he fooled himself

                   just because she appeared little didnt mean she was young

she was little

and young

was in a pasture attending a horse how he scaled her

she hailed him  waved   waved him over

he started to climb the fence

leg over he paused

                        hed seenexperienced this scenario before he waved from the field

she waved  started    stopped

heldup an indexfinger

wagged it

climbed off the fence

kept walkingup the dirt road to the rented farmhouse where her family was staying

    he knew what he was thinking in the middle of that green hayfield

curiosity got the better of him always did

continuedjumped down off the fence  began walking towards her

she didnt get any bigger the closer he got

Christ

         a nymph

was it possible to pack that much cute onto such a small frame

                                                                   her voice  lyrical  matched the vessel

I’ve seen you before on the road a lot.

Stretchin my legs

Your . . . girlfriend? lives up the road.

Yes

I’ve seen her too, she’s beautiful.

he nodded Tha she is

You know . . . sometimes she sunbathes in the nudeI’ve seen.

Shes said

She’s seen me?

                  I’ve been quiet like a mouse.

No  Tha she sunbathes naked

Oh.

       I like her body.

I do toowhas this about  I thought yamight need help with the horse

No. I wanted to say hiya, hiya, meet you.

    Meet me

I’ve only seen you from afar.

So  whas this about

Her breasts are large.

Yes

Mine aren’t.

Maybe as you grow older they will  Lots to do with genetics

Look at mine.  she yanked her blouse open

And

      Im outa here

he turned on his heels

                          her tits remind him of the first girl he felt up she tugged his cock

he was a kid

wasnt now

Mister!  Wait!

    fat chance

beelined

            couldnt wait to tell his girlfriend she had an admirer

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Where’d ya go?

Went waondering off in my headfigured ya woudnt mind

Could have left a note.

A note

       I didnt go anywhere note triggered Miller  “. . . composing music in the key of sassafras.”

You were in the basement. When I called you didn’t respond.

I wasnt listenin  I was gone

Why does nobody else I know, or ever have, except for you, are able to turn off their hearing?

They want to hear

Are you being funny?

You don seem humouredso  no

                                 Weve had this conversation before

We have.

           You could be courteou . .

. . Leave you a note

                      I’m downstairs.

Youd come down an interrupt me

    Correct

If it were important.

Important can wait

Do you hear yourself?

If I wantwhas important

                           Wha youd deem important is important

Then whaif it isnt to me

                                                 An youve interrupted me  Im never gone long

Am I

    No.

This is an old house. You can hear me walking overhead floorboards creaks.

If I were listening

                       I was  Off

To address your question  Again

I grew up in a large family You know

Call it privacy

Call it selfsurvival

    Ill leave a note

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Maurice Blanchot  “. . . if writing is defining the unknown . . . it must always leave the unknown to be unknown, even though its purpose is the attempt to uncover and to disclose that unknown.”

In Louis Menards The Free World: Art and Thought in the Cold War he read “Literary language is figurative and polysemous.”

spirit of his frustrated psychologist rushed in 

used Jungs word association on him

                                       she was legit

apparently he wasnt

                       his associations crushed her 

though he did win his trial

her spirit raved POLYSEMOUS

he howled Cyclops

What?

Polyphemus

What?

Comon  Odysseus Odyssey Homer

    Yaoughta be happy ya held your tongue didnt chide me tried me its noun polysemy

                                                                                             Idve had to reveal something unseemly seamy creamy Campbells soup Cream of Cunt Cream of Semen topshelf stuff tasty upanaway where kids coudnt reachem in good time in plenty of time perhaps when older perhaps not  they became sophisticated  unlike me older I got I only got more curious no time for sophistication  fornicationYes sophisticYes  sophisticationOhno

polysemous

              have multiple meanings

triggered a runaway train

her spirit tucked tail and left

                               Hey

refused to look back

                  Hey  Don go away   Weve only just begun

she disappeared into the tall mirror at the end of the hallway

                                                                 couldnt begin to say how many spirits sought refuge in that mirror

his on occasion peeked outconfronted him

turned his back on him too many times to remember

                                                        Im talkin to you

flipped him the bird

evanesced

            Whard ya go

wished he could go like that

wondered where hed end up

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he said  La di dah

                           that was refreshing

couldnt say where it came from hadnt read it heard it or said it in forever

it was perfect for the moment

saw it register in his face

                              dissed

dismissed

eyes grew

wasnt used to being confronted

looked like he was going to spit

how vulgar

he was going to say it again   doubledown  unlike him

                                                      La di dah   La difuckin dah

smiled

         err  shouldnt have smiledshould have tried contrite  evenif insincere 

maybe said

               Hmmm

though wouldnt have brought him to his knees   huge order

ought to be

aggressive What did you say to me?

   Ya deaf

              You heard me

I did.  Clearly.

And what of it?

smirked

        Ah well

Oh well?

Like I said

           then hauled offkicked him in the balls so there was no mistaking was sure one testicle lodged in his gullet

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0947,  Saturday,  31  8. 24

 ROE or NO

on Novembers ballot in 9 states

Montana

Nevada

South Dakota

Missouri

Florida

Colorado

Maryland

New York

Arizona

https://www.newsweek.com/abortion-reproductive-rights-map-election-2024-1942655

   then

OHbrutha

            have Republicans pushing fetal personhood

https://19thnews.org/2024/07/republican-national-convention-party-platform-fetuses-abortion-ivf/

Zygote says . . .

                 NOTHING  its assembling cells

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