he felt that that was the thing
about ambient music music he listened toheard although often without a source simply awash inside his skull
then other times he knew its source
he almost cried when it sounded
like a wood croquet ball whirling through blades of grass that were too long for
the game the sound of a ball tinkingcaroming
off a metal hoop or knocking against a wood stake the nyuk of one ball glancing off anotherhe almost cried when it murmured dull
like a mass of bees deep inside their hive or one bee desperate drowning in a
pool of water a queue of wee birds unseen calling from inside a thicket or from a long row
of lean decorative leafy bushes the
sigh of unpicked ripe apricots and Meyer lemons
that someone could capture and
emanate those sounds astonished him
often he sought silence to let it play with him
recently he made a road trip
his old vehicles radio and cassette
player didnt work
he refused to spend the money to replace
them Everything has its time was his
push back when family and friends suggested he replace them replace them because they couldnt travel
alone in their automobiles if they didnt have music if they didnt have distraction
they could really
they preferred not to
nonetheless he ignored them he let his thoughts entertain himbuoyed on the
ambient sound of his tires on the pavementthe difference between stretches of
roadof newlaid roadsof roads that needed attention
each had their own voice
sometimes he heard the bored complaints or disdain of inanimate objects that rode with him dresser drawers nightstands a chest laid on
its side another time two agitated Styrofoam
containers bitched at having to rub shoulders with the spare tire he carried in
the rear of the vehicle rather than held up against its undercarriage between the
hind wheels subtly they talked between themselves he
heard then they got up on their high horses suddenlyballsy
and brayed outraged at him Shaddup back
there or Ill pull over an throw you out
Were within fifteen minutes of arriving but if yawanna bitch Ill lose
you in a heartbeat
they quit
they shut up
they were ambient
however not in a
sense he enjoyed
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