under flickering yellowlashes candlelight soaking in the tub he looked up kittycorner to
the corner above the basin cabinet and mirror
there was a pitiful spiderweb he could scarcely make out the spider in it
he took a sip of his whisky then
set it down on the tubs edge over his left shoulder he held the liquor in his mouth mused
before he swallowed
he mused that it had
been four years since a spider attempted suicidehiding in his bathwashed
towards the drain
appleseed had tried three times in
just over a month
she was huge
her web in the same corner was fastidious
he cleanedup the countertop the
desiccated deftlywrapped insectcorpses he gently swept them into a small dustpan and laid their bodies outside
in the poppy planters maybe someone one day would accord
him the same respect it shouldnt be hard
to respect an extinguished life
yaaintnoappleseed after appleseed disappeared squatted in her
web
he attempted suicide once
but
appleseed had prepared him no suicides
on his watch
he again proved nibble shutdown
the waterdammed the wash to the drain with his handsaved him
appleseed proved stalwart after
her attempts hed take the stepstool and
standing on it he blew into her web shed rush fearsomely out of the
corner at his face then heel
theyd converse
rather he talked to her
it wasnt
until he said goodnight or goodday and stepped down off the stool that she
retreated
the evenings when his illness
reduced him to crawling out of the tub shed come to the edge of the web he either hadnt the strength to coordinate to
squat to stand or couldnt endure the pain in his wrists and hands to push
himself up
so he crawled out of the tub
maybe
his crawling made she suspect he was a big spider
when she disappeared the last
time he realised her grace
by disappearing she didnt let him confront her dead body on the
countertop
which would have crushed him
given his healthhis state of
mind
appleseed had been his companion
for more than a year
it didnt strike him odd to say that
he loved her
1230, Twosday,
6 7. 21
1322, Reggae Friday, 9 7.
21
Doors Love Her Madly
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5iqfXaGliq8
wouldnt it be wonderful to disappear rather than die
