21.11.23


he caught the effervescent dance of a butterflys shadow on the polishedconcrete coffeeshop floor where it appeared to sliplose its footing careenwildly haphazardly between the round café tables the hard sharpedged chair legs between oblivious patrons flitting across their shoeleather strapped sandals laced gymshoes
                                                                                          people turned with their drink in hand stepping on it but the shadow instantaneouslypainlessly came up through their feet to playing at their laces buckles flaps

he sighed
           he was grateful it couldnt be smashedgrateful when it alighted on the shelved brownbagged pounds of beans and casually deliberately stretchedflexed its wings which paced the beating of his heart
                                                                                                    he smiled
at least something else was deliberately taking a pause
                                                           he felt a kinship with the lepidoptera O pterodactyl
he laughed outloud disturbed the table of cackling women beside him whose breathless conversations were of either a soap opera The Voice Dancing with Stars or some other bullshit that aired the night before  its drama was their drauma
he disturbed a clutch of young men at another table who were strugglingnoisy with their Fantasy pro basketball picks evidently pro football picks has metastasized they had money riding on the outcomes
                                                                                           then
the shadow of the white butterfly he saw it through the plateglass window departed  he stoodtook his off the floor and left disappointed by the tables entertainments which had breathlesslyinsinuated itself into their lives necessary  perhaps required  had become a living thing
                                         which was the parasite

Reggaefriday,  18  11. 05
1515,  2sday,  21  11. 23
Reznor & Ross  Eventually We Find Our Way  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l6i2qpf8LhQ


ouroboros
            thasawesome  4 Os 
2 nights back 4 Os exploded from her throat when she went off Oooohfuck awwbaby she moaned  Oooohya got me good babe got me good her head backspine archedhands clenching a fistful of hairYAHhe got her he meted her beat rhythm synched his tongue nose chin gently teeth to her unabating grind 

   the tension finally went out of her neck her chin came forward she relaxed  she lookedlazily at him between her thighs madgrinning


Ouroboros  to himself he always listened to himself  a few others Arya really gonna bitch ifya go out where ya came in Im not I didnt want to knockup anybody get stuck paying for an abortion get shackled in a bad marriage dance with parents who may have been against I disagree  You’ll shut up she’s our daughter.  Abortion is murder.          

Nobody ought to get stuck with something they don want


I bought condoms it was a rite of passage drugstore kept them behind the counter had to ask a pharmacist 

Thank you. 
                No.

You said we coudnt have sex without a rubber
                                                  I agreed
I changed my mind.

If I may
            Why

   God doesn’t approve.

he didnt restrain the wag of his head Who

I’m serious. I’ve given it thought.
                                   God doesn’t approve.

Im not having sex with Gawd



Ouroboros  to himself  Ive know assknow pussy there was a time when I didnt know either  If this is where it ends me by myself
           Im cool    Ouroboros

2053,  Sunday,  19  11. 23
1011,  2sday,  21  11. 23
Reznor/Ross  Please Take Your Hand Away  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ypyNyfExz58