15.8.19


he sipped his black coffee in coffehouses diners dinettes supper clubs donut shops and from thermos on jobsites off street curbs tree stumps benches picnic tables and at rocks at the feet of the Great Lakes beside unnamed lakes the Pacific Ocean Indian Atlantic oceans from Adirondack chairs on manicured lawns or upholstered chairs sofas ottomans in apartments homes suites bars and whorehouses every sip attended by unanswerable questions and perplexed friends acquaintances strangers willing to play the game who also had nothing to say

those endless affirmations of unknowing sweetened his coffee and often absently  looking into his cup he witnessed his eyes looking back at him  brightly hinting perhaps  that they knew what his own eyes did not 
                                                                                                     by their disconnect their thin surface existence by the hints of truth he captured on his paintings surfaces

he would clear his throat Waiter Waitress Hostess Joe (the barman) Please  another cup of coffee and hed drink his eyes seeking more and new reflections
                                         reflections too in shotglasses glasses of beer goneflat off his quivering face in creeks rivers lakes and seas


always  Please more
                       and more was what he got  asif he needed more  greed is wanting more and more and more and more and the more seethed in him brewed percolated dripped and spewed onto his canvasseshis papers it hacked his stone and pieces of wood becoming growing witnesses to those ever-unanswered questions 

they made their way to places he would never visit 

emissaries of his eyes

of Her eyes 


he would always be Her eyes 

no idea when I wrote it -- earlier this century



difficult news bad news  made him furious 
                                               then hed try  try to negate his irrational bent  not beat someone senseless
not provoke them as much as his palms itched


the news exhausted himpulled his plug   emptied him

it made him heavy  two tons

made him want to sleep
                                            

it was better to sleep than to beat someone 
                                              despite him lining them up earlier as being worthy a good beating

he wouldnt kill them theyd never know how lucky they were  Never Not in a million years
thats how oblivious they were


who knows


maybe once he got up from his nap hed go out to find them anyways  insult taunt them
                                                                                              see if they wanted to dance wanted a piece of him wanted to walk into his ambush walk into the rage simmering inside him


maybe

who knows



hed see how he felt when he woke from his nap


1625,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  14  8. 19


Moscow Mitch

sounds like a cocktale
                        but then you taste it and spit it out violently  scrub your tongue with a cloth napkin then swill some iced fresh water to dilute it fearing youll vomit   



1432, Thursday,  15  8. 19


theres almost a comfort that Netanyahu can come up from giving head  to clear his deep throat  and reverse himself  lie about why he is blocking US Representatives Ilhan Omar and Rashida Tlaib from visiting Israel on a fact-finding visit



if we give it a moment his fellatio-partner 69er Drumpf will soon clear his throat too or unwrap his fingers to tweet  applauding Netayahus decision

1420,  Thursday,  15  8. 19