23.5.20


sitting on a bench outside the school compound schoolchildren are held in compounds for their protection their protection or protecting the school or district from lawsuitscertainly not protected when the walls surrounding them are breached and a shooter enters and theres nowhere knowhere they can run 
                                                                               if he was a kid hed rather run for the hills than hide under desks or in broom closet or behind a fallible locked classroom doorthe teacher with them as terrified as they are   

he could only suppose no one had heard the old adage As easy as shooting fish in a kettle he preferred kettle to barrel which readily lent a link to a kettle of fish meaning awkward difficult bad situation  killing two birds with one stone


he was waiting for his granddaughters

he didnt like that they were incarcerated in school
                                                     that they were being educated that safety is attainable only inside walls keeping them
                      keeping the other out

a pretty nifty way to indoctrinate children  enforcing grim socialisation and captivity


the way he was when he was a kid
                                      he wouldnt have seen the electric light inside one of their classrooms or ever have to listen to the harrowing shrill of their spoonfed curriculum an administration anxious and more concerned to provide groupthink hive or ant mentality than grapple with his freethinking which likely would have deemed him incorrigible

his daughter and soninlaw chimed Different times, Dad. There’s more trouble out there than when you were a kid.

No Troubles always been there Community was stronger Mothers were home There were walls but they were invisible and it was a better thing then to be able to walk through a wall and be held accountable

his children believed child trafficking suddenly reared its ugly head
                                                                        he said Milk carton Missing kids
they werent going to agree
they didnt have to
he raised his
theyd raise theirs


You’ve grown colder, Dad, as you’ve gotten older.

I was and am incorrigible
                            But Ill remind you youre here and now Somehowapparently your mother and I negotiated the horrid jungle you fear for your girls





he heard a jet engine overhead

when he looked up from his book as he sat on the benchlooked up over the top of a low white commercial building at the end of the parking lot into the blue sky marred by watercoloured deepeninggray clouds coconspirators trying rain in front of them seeming to appear above them a lone big black bird soared glided accompanied by the whine of an unseen jet aircraft in his ears he could imagine that its noise was the birds noise
 
How fuckin cool he thought a bird could whine like a jet or the bird was actually a drone that isnt feared in America yet


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1116,  Saturday,  23  5. 20

Sam the Sham and the Pharoahs  Lil’ Red Riding Hood  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xNEYfIUDkh8


he watched the full moon ascend and peak

he kept excusing himself as he went outdoors to admire it 

he mentioned that he was admiring it for her too  if she wished hed grab an unused dresser mirror from a bedroom closet and angle it so she could see the moon too 
If you like Ill do anything for you

she declined
               :  :  I can see it fall on your face, see it in your eyes when you come back in.

Im a poor substitute for the moon love

:  :  You underestimate yourself, Dad.

Youre kind

:  :  As you say, I’m not kind; I’m honest.

I cant refute you

:  :  No. No you can’t.



onefortyone in the morning


the moon stared blithely at him

no shrinking violet he stared back wideeyed  unflinching

she perfected herself directly above a seventy foot palm from where he stood the palm across the backyard in a neighbours yard the tree was fastidiously trimmed  
                                                      between the pair they looked like an inverted exclamation point – not to put too fine a point on the moment – piqued him to grin like a hyena

he lingered in the yard anxiously watching the full moon anxious to be inside with his daughter

One more moment he breathed

the moon and he eyeballed each other



finally he said Goodnight bubi

turning to go inside and share his warm ivorypaint with his daughter he liked thinking bubi replied to him specifically Back atcha, Polack.


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1550,  Thursday,  21  5. 20

$96,370 coronavirus deaths


he stood and lunged forward with the others Mr. President! Mr. President! the reporter cried through his mask at the top of his lungs thinking the while Why why the hell was he cryingbegging to be acknowledgedcalled upon for a question  the man wasnt worth his exertion or his notice   Christ

Yes, you, you there. the president was pointing at him

Sir, thank you very much, Mr. President. Thank you. end of fake adulation kowtowing Sir, can you tell me how many Americans are dead now from the novel coronavirus? Thank you.

Oh my God, such a rude question, such a ru . .
. . Sir. A legitimate question.

You’re a rude person, who . .
. . Ninetysixthousand threehundredseventy

Who do you work for?

Sir. Who do you work for?
Ninetysixthousand threehundredseventy dead Americans. Details, sir? Unnecessary details?

Sit down.

You called on me, sir. Ninetysixthousand threehundredseventy dead Americans on your watch; tomorrow there will be more.

the president sneered in disdainlooked to his extreme right and pointed at another reporter You. Go ahead, your question.

the reporter didnt remain standinghe didnt glare he sat and heard his colleague murmur a question he wished rather his colleagueall his colleagues in attendance supported one another stayed on point fought for answers  and if the morbidly obese farce fled the dais let him walk away in disgust

why not the man disgusted him

he sat not dejected sat nodding to himself Yes Ninetysixthousand threehundredseventy Americans were worth his exertion to ask his question

Fuckin crime
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