Czas isc spac.

                or when he was a boy and she was perturbed by him  abruptly SPAC.

he doesnt get to hear that any more

                                        cant

cant hear his mothers voice

Time to go to bed.

BED.

 

he misses that

                misses that

more than he can say

he hasnt a recording of her voice

how could he make that mistake

   he thought she was going to live forever

she promised

as a very little boy he was shaken by idea of death

Kiss your aunt goodbye your uncle  youll never see them again

returned to the pew where he sat with his parents

the final Wake ended

the coffin closed

he didnt see them again

he couldnt imagine not ever seeing his parents again

                                                       rushing into the kitchen where they were sitting talking crying uncontrollably he extracted the promise they wouldnt die

they promised

   she reneged

he wasnt able to fly home

Trumpvirus

his mothers wake her funeral her burial were the last performed by the Funeral Home the Church the Cemetery

he cant hear her voice in his head

occasionally her laughter

he lingers in his dreams

hoping shell show

four years

she hasnt yet

Czas isc spac.

time to go to bed

                  maybe 

maybe tonight

1232,  Reggaefriday,  23  2. 24

2118,  Saturday,  30  3. 24

film  The Five Pennies  Goodnight, Sleep Tight  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5rStWBOcB1k

he listened couldnt believe what he was hearing

                                                          but he listened

      Tha it

Yeah. Yeah I said my piece.

Extraordinary attha

                       Yare way off the beaten path

I don’t think so.

No you woudnt 

It’s what she told me. 

In confidence

Confidence?

Confided

            You in the habit of revealin confidences

I’m explainin . .

. . You have no explanation

                               Unfortunately you continue don seem to realise thaya cant speak for her  Not to me Not to anyone  No amount of intimacy allows you tha anifya think so youre mistaken  Me ya have no credence an shoud anyone take you at wha she said Id have no respect for them either Those Im intimate with Id dare not speak for them

So man Shit out of luck in this neck of the woods

                                                        Your dogs treeing no coon

it wasnt part of his vocabularyhed heard of it but it wasnt something hed considered there was no reason he would

when it was said so supposedly confided

                                               the only thing that occurred to him was a someone bound to a wheelchair

a curious visual

   Again

You heard me.

I heard you but theres a dislocation It lacks continuity lacks truth   Wasnt uttered  If it had Id recall

Id definitely recall

   codependency

1415,  2sday,  19  12. 23

1549,  Saturday,  30  3. 24

Rockets From the Tomb  Ain’t It Fun  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TLfT2b4sZ1w

Im confused  Why does it trouble you

                                         Flipside isnt encouraging unless youre a freaking believeran youre not

I’m uncomfortabl . .

. . Thas the name of the game Uncomfortable

                                                Reality man  Real  Anal   Tee

he sneered  For you.

Fuck you for you you too

                          Otherwise jump on your horse Exit Strategy an ride into the sunset  Adios muchacho

My horse Exit Strategy.   Cute.

Try to please

               But yare a hard man to please because youve been entitled all your life an this is one thing you want desperately but cant have yare denied as everyone else walkin the planet of which wholesale many have not enjoy whaya have

                Greedy prick

Yare shit out of luck

Embrace it

Id think by now you woud have

Senescence

   I heard you . .

. . It means

You know what it means.

As do you

            Tell me I want to hear it from your mouth

Really tryin’ to drive home your point.

I am damn right

                    I got a feelin ifya were one of those multibillionaires youd be spending your money on your immortality  Your immortality

Be a fuckin mythic vampire

   Yare not going to say

I’m . .

. . Senescence  The condition or process of deterioration with age

Embrace it

Better than the alternativeduh

William Hamilton

Yeah.

You know

I do.

Evolutionary biologist

Yes.

He expressed tha when he died imagine tha  when he died he wanted his body to be laid out in the Brazilian forest to be buried by the Coprophanaeus beetle

“They will enter, will bury, will live on my flesh; and in the shape of their children and mine, I will escape death. No worm for me or sordid fly, I will buzz in the dusk like a huge bumblebee. I will be many, buzz even as a swarm of motorbikes, be bourne, body by flying body out of the Brazilian wilderness beneath the stars, lofted under those beautiful and unfused elytra which we will all hold over our backs. So finally I too will shine like a violet ground beetle under a stone.”

   Elytra The tough forewings of beetles than protects the more delicate hindwings Your nodding but you didnt know the word

           You nod right so Ill shaddup

Yes.

See  We finally agree

4 or 5PM,  2sday,  13  2. 24

228preferred,  Saturday,  30  3. 24

Pere Ubu  Real World  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IViXvcmdKB4

William Hamilton:

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3871365/#RSBL20130792C21

https://royalsocietypublishing.org/doi/10.1098/rsbl.2013.0367 

https://piercelab.oeb.harvard.edu/files/pierce/files/haig_hamilton.pdf 

   often he couldnt reverseengineer how he got to where he was because the road ahead was tortuous and he had to keep his eye on it

                    in the rearview mirror no one was gaining on him

he pumped the brakes

rolled easedover to the side of the road

                                           asked

Where have I been

along the roadside was a vibrator scattering pebbleskickinup dirt  must have been geared up to MAX

it was slick

it was shiny in the sunlight

looked like a fiftycalibre round onehunredthirtyeight millimetres long  fivepointfourthreethreezerosevenone inches though heftier girthier lengthier

                           slick  shiny

no offense should be taken

                           early 1880s Dr Joseph Mortimer Granville a British physician invented it for men to be employed on various body parts to treat pain spinal disease deafness? he suggested it could be used sexually on mens perineums to alleviate impotence coudnt convince him a few didnt take the plunge

had there been fine print on the packaging it might have suggested women particularly overly sensitive hysterical women

shouldnt use the vibratrode near their clitoris AS TO INCREASE THEIR HYSTERIA GREEK Origin  hustera – womb  GREEK  husterikos – of the womb  LATIN  mid17th century  hysteria

he had to admit he was somewhat distracted by vibratory hammers vibrohammers vibrodrivers impact drivers  had to shake them off but they didnt fall far from the tree like apples acorns an children

he switched the car OFF

adjusted his rearview mirror

took a good look

                  it began with exafference hadnt seen that word before

he began with Oxford Reference “The stimulation of an animal as a result of factors external to the animal itself. misspelled itself itsserf  serf being a slave servant menial villein thrall helot ceorl”

   a vibrator is a factor Xternal to stimulating an animal

                                                              although vibratrode is chicish  chichi

Oxford urged him to compare it with reafference hadnt seen that word before either  “. . . sensory signals that occur as a result of the movement of the sensory organ.”

there he was

on the side of the road

saw where he had been

                       Onward Ho!

Arya kiddin me

Woudya shaddup Nobody asked

Ya dragged me out here anya think yare over an out concluding with Ho

   Jesus  Hos an exclamation

An exclamation

Not your ho

Meaning

Really

Meaning

Ho Prostitute   Whore

An exclamation

Yah

     Look it up

   Maybe I will

Mebbe yaoughta

                   damn heshe shehe

1430,  Thursday,  1  2. 24

1227,  Saturday,  30  3. 24

https://iac.gatech.edu/news/item/631497/know-invention-vibrator-wrong#:~:text=Granville%20invented%20the%20vibrator%20in,hysterical%20women%3B%20rather%2C%20Dr.

https://royalsocietypublishing.org/doi/10.1098/rstb.2019.0764

Jesus Christ Superstar  What’s the Buzz/Strange Thing Mystifying  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U-XbvDkA3Vk