22.10.22


pensee



Deepressed


losing my mind

sucking on Latuda tabs

take it at night to help me sleep

Latuda latitude

2324,  Twosday,  18  10. 22
1526,  Saturday,  22  10. 22
he really disliked the contrived artworkthe portraitures evoked 


a homeless man under the viaduct yelled Wha’s that smell, wha’s that smell? as he walked below him on the birdshitspattered sidewalk 

homeless had situated himself on a concrete shelf highup near the steel palegreen painted undergirding

he heard a reply but didnt see who spoke Insecticide bugs up here.

That’s insecticide?

Huhhah.

It smells amazing.

Do have a pleasant smell.

Mind sharing?

You got bugs?

Not yet . . but we’re slumming in close proximity.

You insinuating something? a slight violence in his voice

No not at all, nothing personal . . crawly bugs.

They do yah they do.  he heard him moveshift then saw some part of him  he was cocooned in a crummy soiled sleeping bag  Ya give it back?

I will.

You got bugs?

No . . but smells so goodthought I’d use as an insecticide and an underarm deodorant.

Underarm deodorant?

Yeah.

Aw man that is fuckin brilliant.


he wagged his headkept walking 
                                   Wow he thought wont ever whine again about my circumstances

1627,  Twosday,  18  10. 22
1446,  Saturday,  22  10. 22


  on occasionrare occasion his mind skipswandersreturns to 2017 he has a long memory infamous Charlottesville the tiki torchesthe braying White Nationalists Neo-Nazis racists he recalls the imbecilic frosting on the cake Former “. . . you also had people that were very fine people, on both sides . . .” 
                                                                 Former had nothing on Beavis and Butthead Fire! Fire! Fire! Fire! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XchwE9zVdnw

his mind wanders 
                    at the time he thought someone there should have had his thought  toss pretty coloured gasoline-filled balloons on the tiki goons 
                                  made him chuckle sardonically as it went off in his eyesreminding him of the Scarecrow from The Wizard of Oz  Here Scarecrow, you wanna play ball?  The Wicked Witch tosses a fireball at himScarecrows frenetic stationary horsegallop as the Tinman falls on the ground to smother the flames 
                                                        he could imaginecould see all those Gittyup! hoppintrottingallopin white supremacists Jews will not replace us! while they do a fabulous impersonation of replacing them

   You know thas a little sick doncha whispered an inner Mariachi  

Guillermo ya don have to whisper I like to think it a kind of parity a little dose of Sick for the Sick

1627,  Twosday,  18  10. 22
1135,  Saturday,  22  10. 22