Huh

            was sitting on the pothad decided not to let liknowleum have their way with himaverted his eyes raised them up and   saw  no daddylonglegs   fat chanceno chance they were spawn of appleseed  who she  remained his steadfastcompanion for more than a year through a bleak winter before surreptitiouslystealthily disappearing   not a goodbye  breaking his heart into tiny pieces

seeing none in the bathroom he ventured throughout the house only to discover one where usually they proliferatedfreaked out his granddaughters Momma! Why does Grampa have spiders in his house? Why do human beings prevail eradicate murder insects who are beneficial only living their lives  not interrupting theirs

he found one

                in the bedroom above the head of the bed where on cold evenings he ran an electric blanket

had to believe radiant heat

appleseed was hardier

                          stayed tucked in the corner between the wall and ceiling above the sink  that said  he was struggling and throughout that winter he took three hot baths a day to keep functioning

    bathroom door closed

was pretty steamy

could be why she stuck around

 

no matter  she was a comfort during his abject discomfort

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he liked the piece the part he played

                                         hed written that on an original yellow 3M Post-It its stickiness lapsed

a bookmarker in Hunter S Thompsons paperback Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas

he liked the piece the part he played

                                         it bears repeating

looked around

he was surrounded by him

if he was removed from the studio someone saw a photo of him a rare commoditydidnt like being photographeddidnt posehad to be candid theyd know him

                                      like he knew artists

when he witnessed their canvases sculptures  read their books poems tracts

had balls to reveal themselves  quietly

                                                 some sought bullshit celebrity

an infection

  cancer

while others let their work say all that need to be saidDon ask

                                                                       had to ask   didnt get it

Fuckya

 

You would say that to someone who expressed interest in your work?

 

 

Are you ignoring me?

 

You’re ignoring me . .

. . Tacenda

Things better left unsaid.

 

    Jah asshole

no fuckin idea, 21st Century

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tacenda  Bob Dylan, The Band  Nothing Was Delivered  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1xLfbx6MK6s & Bob Dylan  We Better Talk This Over  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vvbhzoo13Gc

. . . Gonzo . .

. . Careful  Really

                        Hunter S Thompsons terroritory  not to be confused with territory

Use gonzo  deploying the Sacred

                                       Treading on Sanctity

I get it I understand. Take a look. she handed him the book had to treat herself to it for Christmas despite it making her Santas list  no one steppedup to gift her

paging through it  the artwork

                                   Awwjeez freakin clever                                                                

read some text

                  Freakin informative

 

Methinks Hunter woud approve

Right.

        Not sacrilegious at all, I know you affection for Hunter Thompson.

Jah

     A hero  A mentor

First dose many years ago  Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas  A beatup paperback copy from JD  February NineteenNinetyeight

                       Sorry to say I cant see JDs face  We worked together

Me in the office amid eight women we were all lefthanded  he was in maintenance

He inscribed it

                 Abandon All Hope ye who enter into book reviews for beer & bullets . . . . from Shit House to Random House . . . . it is people like us that sow the seeds of strange and fatal compulsion . . . .

Paperback includes illustrations by Ralph Steadman  A fuckin classic

Depp starred in the film

I wasnt sure Id take it in

Im pleased I did

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https://www.jessieggers.com/gonzo-ichthyology-a-graphic-guide/

https://www.gq-magazine.co.uk/article/hunter-s-thompson-quotes-wake

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CiTllYeJc48

they visit with him in his dreams

                                             and sometimes     terrify him

last night

          he wouldnt call them nightmares there is no such thing as a nightmare

a belief he held in kind with Miguel Angel Asturias’ Mulata

                                                                Life is life. There is no good life or bad life.

then they leave him

                     leave him to analyse what they shared together because                

no one other than himself can intervene in a dream

                                                          not a therapist he chuckled

                                                                         a therapeutic thespian

acting

           because they havent the depth

wealth of knowledge

had the relationships

why they visit

why they manipulate settings

why their precise stagecraft

                                  for an audience of one

his daughter visited

she kept referring to a hill she was to be buried on the next day

Wha hill  I don know wha youre talking about

Tomorrow.

    Show me  Please

You really don’t know?why don’t you know?

I don know

Come she said  I’ll show the hill I’m still not sure which direction I want to face what view to take in.

For eternity

Yes.

       she took him by the hand and led him

at its foot under cold brittle snow he could make out elk paths that woundswitched back and forth up the side of the high hill they walked kneedeep breaking snow and because she held his hand he felt light because she held his hand he was surefooted  breathed evenly

at the top

             See.  Breathtaking, isn’t it? they kept holding hands

Its beautiful

they walked

               You can understand why I’ve chosen this place.

Yes

There are so many views to choose from. Sunrise. Sunset.  Across the valley the forest opposite.

Yes

What do you think?

I have no thought other than it is your choice  Antha Im grateful you chose to share it with me

You would have seen tomorrow.

    I am happy you shared it with me today

                                                she squeezed his hand tight

 

when he wokehis hands clasped

                                      he could feel her hand between them

earlyAM,  Wednesday,  31  12. 25