22.7.18



watching Goodbye Christopher Robin he cringedhe stopped the film backtracked it and he didnt play it again until he had his old weathered clipboard on his lap hes had it longer than he had his wife she thought he was nuts for taking it out of the trash at a secure military facility he wasnt going to allow the poignant quote to escape him then with the clipboard on his lap and a pen in hand he ran the film again stopping it as portions of the quote unfurled he never took shorthand until he had it in its entirety

he texted it to his girlfriendhis daughters his two closest friends but because he sent it at three in the morning he didnt expect responses then  he anticipated their thoughts later that morning

however unanimously they had nothing to say


someone else might have been galled to hear nothing back 

but he was inured to being ignored

that they got the quote was all that was important to him

he didntwhere once upon a time he did take offence at their silence

busy busybusy   busybees

he recognised it as an ailment of the timetheir time time prioritised to death spontaneity apparently left to those who had nothing better to dodid he really have nothing better to do? no he was grounded to spontaneity the unexpected  and he was also healthy one has to be healthy to be at the roiling edge of the here and nowthe hear and now he was the antiwar marcher peace marcher politics freak unwilling to stand down interrupting people at the very moment he disagreed with them sharply he apologised for his apparent rudeness yet explained he wasnt waiting a single moment for the poison of their wordsthe violence in the words to hang in the air unchallenged unrefuted When youre snakebit you dont wait for the snake to crawl off before you seek remedy that never went over well but he didnt mean it to go over well he met bombastic with bombastic and facts  he relished the Old Testaments eye for an eye tooth for a tooth it was old hat to himhed been removed more times than he bothered to count from rahrah gatherings for challenging the talking heads which was okay the air was foetid by the exhale of the braying asses


A person should do the things a person loves with the people the person loves because you never know what happens next

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1119,  Sunday,  22  7. 18


it really threw him for a loop

lavishly mystified him

how could a man known for having a meagre attentionspan perhaps that of a dancing mite how could he participate inlet alone endure a two hour conversation (unless ofcourse he talked about himself – which he wouldnt have)

in all likelihood since he was unpreparedwithout a strategy that he could forcefully delineate in all likelihood he sat on his handshis flaccid coloured tie hanging between his thighs and listened a significant portion of the time to what Putin wanted apparentlyaccording to the Russian press – the State – he was in agreement
in agreement with policies he wouldnt remember
                                                 nodding in dumb acquiescence which his interpreter wasnt necessary to interpret

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