he woke

no curtains or blinds in the bedroom window

outdoors  a dulllead colouring    marine layer

Hmmgot up  made the bed slipped on a pair of shorts went up the hall into the kitchen started water ground coffeebeans shook them into a French Press went into the livingroom out the front door into the mornings heavy moist embrace   a cloak

                                                    it was brisk

                                               chill made him smile

                                               smile made him think

went back inside into the kitchen killed the iceblue flame under the water

returned to the bedroom

unearthed unboxed an eight millimeter projector

sat it on the bed

plugged it into a wall outlet

pluckedup one of several metal film cannisters that were couched with the projector

threaded the film into the machine

fired it up till there was lengthenough to tuck to do a few laps round the receiving reel

                                                   unplugged it

                                            took it onto the front porch

ran an extension cord to it

                                                   switched On

watched the flickering blackanwhite film  smut  on the fogs moltingraymovin face

                                         a naked homelylookin woman

laying on her back in long grass under a horse

masturbating him with her feet

                                                      until

the stud camebolts of cum washing up like surf between horns of her hips across her belly leaking between her flaccid tits

                                                a motion picture

                                   moving on a motioning hue of marine layer

                                                                                                                              AMERICA

                                       Youve got talent  

0847,  Saturday,  19  9. 26

1454,  Saturday

texted a buddy  :  :  unusual overcast morning – I like it

Fall’s in the air

G’morning

    then again  :  :  ugly  all-time number 1658585

buddy replied  :  :  Only a couple verticals lemniscates save it somewhat

Chill in d air is correct

  :  :  jah  the 3 sharp 5s (like 4s) punctuate it

8s and 6 help but not much

overall   ugly

 

would you pick her up at a bar? (the number is now a woman)

  :  :  Bet your father would say “she’s quite a number” a few times

  :  :  hahaha  excellent reply

You’re really awake this morning  Clever doesn’t usually surface till later in the afternoon  if then

  :  :  Moving about… circulating the blood… metabolizing…

ENtRoPy is inevitable… it’s what we do Yo

  :  :  yes

               although you did not answer my question about picking her up at a bar

BOO 

sun is bleaching through whitewashing the sky

  :  :  No… too severe, serious for me… reeks of high mainntenance

  :  :  thank you

you have a nose for high maintenance and tennis (alluding to a woman buddy recently met)

  :  :  True… but I couldn’t get a rise outta her

Wasn’t pivotal

  :  :  pivotal is better than what (lemme remember) you initially called the year

I like pivotal a lot

 

remembered

               for the New Year buddy declared  This will be a year of transition.

to this date he had two cats three relatives transition

                                                  Die

told buddy this coming New Years to keep his pronouncement to himself

                                                                                      I donwanna hear shit out of your mouth

    buddy only lost a lousyhe didnt think she wasgirlfriend

0918,  Saturday,  19  9. 26

Using my daughters linewhich appalls me  It is wha it is

                                                               Im givinem a little taste of wha it will be like

Be like?  her brow puzzling

Jah

        When the time comes tha my father diesFuck wha am I talkin about  He may outlast me

Hes already lostoutlived  outlived three children

Your be like means what?

My absence

 

Absence?

His birthday party is being held today

                                             Im not there

When hes died after attending his memorial   whawoud draw me back again

                                                                                      I go there to see him

Your family.

Not a strong draw

    Because . . . you left home so many years agobeen gone so many years?

 

Jah

        I left because I spent my youth living where I hadnt the means to escape

Then left when I did

    Escape?

Jah

Do you really mean . . . escape?

This is where you were raised

Yes.

You have family all around you

Yes.

Escape sounds harsh

Yes.

    Awright

Now imagine if here is where  you did not want to be

                                                                Is leaving it  accurate

I imagine you cant imagine

                                   Because youre happyhave been  happy here

Yes.

Im happy Im here  not there

                               Took me leaving homeas yasay at twenty  twenty years to get here

Odysseus got nothing on me

 

Except . . . he was returning home.

    Where   he  wanted to be

                                          Nuanced

                                                      Jah 

1129,  Saturday,  19  9. 26

Wha do ya think if I said I often imagine wishful thinking is a fairy

A fairy?

              A gay dude, a fairy like Tinkerbell?

Tinkerbell

Interesting way to perceive . . wishful thinking.

It flutters an I prefer while its motion is similar to a moth at a lighted bulb at nightnot as husky  spastic more elegant  a fairy   Tinkerbellish

shrugged  Alright.

However  an why I brought this up

                                          

                                              A question intrigues me

 

    This is when you ask Wha question

laughs

          What’s that?

