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Bee

her name suited her to a T

she was kinetic lightning in a bottle  sassy even curtsied jealously to her

but only her husband Russ or a few close friends were allowed Bee  shed acknowledge them  if anyone else dropped Beeaddressed her  it was as if they never spoke or she didnt hear them

to everyone else it was Bernice or Mrs. Leveack


she was a soughtafter hairdresser

she went to womens homes to do their hairwhich was ridiculously convenient for her clients

she didnt respect salons  They up their prices you pay their overhead. 

her cuts were usually five or ten dollars less

a dollar bought more then
                         fivecent candy bars were bigger than the ones were paying a buckfifty for now he quit candy bars more years ago than he could remember  last century  


occasionally she cut hair at her apartment  thats where she cut his  but he had to be patientunderstand his cut would take longer because she was making dinner

Russ ate at 6 

sometimes as Russ ate at 6 he watched his reflection eat in a mirror  I’m almost done, baby she would say

Take your time, Bee, don’t louse up his beautiful hair on my account.

Russ would blow kisses at him in the mirror  Anyone else other than me tell you you’re pretty?

No one aside from you would get away with that Russ  We cant fight in the house anif we took it outside Bernice would never cut my hair again 

Leave him alone, Russ. He’s the only man I’ve ever cut.

Because you cut his mother’s hair.

Because he asked if I would, not because his mother sent him to me.

Whaddaya call that haircut, boy?

he smiled at Russs reflection chewing pot roast  As Ive told you before  A shag


when Russ finished chewing he wiped his mouth with a linen napkin  Bernices dinner setting was second to none  China  Silver  Russ was drinking his cold beer from a crystal goblet  A shag. Yah. I seem to remember.

Why don’t you come with me to Tony’s, a proper barber shop, and get a real man’s haircut?

Bernice is giving me a real mans haircut  Anything I do is manly  You like your hair cropped  You have Bernice  I like my hair long  And I have plenty of women who like my hair long  They latch on itwind their fingers through it keeping my head exactly where they want it

That’s enough, Joe Bernice said  I'll tell your mother . .
. . She knows . .
. . Russ is eating.

He is  I apologise Sometimes I forget my table manners

Bee.

Please, Russ, my dinner’s not getting cold. I have it warming in the oven beside your second helping. We’re just about done here, love.


he and Russ had an affection despite Russ picking on him

he knew Russ and Bernice were kids togethermarried right out of high school

he couldnt imaginelet alone imagine being with only one woman in your life or a woman with one man



the last few haircuts Bernice gave him when he would return after moving to Minnesota she still cut his hair with a cigarette smouldering between her crimsonslashed lips still the longest hanging ash he ever saw on any cigarette in anyones mouth Fucking World Record Length that shed gently take from her lips and place intact in a furrowed bit of a large blownglass cocktail ashtray heaped with butts and ashes  and then with her free handher other still holding a swatch of his hair shed clutch to her face a plastic respirator attached to a hose from her oxygen tank and breathe deeply for several beats

she suffered emphysema

Bernice

Let it go, Joe. I always knew cigarettes were going to be the death of me. I’m okay with it.


his mother called him to say Bernice passed  Russ had her cremated as she wished but he couldnt think about a memorial for her  not just yet



Russ died not a month later  Of a broken heart he thought 



late May, 2018 (scrawled on a page dated 2222, Saturday,  26  5. 18)
1118, Monday,  30  7. 18