dumbfounded   before he took another step he went to the dictionary and found there were 37 similars for the past-tense 37 similars for dumbfound

                                      typically he was dumbfounded 

after the fact

if he found dumb

he usually shookem not wanting to have anything to do with em

before bed in bed before readingtrying to shake off one too many bowls he decided he didnt its wha he did to write compose

                 evidently he hadnt enough earlier  FACKcomposed throughout the day to either side of taking his sister for their her  twice-a-year walk remembering

                                                       he doggedlyadamantly protected their walks  the walks of many others too 

Kiss my assIm busy  unapologetically

     

fossil trace ichnology which recording for future reference misspelled inchology had dumbfounded him  rather its sense

the sign left in the rock record by the impress of life rather than life itself & marks that the dead and the missed leave behind

        dumbfounded

   

so freestyling refusing to make a vertical list reminded him of honey-dos his buddies wives made for them seemed to him that women liked their demands listed vertical  his wife didnt that was nipped in their courtship she was welcome to make all the lists she wanted for herself

                                              she was exceptional at it

freestyling

             he wrote dumbfounded – deer in the headlights – moth to flame – dog on a bone – trout rising to a fly – shark to blood – bee to honey

                                  temptation   tempted

Christ  Its all temptation

   then

it becomes a trial of willpower

which can be abruptly delineated

heads or tails

if one were so inclined 

he wasnt

heads or tails  morals  good or bad   invocations

an in-between the bi-section is non-existent

either-or

   he paused

pretty black-white

   he thought

when an unassuming geode its all a matter of scale is the size of a room that you can walk into pour yourself a drink put on a record relax in an easy chair

                                     when its all around you

you can breathe it

rub your feet on it

brush static electricity into your hair

bathe in it

   then

its just you-who you think you are

you can indulge yourself savor  finish your drink

luxuriate in your temptation

   then

be who you are 

                                      fascinating

nicest thing about the geode

theres no door

just an opening 

                   readied for the next trial of confidence

2200,  Thursday,  31  8. 23

1204,  Reggaefriday,  1  9. 23

his reallyearly morning sidekick leftie hopped deftly up onto the bed at his feet scurriedup between his legs onto his body and laidout full length on top him for him to scratch her chin stroke her sides shoulders her spine itd been going on for months  her routine   his 

                                     he liked routines     

her purring pickingup her body going limp as she began to fall asleep he took a couple deliberate deepbreaths and went to see if he could catchup with her

eyes closed inside them darkeningdarkeninglying there   the word receipt occurred to him

thered been a lot of talkinghead remarking receipts  lots of courts had deliberated and were handing down sentences to the guilty having determined their justified retribution  providing them their due

before everything went completely blackbefore  he was absorbedabsolved hypnagogic hallucinations which wasnt really true   there is neither hypnagogic nor hypnopompic hallucinations for a lucid dreamer they may pick a place a time characterskick things off  but beyond those introductions GAME ON  all his doing

receipts

acquisitions

art on his walls leaning against them

books on his shelves and tables desks nightstands stacks on the floor 

vinyl records

DVDs  

CDs

   receipts

letters

postcards

destinations 

   evidence  proof of existence

right up to the last breath  maybe moments longer if their last breath is recognised                                                                                  

Deathtination  deserved its capitalisation

 

It was a mansion  and while the host wanted everyoneall the pretty people to accompany him to the stateroomthe host looked like himwas him he laughed like a mischievous boy and tuggingfree his tie he sprinted up the wide staircase smelling bathsalts in hot water flushed female flesh . . .    

0710,  Reggefriday,  1  9. 23