16.8.24

 
   he had a habit
                   say that juicy morsel out loud an like the commercial When EF Hutton talks, people listen. theyre on it like flies on shitcant seem to help themselves
Do you mind?

I don’t mind. Continue.


hed disappoint them

he didnt have a salacious habit

his was mundane
                     thought  Whas more mundane than mundane
DULL

Very good

BORING

Good

DREARY

Yes

ANNOYING

It is

BANAL
Fuckyah banal   Banal
                            Thank you
Youre welcome

not only were his shehes heshes Johnny on the spot
                                                        they were freakin polite


his habit was advertisements through the mail unwanted enveloped solicitations bills that included a last page THIS PAGE INTENTIONAL LEFT BLANK
                                                     it isnt
neednt label the obvious
                          tacere plural tacenda (goes without saying)

his habit was collecting those pages keep them on a clipboard an scribblewrite on them when something occurred to himTHINGS always occurred to himWheels on the bus go round an round round an round round an round
                                                                                                                an for tha because he didnt take shorthand in high schoolIDIOT he would have been the only boy in the roomIDIOT FUCKIN IDIOT how didnt he see tha then
                             an for tha tryin to keep up with himself afterwards he often struggled to read his handwritingDAMMIT
                        Whadoes tha say
heshes shehes shrugged You wrote it

You wrote it was ballsy
                         like father like internal cretins
he digressed


when he finally translated the transhated transmalpractised transfuckedup sentences letter by letter word by word memorialised them in fashions of personal letters journals emails textmessages Letters to the Editor hed flip the page for shitsangiggles to see was at home on the other side

sometimes sobering
                     not a week earlier he turned several pages to find he wrote on the backs of an unreferred letters of reference letters of recommendation from managers senior executives he worked with – not for – with
he was not a team player

they he rememberedrecognised all their signatures after much grandstanding worrying wrangling realised exactly what he told them Give me my head stay out of my way let me do my work

the lay of the employment landscape changed while he worked

when the company was bought they who acquired it brought in their own players he was out

not that he was surprisednot when he walked out of four interviews
                                                                        he did endure one
hence the unreferred pages
                             whell looking on the bright side which was not his forte he usually kept to traipsed on the dark side to informprovide others who were blinded by the shinybright klieglight

he finally got some use out of them

some time,  day-between-2-Ts,  14  8. 24
1310,  Reggaefriday,  16  8. 24

Manfred Mann’s Earth Band  Blinded By the Light  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rzk3x3HZbJI

sometimes reality isnt large enough

it gets tiresome

maybe not to others but to him
                                 a draaag
who could give fuck
sowha Elon Musk used illicit drugs
                                     Wall Street  ooooh

hed shoot himself in the head before Wall Street would influence him
                                                                             although  to be fair
hed really have to think hard to comeup with anyone who could
                                                                    figured
if when he was a boy lying on his belly up on his elbows on the threadbare livingroom carpet watching Saturday cartoons all morning on a black and white television set that an uncle gave them that commercials geared specifically to children didnt influence him

whell
        unlikely anything would
he was not a consumerEXCEPT to feed hydrate quaff sip
                                                                  EXCEPT
drugs

now being legalised
                      took the edge off the high  illicit upped the ante

freaked his parents out
they werent square
unenlightened
Why? they asked

Maw Paw
            Sometimes reality isnt large enough

1123,  Reggefriday,  16  8. 24

freeing flies

entering the kitchen he found a white cat whisker on the living room carpet an easy find contrasted with the earthenbrowns an dreads pattern  

squatting he picked it up returned to the studio he just left for a cup of Joe an placed it in a desk drawer inside a white security envelope with others he savedWHY fuck if he knew if he had to guess an it was a guess they seemed good juju anif he had to believe in something antha rhymed with Jujyfruits or Jujubes two of his favourites then he was awright with the world an it likely unknowingly awright with him
                                                                             pay attention one of the exceptional times hell ever refer to himself in third-person  an illeism  ill-ism  certainly is
                                                       Gaia an Joe
sitting in a tree
K I S S I N G

he humours himself


entering the kitchen déjà vu he crossed to the counter where the no-frills Proctor Silex coffee machine sat to the right of a window that looked directly at a neighbours weathered woodplank privacy fence the window was above a pale pink he was confident in his masculinity thirteen gallon plastic garbage bin that begged his attention when first he saw it it was tacky he sported a tacky streak if he hadnt Pop art would not have interested him  

What the hell he thought Lets change it up for this one cup
                                                               helping himself to his choicean array of cups an mugs how the fuck is it he acquired them threedozeneasy although at tha thoughttha accusation he knew the story of each who gave them an why  even casual giftgivers knew his priorityprimacy Irish whiskey medium roast coffeebeans an buffalos eachany an easy thoughtfulthoughtless emergence merger

changing it up he crumbled hardened darkbrown sugar into his mugstayed his hand from the blackstrap molasses it was an awfully good day but not tha good
                                     poured threequarters full
the topquarter contains the coffees oily aroma an before he drank a damnthing he inhaled first before he ate a damnthing he inhaled it before sex he inhaled the woman who graced him

turning to leave he saw three flies buzzingbanging at the window I can see the outside, how come I can't get there? flies dont know glass any more than he knew the age jeune se qua of a healthypile of whaeveranimal or human excrement

he set his coffee on the counter stepped to the window sprung it there was no screen freeing the flies that most likely gravitated to the garbage that they could sensesmell but he couldntAH
                                                                           the fortune of being a feeble human

1013,  Thursday,  15  8. 24
1012,  Reggaefriday,  16  8. 24
Shinedown  A Symptom of Being Human  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r6s2j0Ys3d0