he needed to wrioteto get out
from under his own stomping feethis aggressive beating heart seek a dull sympathydull hard compassion which only being alone could provide
he didnt need to cry in anyones
soupon their shoulder because then all
hed do is cry
his catharsis didnt need an
audience it didnt need hands diminished by
himhis deadweight thrown on top them evenif they said it was alright
grief sympathy are like malignant cancer
involving involving involved
and unable to solve a
damn thingYes providing a solution isnt
necessary
however be better
to seek a solution than simply suffer a brutes beating
he didnt sleep well
he went to bed late no
incentive to sleep alone
his daughters telephone call woke
him early
she needed supportshed needed support
he offered her that years ago thats what fathers doshould do
they were fathers until they died
anif someone didnt want
that obligation they shouldnt have children
it wasnt that she wasnt strongnot
that she was unaware
rather if she didnt release the violent
water her emotions induced her levee could be overwhelmed possibly sweeping her away
strong swimmers drown
Imagine love Im holding your hands
they talked
they examined
they didnt form a solution
but they did securereinforce her levee
when they had hungup he poured himself a cup of
black coffee
ate a cold date
sipped Irish
the alchemy
helped
then he overlayed
his ritualtopped it off with Tools Schism ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yMMz2VwbhVI
) he
needed creep “to bring the pieces back together” creep helped offsetalways the permutations which occurred to him and stricken
him and twisted him at the molecular level
of his DNA
sounds grandiose
inflated
it wasnt
let someone say it was
they may never find their voice again
hed have torn it out of their throats
and wasnt inclined
to return it
Finders
Keepers
childish?
sometimes belligerent childishness works
ugly
reactionary
immature
So? they were welcome to try and take
it back from him
people arent courageous
not even when they are forced to suffer disadvantages imagine that
imagine that
hed tear someones cock off
or die trying
courageous no that isnt
the right word
whats the right wordthe right word when one respondsad
hoc to being violated
maybe it was the granularthe instilled “Play nice with other” “Turn the
other cheek”
he was of another tribe
if violence depredation seemed
imminent
he struck first
if they tried to get up off their backs all
hell would break loose
his advantage
he
needed to wriote
wrioting was a reprievehe
understood that
atleast something tangible was made from his angst
1212, Saturday,
24 8. 19
Led Zeppelin When the Levee Breaks https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FFDYuO53BUk
Rolling Stones Paint It Black https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=170sceOWWXc
