Christ there
she was! tucked up in her usual corner over
the basinexcept for the last two weeks Appleseed
Where the hell ya been girl
he blew on her web as was his
customary greeting for the whole of last year
she was his stalwart while he
agonized through whatever it was that assailed him if to name
a bullshit RA his rheumatologist tried to horseshoe him into but the doc was lousy salesmanhe hadnt listened to a word he said
he looked closer
ah her foraging cost her
she was missing two legs the two
to the left of her head he assumed unlike
him she was rightlegged and hopefully not too badly minimised
she was back!
he mourned her
a lil Lazarus
the night before he showered
turning his a back on its head looking
down he saw a small daddylonglegs struggling in the wash off the back of the
tubSonofabitch he averted the
streamtwisting the showerheads neck then
making sure it was out of the wash he stepped out of the shower snatched a length
of toilet paper off the roll then reentered
he gently placed it before the spiders drooping body and managing a
delicate splash off his shoulder he coerced its body onto the moistened
paper captured he stepped from the shower again and placed
the spider on the paper in a shard of sunlight on the window ledge
it didnt move
that didnt concern him
twice prior he had done the same
for appleseed
he thwarted suicide attempts
because he could
unfortunately it seemed he was good at it
hed saved twolegged earthlings
too
unfortunately
only
because later two went around him when he was absence and committed their
choice
anyone who condemns suicide
refuses to recognise a persons right to their life or nonlife our lives are the
only things that we purely own
selfish
he wouldnt judgehe wasnt hadnt
walked in their bootsendured what they endured
theres no telling the limits
anyone can withstand
and yes he really felt very very sorry
for himself that they wouldnt be in lifein his life anymore
but that made him selfishdidnt it
didnt it
he dispensed with selfishness
its a human trait
as greed was
avarice
mercenaries all
finishing his shower drying
himself standing on the mat he looked over to the window and saw the spider prostrate
aimlessly wagging a couple of its legs
mebbe life would take hold of it
mebbe hed save it again
mebbe itd allude him
theres no sure bets in life
its a crapshoot
1534, Thursday,
1 6. 17(fuck Drumpf)
1009, Friday,
2 6. 17