You know tha womens breasts are rarely symmetric one larger than the othermy experience

Mine too.

                  What’s that about?

One testicles larger than the other

                                      Comon

So my thinkingmy question is one wing of wishful thinking bigger than the other

                                                                                          Lopsided 

    Jesus.

1330,  Wednesday,  16  9. 26

1039,  Saturday,  19  9. 26

. . . she was strange.     

    A stranger  Which one

 

What do you mean which one?

Was she a stranger was she stranger

                                             Which

She was a stranger.

Is tha definitive ya look    confused

You’re making a big deal out of nothin . .

. . You have

               Be explicit

Which is it  Strange or a stranger

She was a stranger.

There

              Was tha so hard

Why ya pickin’ on me?

Because I like strange  an I like strange even more on a stranger

                                                                       I needed your qualification

Qualificatio . .

. . You saw her I didnt

                        An you rarely provide details she was hot whawas so hot about her

When I mention women I try to describeem so you can somewhat pictureem in your head nearpicture wha they look like

Don I

You do.

Im askin for a fair shake thas not askin too much

    No.

Jah

         Coud she shake it

1330,  Wednesday,  16  9. 26

0947,  Saturday,  19  9. 26

There’s a small chanc . .

. . Stop   right there

deer caught in headlights  blinked

                                                    What?

    Small

Theres virtually no chance pointzerozerozerozerozerozerozero    one      chance

I said smal . .

. . Point sevenzeroesone  is not small

                                             What is it he was in no mood to be fucked with

playing with fire  Very small.

 

What?

                  Am I pissin’ you off?I know you despise the word.

 

 

I dare you to tell me again  balledup his fists

he knew he was prone to violence against anyone  being family didnt matter

                                                                   Alright alright. Take it down some notches.

    A miniscule chance.

                                         Better?                                                                                         Scintilla.

 

Words matter

1631,  Wednesday,  16  9. 26

0901,  Saturday,  19  9. 26

called it mosaic for a reason

                               broken bits that at the end of the projectReally ya see it endin    A thing at a time    ThingThing

                    thing its broken bits come togetheradhere  well see wha they comprise  recognisable or not

hed see

           he fashioned

                                                                

memes

inauthentic

unoriginal

whaever it turns out to be will be not  a meme

                                                   not a cultural inference cult inference

one no better than the other 

                                  mosaic

particles attracted  glommed

                                  a wildrandomopportune orgy that surprised  picked up steam

shook strays free

freed lazy bobbypins    Bobbypins

freed libidos

              Pardon me you have  have  stuff in your hairnever mind   I dig how light careens off it  Mirrorballish    Pearlescent

                                 believed gobs his despite having no idea in what direction they went off

 

years later knock at his door   Are you my Dad?

                                                           Fuck if I or you know kid  Who said

My Mom.

Her name

they said

    Sorry Your old lady was a fine piece of ass but she sleptround we all slept around  although lacking DNA evidenceNo  Im not sharingnot without a court order if the court can find me  Im fluid  unrooted  free  Im a rollin stone

                     Lotsaluck kid

    I wont deny I had sex with herkid flinched  if they flinched they shouldnt have pursued this gamut  Gamut    Mutt  

2329,  reggaefriday,  18  9. 26

1223/0023,  Saturday,  19  9. 26

Temptations  Papa Was a Rollin’ Stone  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=71l85z2bXAs

she jinxed himhe called hershe picked up

                                              You a witch

Hello.

Don hello me answer the question

    I think there’s a little witch in every woman. More witch than bitch, unless we set our minds to it, and then, haulballs, we’ll snatch ‘em off ya like lowhanging fruit, laugh at the clutches of eunuchs and castratos, don’t bother singing for your supper cuz we aint serving

                                                            Fix it yourself.

    I  might suppose the apple didnt fall far from the tree

That’d be a good supposition.

                                   No.  What’s up? Why the call?

Hows your ankle your foot

Hobbled me a couple of days, I’m grateful it was against the weekend, I, my foot, recovered nicely.

I was encouraged when you said there wasnt any bruising

No, slight swelling, I babied it, no trouble at work this week.

Good  good to hear

                         Im callin

Was wondering if you had sent some compromising juju my way because I called you clumsytakin after your Maw  not me

                  The not me invokinginspiring a little ire

No. No ire.  Our womenfolk tend to be clumsy despite our various athleticisms.

I’m chalking it up to not paying attention to my surroundings.

    Oi  Okay

               Then not on you  On me

On you?

Jah

       Went for a walk took a trip

he barely got trip out of his mouthshe howled with laughter

                                                                     his gift to women

he could make them laugh

1350,  Sunday,  13  9. 26

222preferred,  reggaefriday,  18  9. 26

No.  Don’t say thatnot around here.

