They didnt empower themselvesdidnt resistthey fell over themselves training corporate employees to do their jobs 

But maybe thats where they were from an I wasnt Nobody got a job though Norwood sounded familiarmore familiar than just his boyhood town

Excuse me Steve  I spent a number of years as a boy in Norwood Park

Oh

Yeah  Norwood  I dont particularly wanna ask this  Norwoods son die of leukemia You know him

Shit  Im afraid I do  He died  Yes

Im sorry to hear that

Its worse than sorry

Worse

Yeah  You know the guysweet guywouldnt turn anyone downturn anyone away  He was runover by a seventysixyearold man who stomped the accelerator  not the brake  while going in reverse  Evidently he lost control of the car when it lurked  News described him as confused

I dont think you get to walk away  confused  no matter how old you are

I think hell plead confusion  The State did authorize a drivers license to him

Licenses bring in money  Its capital  Capital accumulation no matter human costs Theres more where they came from

Thats bleak

No  Bleak  You want bleak  Norwood was the kind of guy who would go out of his way for you

Unfortunately he couldnt get out of the way




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