he started to think about its Whythen
stopped
he did it again
he took a sip of coffee earlier
then
went outdoors to take the trash out down
the hill while grabbing the trash cans he
realised the hummingbird feeders were low
he replenished them rehung them
he saw the feral cats water in the watering can was lower than he likedthan
probably theyd like he watered some
plants refilled the emptied can then he came inside poured himself a fresh cup
of coffee sat down to responded to an emale went to take a sip and recognised he
hadnt swallowed the sip he took twenty minutes earlier
Why
Fuck if he knew
seemed he had
acquired the habit somehow
the longest hed gone was
preparing a chickentrussing it up on a rotisserie plucking out of its body cavity two necks
three hearts three gizzards no liver -- he wanted to see that twoheaded chicken
alive -- cut up carrot celery onion garlic add a bouillon cube and started them up over a Lo-setting on the
electric range in a couplethree cups of water for a side of soup
replenishing his emptied cup with
coffee and going to sip it he realised hed kept the prior sip in his mouth for
fifty minutes
he had no idea Why
recently he was catching himself with
a sip of beer whisky water milk not immediately swallowing it
but
it occurred to him
he was living alone now so there was no need to talkmeybe that was it
if he didnt have to converse
there was no need to swallow On
Demand a sip in order to respond
meybe it was a good practise
he was confrontational argumentative
meybe he was teaching himself in his
own way – there was only his way – to bide his timehold his tongue let his thoughts descend coagulate form
completely then attack
definitely attack
he wasnt one to
spare others feelings not even
children
ignorance maybe bliss
but he didnt
ascribe to bliss or comfort or thin skin
open your mouth
if you put your
foot in it hed strangle you with it
Meybe
1523, Twosday,
13 10. 20