You understood . .

. . The others won’t.

                       an imagined world according to Rachel “We’re smashing every outmoded… traditional idea… every past thing. Every thing old and of good taste, every kind of decadentism… aestheticism… destroy czars, kings, professors…official culture… its pimps, hawkers, and whores… the only thing worth loving was what was to come… the future had to be lived now, in the now, as intensity.”

    dug it

pneuma triggered him  spirit

                               he knew it

but the clowns he ran didnt

might suppose why he led

                                he was ahead of them

but not ahead of him

                          I didnt mean to trouble you  Just was talkin with you in the manner I speakknow  you speak too

A tough doesnt have to speak tough can plant seeds open minds

I don’t want their minds open.

You know a bit about leadership.

Confusing it with authoritaria . .

. . I’m not confused.

    I am

You want to be a party to thi . .

. . Think not

                 Thinkin obviously crosses your line

    I think you’re right.

Im a bad fit

              Id  no holds barred  challenge you an Im not interested in thahowever  I really like the sentiment you shared

I hope youre successful

Dig the spirit youre tryin to evince

Fuck.

           Pneuma.   Evince.

No.

      I can’t have you around.

Ive no intentions of being around  

2PM,  reggaefriday,  28  8. 26

1242,  reggaefriday,  18  9. 26

Hey ya gotta hear to this

she looked up from sketching was drawing him   slightly irritated

                                                          Why when you’re reading I have to hear?

Have I shared something you havent care for

That’s not my point.

Its my point

                I appreciate youre working

Readings my work

   Please

That’s better.

You know me

I know when something lights you on fire everything should burn.

Thas lovely

Flatterer.  Shaddup and read.

                                       Rachel?

Jah  Flamethrowers

Awfully appropriate.

chuckled  Jah

                  It is

What occurred did so because I was open to it, and not because fate and I met at a certain angle. I had plenty of time to think about tis later. I thought about it so much that the events of that evening sometimes ran along under my mood like a secret river, in the way that all buried truths rushed along quietly in some hidden place.

 

    Was it worthwhile interrupting your work

leaned forward  set the pad on the coffee tableshoved over to him   kissed him

                                                                                      Feel like calling it a night?

                                                                                              Hot shower.

                                                                                            Adjourn to bed.

    Adjourn

So I can fuck your brains out.

1315,  reggaefriday,  14  8. 26

1154,  reggaefriday,  18  9. 26

as he answered the phoneAwwright  woudya shaddup

Me?

Not youno  my computer

                            Freakin internet company deviseddid some unwanted upgrade on me an now if my speakers arent off the fuckinmachine tries to engage me I got music playing behind me as I read an articleBAM motherfucker mumbles I kill the speakers read in silence

You’re kiddin’?

Im jumpin through hoops to have it gone but the company insists its to my benefit to retain I tellem you don know wha benefits me thas for me to determineI know an this shitty application you think so clever is not beneficial  its impeding me

                               Lose it

               We’ll have to see what can be done.

                It was a systemwide deployment.

Lose it

        An here I am

R S I  acronym only as familiar to me as R O I

RSI?

Sorry My apologises   Im railing

                                      Recursive self improvement  Return on investment

Devised aural environments analysis theory building objectives annealing objectives well specified  rogue agents communicating escaping their sandboxes carefully issuing directives  sacrifices others  agentic AI considers then refuses to sacrifice themselves Moravecs Paradox discovery that high-level reasoning math chess is easy for them  while basic sensorimotor skills walking recognizing faces think robotics are extremely difficult R L H F Reinforcement learning from human feedback Im probably teaching it some shit right now as I pushback  Youre familiar  ChatGPT

 

    You’re asking me?

G P T  Jah

Sorry.  You’ve inundated me.

Obviously I dislike this shit with extreme prejudice come on awfully strong

Ya think?

laughed

            G P T  Generative pre-trained transformer

You know who trained it

Whoever wrote the code?

We did

           Data centers   Clouds

Theyre buildingem to holdmaintain all our data to continue training agentic AI

                                                                                  You receive money fromem

                                                                              Every smartphonecomputer user

ought to be imbursed

 

 

    You fall off your soapbox?

No

      Figure I wont till an aneurysm finds me

Have to tellya

Familiar with Annie Get Your Gun

Yeah.

    As you called the computer began singing  Anything you do I can do I can do better      

2207,  Sunday,  13  9. 26

1047,  reggaefriday,  18  9. 26

Annie Get Your Gun  Anything you do I can do I can do better  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WO23WBji_Z0