Huhmm The floors mine
Run with it
Well get to your IDs in a moment
she laughed and her laughter peeled off into her pronouncement of her diarys entry title
I called it
Jailbait and Switch
Jesus Thats sensational
Right
I thought I was a genius I titled it even before I wrote the entry
Does it really go Dear Diary
No
My diary has a name that Ill not share
Ill admit I surprised myself when I put her in my purse this morning and I brought her with out into the light of day out of her space from between her other selves her sorority Ill never be in one A sorority of one a dear imagined confidante Ill never have a flesh and blood friend as close as she is to me
Jailbait and Switch
I wont read it exactly as I wrote it Ill relate retell the evening
Why jailbait and switch
If youll remember despite it almost sunset I came down in my suit A wrap over it
It didnt wrap much
No
I suffered his eyeballs because I wanted to please yours
You knew it was a show didnt you
No Recall I called you precocious This lent itself to my perception of your precociousness
Gosh If I was as precocious as you thought me then
I only had snippets and snippets like generalising are weak mistaken However I had only broad brushstroke to paint you Which is why I said precocious More so I used it to define by your physicality which was out front and in full regalia
Regalia Nice word I like it
Maybe if you called me regal rather than precocious . . .
. . . We didnt know each
other Such a friendship wouldnt have
gone over well
If I were a boy . . .
. . . Not if you were a boy Children do not mix with men and men
dont mix with children and before you get your pants in a knot because I can
see it in your face the simmering right behind your eyes in them I dont mean it
as an affront
I mean it because it had to be and otherwise would have been inappropriate
I mean it because it had to be and otherwise would have been inappropriate
But you were inappropriate to say come see me when youre of age Two picture IDs
I was But then you were precocious And it certainly played well in the gist of things
It did Youre right It did
It was pretty funny
It was very funny And youre right it was funnier because it happened to Bobby was lavished on Bobby
Married since he was sixteen
Oh Im sorry I didnt know that
Not as sorry as he Though you might have prickedexcuse me a little something in him that night His marriage broke up later not that you were the cause but maybe the now here I go with genius the impetuous impetus
Ha genius I cant imagine
He was married only a year older than I was at the time
Married And had a child
Oh my god
Can you imagine that
No I would have aborted Id abort now
Not a good Christian girl
Religion hasnt a place determining my sexuality body my belief in myself
In this neck of the woods which Im sure youre aware knocked up IS baby on the way This community and its surroundings would pillory a girl who thought otherwise After all boys will be boys they response to their Godgiven sexuality whether theyre duped or seduced by a salacious . . .
. . . A teenage seductress . . .
. . . Or younger
Jesus
Were getting off point Bobby as you said was the perfect fallguy He didnt mind falling for you
He didnt did he
So what does your diary say about jailbait and switch What exactly did you mean
He fixated on my breasts duh so fixated he didnt listen to the story my words hence bait and the switch was the joke itself
I wouldnt have been able to pull it on you
No Not with a cigarette butt and nail polish as propsNo
No Though you listened to my tale
To be fair it was the first time Bobby ever laid eyes on you and Bobby I dare say hadnt been in the presence of youthful beauty or garnered attention deliberately lavished on him
You lavished him
Dont say it like that I didnt ravished him
Youre quick You followed It was as near to ravishment as Bobby would know He was damn near goofy in his obedience his acquiescence
You think
I think a puppy for his bone
Bone
I said bone
Okay
Yes Continue
You recall I had him make a fist and then I tried to finger it coming in from on top and explained how he had to relax so I could fit inside him I kept telling him to relax relax as I kept fingering his fist slipping my finger into it again and again
You were emphatic
I was Jailbait
He didnt hear a word of it Utterly fascinated
Utterly Stop it
I thought when you produced the stripped cigarette filter he might wonder where you were going with it
I was flummoxed
Then I gentled the filter into the hole in his fist and fingered it deeper and deeper into his hand
Grunting And sighing
And emphatic
I didnt miss your emphasis yaknow And you didnt miss I was watching you either
I wanted you to look
Then in a frenzy of fingering I swapped my finger for a capful of fingernail polish
And gasped
I did gasp I thought despite never having sex my gasp was perfectly time
Pitch perfect Though your laugh was like a cruel splash of ice water
Then Bobby opened his hand to your Look see I came
Had you ever seen that trick before
Not before And not since
Not since you saw me last
Not since I saw you last
the room grew very quiet quieter than even beyond the cessation of their talking
their cogs and gears marvelously oiled
whirling soundless
she closed her diary
sat holding it in her hands they faintly trembled
she didnt say anything
neither cleared their throat
feeling they were cigarette filters sensuously packed into someone expectant fist
uncharacteristically he low in his throat said
About those IDs
1630, Saturday, 30 4. 16
1250, Sunday, 1 5. 16
Fred Frith The Technology of
Tears: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ug3w66y5a2Q
