a hotel

a motel

between the two he gravitated to motels

                                            for what he thought was obvious

the difference between a church and a cathedralYES  a motel is a cathedral

Vacant shopping center bays which then house churches arent cathedralsfeel   feel  me

I hear you.

I needya to feel me

                         Feel implies the whole gamutsight audio   smell  taste   touch

Fireworks going off allatonce 

Someone snuck in behind the pyrotechs tossed flares into setups  crates

        Feel

 

I don’t have feelings like that.

Yadead

    I’m just sayin . .

. . Youre dead

                          Listenup

this is when he irritated him the most

                                        telling him what to do

I aint blind Ought tatake a look in window glass take a good gander of your puss

                                                                                        Wearin your heart on your sleeve

Where you tried to wipe your puss free of disdain

HOTEL MOTEL

 

    What of ‘em?

Ho   H  O  tel   Mo   M O  tel

                                    Tel me wha I want to hear

Ho tel me an the mo Ill tel you the mo we can share

 

Would you quit the gibberish.

Not gibberish

                  Yaint listenin

 

Nevermind

             You arent capable to tel me wha I want to know

1749,  Thursday,  29  5. 25

The Who  Can You Feel the Real Me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H2h1MY70uag

You know  sayin one way rather than the other doesnt change the woman insidedoesnt  make you sound more   wha  more  less    ahmoral

I disagreewe’ll have to disagree again.

Again  Quit using it 

                     Our steadfastfast disagreements are redundant  ad nauseum

Because of you.

Because I demand clarity  granular definition

Whic . .

. . Which  you  consistentlyconstantly fail to provide despite knowin Im not acceptin halfass explanations or takin you at your word

Not a soul gets tha

Open your mouth Be thorough   Be concise

We engage in casual conversation.

Casual does not upend meaningful

 

 

    What?

Im waitin

For what?

For the description between the women from either establishment

Establishment?

    Youre not tha thick

The difference between a woman working in a whorehouse and a woman working in a brothel you seem to prefer brothels to whorehouses to alleyways or in the backseat of a car in the city

3PMishness,  Sunday,  11  5. 25

1241,  Thursday,  29  5. 25

    . . . only when he cares.

he overheardcaught that bit  talking about him

though he missed in what context

                                   angered him

they didnt address himcould have

                                    like Russia and the US negotiating peace with Ukraine and Ukraines not at the tableFUCK Russia

FUCK the United States

                         fuck the clowns in the room who couldnt bring themselves to say to his face

cowardise

           the world needs less

however

             no matter the subject

theyd be accurate

if unstirred

            uninspired

he couldnt muster false enthusiasm

wouldnt lie

was a hurtful curtteller of hard truths

                                          unapologetic

an old girlfriend once said to him

                                     You can’t blame them.

when they parted ways

                          she blamed him   

Absolument

What’s with the crack?

                        she was angry

but wouldnt admit she was trying to make a project of him

he told her when they first began dating

                                           Whaya see is whaya get

he may have assumed see included  hear

    . . . only when he cares.

2158 & after2200,  Wednesday,  28  5. 25

1111,  Thursday,  29  5. 25

Iron Butterfly  In the Time of Our Lives  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jwjsmmM450o

wasnt a dream yet  a preview   a trailer a tug-of-war between hypnagogia hypnopompia  he the rope

    let it be known hes made of hemp  twined oldfashioned  marine

the pair got sweaty yanking on him

wasnt a dream because he was in it his girlfriend was in it   he rarely recognised anyone

theirs was a long distance relationship hadnt seen her in years

they talked texted wrote 

                              nobody understood  How does it work?

None of your business

chuckled that was unsatisfying

                                   he didnt ask about their relationships

they were thirty years apart

he    whaever  in it she told himtheyd been reunited for months  I’m pregnant.

he wouldnt reply with that stupid question

                                               A baby

he embraced herkissed her  stepped back  took her by the shoulders

                                                                           Might suppose Im the cumback kid

she laughed deepdimples

                                then collecting herself she saidspelled  C  U  M

she knew him so well

after 2200,  Wednesday,  28  5. 25

1018,  Thursday,  29  5. 25

sitting on a park bench eyeing little girls with bad intentNO  sipping coffee from a paper cup he looked over at his broheim beside him

                     You get any sleep?

    I don’t sleep. I dream.

                             curious dialog straight out of True Detectives MAX S1E1 was beginning again

probably the only shorthand acronym he could tolerate

the dialog was appropriate

                             hed be Rust Cohle  his partner Marty Hart asking

I dream

he couldnt stop dreamingwouldnt  woke exhausted

fed the cats

started a carafe of coffee

took a cold shower

exhaustion

            stepped backstepped away   he mused Well try again tonight

You said that last night the night before the night before that

I  said  try

    for himself he wondered what Season what Episode he was in

was he negotiating another

Am I being picked up

its a tough game

somebody younger trying to unseat him

                                           he beseeches themSTOP  Relent

tellinem frankly  Itll be the death of you

theyre big boys big girls

   he warnedem

2142,  Wednesday,  28  5. 25

0937,  Thursday,  29  5. 25