28.2.24


a bygone Thursday  24 February 2005
                                            on the unnumbered first page
on typewriter paper 8 1/2 inches X 11 inches turned sideways he scribbled to its right lefthanded he liked BIG borders  BIG edges
       over seven lines he wrote Im finding that while /I agree with the Socratic /pronouncement  man is a /“herd” animal / I disagree “that the /one who knows” should /dictate lead the /herd . . .

to the missives left was a forgive and forget letter summarising “What happened had happened, and now it was over.”

   he turned the page upright
                                and what was now beneath and right of forgive and forget which he believed now was an attempt then to Let Go   he hadnt he did not forget
he did not forgive
                    in the small remaining corner he printed
                                                               FANNIES ---
 
                                                                  SOME REASON ---
 
                                                                      I’M PAYING ATTENTION AGAIN ------                                                                   
                                                                                                   HORMONES whoremoans


   on the next page no longer printing sideways  upper left corner he wrote PART DUO
evidently attempting to number 
                               WHADAYA SEE
                                                 an illuminated flaccid American flag hanging from a round whitepainted pole

  there was other nonsense though not worth mentioning


on the next page written as the prior upper left corner he wrote   24 2. 05
                                                                          THIRD 
then centered

WRITE A PAGE/S

SHUFFLE THEM

A THREAD RUNS THROUGH

THEM IF YOU’RE

PAYING ATTENTION

                                                    IF NOT

                                                 WELL

                                                     NUMBERING

                                                         MAKES IT EASIER

                                                             DOES NOT IT?

beside the D in DOES a wicked penline swept up left curled down to an abrupt broad arrowhead  and written diagonally coming back up toward PAYING ATTENTION he wrote  AND, OF COURSE,

                                                                    MIGHT MISS OUT ON

                                                                     SOME FORTUNATE

                                                                       JUXTAPOSITION

                                                                         less angled  RANDOM
coming off RANDOM like a tail on a fortyfive degree angle  RANDUMB

beneath that assembly in the lower left quadrant

the line written upsidedown  obviously he turned the page
AND RUNNING DUMB CAN TAKE
then rightsideup
YOU TO ALL SORTS OF UNEXPECTED
then upsidedown
MAYBE UNNATURAL PLACES ---
rightsideup
BUT REALLY, NOT UNNATURAL ---
upsidedown
BECAUSE IT WOULDN’T HAVE EVOLVED
rightsideup
OTHERWISE ---- WOULD IT . . . .
                                    NOPE

the following page had nothing to do with the prior three

they were written in red ink  MED PT BIC

the printing was in black ink  FINE PT

Thursday,  24  2. 05
1234,  day-between-2-Ts,  28  2. 24


MOM
       an old joke
an M tattooed on each buttcheek  knees pulled tight to ones chestrolling sidewise  WOW MOM WOW MOM WOW MOM
she didnt find that funny

Aw comon Maw its funny its a joke
                                     Get down off tha high horse of yours
hers was mighty high
                       JUDGMENTAL
her middle name
she madeup her mind  no changing it
                                        not for all the tea in China  and then some  but isnt there always a but
his MOM secretly he spelled M O o r i n g


   when she died

his moorings lessened
                        he became more unmoored than usual

it was then he realised how grateful he was to her  realised  she held his reins loosely

when he became extreme
that was his middle name

he pushed hard on barriers

she managed to back him down
lessen his contemptderision
                              helped him relax unknot his fists

throughout her life she asked him in conversation over the telephone in letters  Do you remember Second Grade?

   Yes

Then. Practise what you learned what she taught him.
                                                        defuse situations with laughter

My only thing fear he explained to her  is tha once I start laughing I might not be able to stop  Ill rave

Oh don’t worry that, you’ll stop; even if it is only because you’ve fainted from a lack of oxygen.

Gee thanks Maw

Yabetcha.

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