15.4.21

 

 

der Narzissmus der kleinen Differenzen 
                                            the narcissism of small differences

hed never heard of it or read it before

Freud gets credit 
                   calling it “the innate human proclivity for aggression(violence) – hed call it manliness more so white manliness – and the desire for distinct identity”

“To see one’s neighbor reflect and mirror oneself too much threatens a person’s unique sense of self, and superiority.” 

ah  Superiority  gotta feel that   whakind of man are you if yadon feel superior 


he had a simple remedy 
                           Don look   fuck “reflect  mirror” yadon look yawon see   

what he read into narcissism of small differences was the lack of confidence in oneself

know thyself translates into accepting oneself 
                                               akin to love  first one has to love themselves  then they can love another

if someone is bristling over the talents or possession another has because the talents are innate or the person wantedWanted that thing they possess 
                                         wha to get yer panties in a knot over

 

he could give a fuck over wha another man could do or had

men didnt impress him

he rarely looked at them

they had nothing he could possibly want

he was too busy looking at womenfolk 


a waste of time paying attention to men

the only time they got his attentiongarnered his ire was when they spoke and their wordstheir philosophical positions were radicallyenormously different than his

they played with hate 
                        Oh, so you hate me? 
No you disgust me 
                    Disgust and hate are different I hate no one Hate is as huge a devotion as love an seeing that I choose to love my bank is empty I float on a sea of love I cannot sail on a driedup desert that runs for as far as the eye can see
        I aint carrying a boat on my back to see if I can find water It is a forbidding wasteland

 

the narcissism of small differences 
                                      hadnt conceived of that before 

usually the only difference that goads him is when acquaintances insisttry an softpedal persuasion 

he insists its coercion   

they find coercion too strongtoo adversarial   

they would 

theyre not assertive 

1220,  Thursday,  8  4. 21
349 or 1549,  Thursday,  15  4. 21

 

a spectrogram became the latest installationupload to his dreaming
 
                                                                                it distracted him


You’re telling me you viewed a sonograph, a voiceprint . . running beneath your dream?

Yup

One voice, multiple voices?

Mine

That had to be disturbing, upsetting.

Nope 


All you got is one syllable answers?

Nah Idve thought my monotone the single words would suggest I wasnt upset  bemused curious  Not disturbed

Considering how I dream I was mildly distracted by its newness  Perhaps yer not recalling I dream in black and white colour have dreams adorned with speech bubbles characters graphically drawn stylistic also rendered cartoonish  Sometimes I dream only words asif readingdream multiple points of view  be multiple characters male female make love to myself an no matter the violence or horror theyre never nightmares always  dreams 

No. I recall.
             Although you should be able to appreciate that for someone who scarcely remembers their dreams, therefore dreamless, that when you talk about your dreams, particularly when you suggest the fantastic is meaningful, that is very unorthodox. Unreal.

I can The only reason I can remember is because Ive made a concerted effort since I was a boy Ive always been fascinated by dreams Anthen because I learned to manipulate them rather than always take a ride – though often I still do – they become more real  never unreal


Well, I’ve no idea what to make of your voiceprint. Seems impossible to me.

Yare saying that on purpose correct

On purpose?

Impossible

Seems impossible?

Apparently you also don recall Break impossible down  Im possible

AwJesus.

dreaming,  Monday,  12  4. 21
1214,  Thursday,  15  4. 21