12.4.21

 

Yare pregnant 
              words he didnt ask  not once even having three children    he couldnt imagine 

once the male rite of passage was buying rubbers 
they were tucked safely behind the pharmacists
he had to stepup step into the breach and speakBARK 
                                                       anhe barked like a big dog because he never wanted to ask  incredulously dumbly  Yare pregnant


then ’65 rolled around 

the game changed

the rite 
    castrated 

Planned Parenthood in its infinite wisdom won their US Supreme Court victory Griswold v. Connecticut 
                                                                                                          anwhile he wasnt chasing tail then he understood its ramifications 

leaving home years later  dating (rubbers burning a hole in his pocket) if the evening went that way and the girl said Don’t, we don’t need that; I’m on the pill. hed say  Prove it

What?

I wanna see

You want to see what?

I want to see your dispenser

You got balls.

I do hence why I wanna see with my own eyes

that abruptbrief dialog he knew the risk killed several amorous adventures 
                                                                                 but better safe than really fuckin sorry
besides  not that the girl knew  a rubberthose rubbers then  thick  were quite desensitising  he was often a handsfree lifelike dildo  hed ream till they screamed and over their panting hed ask  Could ya help a brother out 
                                                                                                             lotsa head
lotsa 69s
           he was grateful  had grateful lovers

 

the Pill was a gamechanger

warm naturallylubricated sex was the best 
                                            though it amped his sensitivity and he wasnt the handsfree lifelike dildo he once was

but reloaded

he could roll one on

and there was a good chance a passionate STOP would ensue I’M TOO SENSITIVE then hed counter that with a good oldfashion tonguelashing 
                           a couplethree times he seriously thought they broke his nose 
                                                                                         but fuck  a small price to pay

 

and for his disciplinehis mindfulness 
                                        never did ask  Yare pregnant 

1947 or 747,  7  4. 21,  Twosday
1047,  Monday,  12  4. 21

  

JesusChrist where did that come from
                                      a fuckin cravinghe rarely had cravings some people suspected something was wrong with him

Cat doesn’t eat ice cream, doesn’t eat pastries and cakes and cookies, occasionally likes candy, JuJubes, Jujyfruits, black licorice, and if chocolates, then only dark chocolate; I can’t say that I have ever seen him eat any though.

hed have to concede that sweetsnot since he was a kid ran up his alley 

he rather spend his money on other delicacies

books

film

art

his pleasures were esoteric most called banal banality is in the eye of the beholder

he also rather spend his money occasionally on women 
                                                          they were esoterica on the hoof

 

Salerno Butter cookies

he wanted to eat them off his fingers like rings as when he was a kidHOWEVER he knew companies – he didnt think Salerno was still the Salernos of his childhood and the recipe likely bastardised -- ingredients cheaped on to put more money in corporates pocket

cheat on ingredients

fuck the product

look at him talking himself out of his craving 
                                               deny  deny   deny thats what Catholicism did for him a Faith of Denial youd get yours after you were dead 
                                    great time to have cookies and milk

thats how the Faith provided purewhite robed Saint Peter and the Pearly Gates Peter doncome cheap the Pearly Gates are fuckin immaculate and white goldsolid gold stiles and rails had they not been fashioned as early as they were they would have been made of Black Hills gold 
                                            had that been the case he might have been coercedreconverted into a Catholick again Yes the k had to be there  it wasnt up for discussion 


the milk got warm

only cold milk with Salerno Butter cookies

his craving went from hot coals to coldgrey ash

 

thats how a once-upon-a-time Catholick did it 
                                                 dare he say free will

1931,  Twosday,  6  4. 21
1551,  Sunday,  11  4. 21