-- What exactly do you think
when you think of someone
she shifted her feet shuffled in place
Wheres this coming from
-- Fair
I think I was accused
I read it in Doctorows City of God
Halfway through the book
BAMIt hit me
I was coldcocked
An you know me
I
share everything with you
Its part of everything
Isnt it
-- It is
A weighty part of everything
-- Yah
Cant stop thinkin boudit so
Ive burdend you
Aint
apologizin
A clarion call
an
I aint never been called up for anything before
Elusive that way
Then it was there stuck in there on page 137 hangin me out to
dry
Im hangin
Yahman Im hangin
Its parsin me into lil bits while
I think an I dont even know what Im
thinkin
Exactlys got nothing to do with it
It
howls in my head
It feels loaded
like no
answers sufficient
As I said
Felt
like an accusation
-- What
exactly
do you think when you think of
someone
I cant say Ive ever thought that
-- Me neither
Thank you for alleviatin some of
the Idonwha . . .
Angst
Yah
angst
A
weight in my chest
Not on it In it
Odd
Really odd
-- I have to give it some thought before I say
-- I understand
I gave some thought before I said
I
think Im intelligent but intelligence no
it aint got nothin to do with it
But youll say when youve had time
yah
-- Yes
Ill need time
-- I still need time
-- Okay
Well talk
and he turned away abruptly
giving her his back
not throwing a look of his shoulder as he left
as if he was ashamed
or as if embarrassed
or guilty
she hadnt stopped moving her feet
shuffling uncomfortable
and they were never uncomfortable with one another since the second time
they met the first time a shambles of disinterest uninterested scarcely noticing
when one or the other left the house of a mutual friend an impromptu get-together
never uncomfortable
with him sharing anything
until now
nothing implied or suggested
except
What exactly do you think when
you think of someone
1327, Friday,
18 9. 15
