Fentanyl 

             or as he couldnt himselfcouldnt help but think  Fen10nyl provided him some relief 

possibly 50times more powerful than heroin 100times more than morphine

You’re pronouncing it incorrectly. 

Aye

Fentanyl. 

Ah  No 

          Pronunciation is spot on wha I intended

   Intended?

Yes

he copped a stern look Anthat is . . 

. . Obvious 

             Or rather obvious to me

   Obvious? rolled his shouldersfew things were obvious to him

Yes

Maybe to younot to me. 

No

    No youd be hardpressed a joke thinlysliced humour but yare wound too tight to playlaugh at misfortune at unfortunatemisfortunate people who took a leap might not have looked before they did tha crowded out by coercion peers intimidation  Wha yafraid

his glasses rode up his nose as he grimaced You’re talking about people’s lives. They were . .

. . Were

           Were Now on a slab in a drawer in a morgue to be claimed

 

You understand how grim that is?

   Yes

Yet you can find something humorous in that?

   I look for somethingyes  Fen10nyl 

                                       Femme fatale

What are you talking about? was wearing thinbut he began thin truth be known

Yare aware its fifty times more powerful than heroinhunredtimes more powerful than morphine

I am.

Okay We agree   I imagine a girl walking down the streetthink to myself  Oh goodness on a scale of one to ten

A Fen10nyl 

               Ten multipled by fiveby ten comparatively 

                                                           Yadig

he groaned

Black humour man Laugh or yare gonna cry     

after 1300hrs,  Saturday,  24  12. 22

2334,  Saturday

https://www.statnews.com/2016/09/29/why-fentanyl-is-deadlier-than-heroin/ 

Marilyn Manson  Sweet Dreams (Are Made of This)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QUvVdTlA23w

Hey he said it in the ubiquitous manner one would when they had something over the other or their thought unimpeachable 

                           he often stoodrailed unimpeachable which angeredenraged many but who let their heat go knowing cocksure in his vocabulary  was in fact cocksure 

                                                            they liked himbut also detested him at once   he should have been an esquire his failing was that he preferred fists to his voice reckoningarguing to victory was milquetoast to helping up or being helped up from a bareknuckled brawl had he lost more frequently maybe he wouldnt be so offensive 

                                                                                                                                 MEBBE 

they felt they wanted to spit Hey what?

I just learned I cant commit suicide

Jesus Kahrist you come out of rightfield gangbusters . . whaddaya mean . you can’t?

Nope  Cant

            Church let me off the hook he was steeped in Catholicism but dumped the tea when he recognised where it was leading him

Let you off, in particular?

Yes an I imagine anyone who thinks like I do Cant imagine Church woud offer me dispensationnot the Church I know UHUH  not no way in Hell

You’re so assured . . 

. . Ive fucked in pews 

What?

   Yah

Might suppose you can be assured . . 

. . Bareassed the crucifix

                          Though to be sure the way Christs head is lolled he coudnt see  Not that Im shy 

NO.  You are not shy. 

                       So what are you braying aboutunable to commit suicide.

Yes Its called exitus animae  Exit leave Id concur with Jung ones true inner self

So how do you regard it in light of not committing suicide . . if you commit suicide?

The Church weighed in on the implications of what once were iron lungs now ventilators It decided it was permissible to turn off the machine in hopeless cases if  if the soul had left the bodyTHAT said it isnt possible I can commit suicide committing suicide

eyes rolledhe sighed How’s that?

My soul if ever was  abandoned me for greener pastures long long ago 

                                                                           Thereby  exiting  Id just be switching off the machine 

You know . . yourah . thought process is disturbing.

   Yah

         Will be tough to turn it offbeen too much fun

he had nothing  just shook his head

2301,  Day-between-Two-T’s,  21  12. 22

1111,  Saturday,  24  12. 22

Grand Funk  Sin’s A Good Man’s Brother  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vPdKSlQOBYE