from a sparse median separating
traffic a water tap rose up out of the ground like a snake rearing to
strike it
wasnt aware of its elemental nature
and heastonished having
come too close agilely had to sidestep the
tap as it struck at him he pinned its
head to the scrabble to the yellow grass with his foot
he couldnt afford to let his
amazement rise he felt it trying to
twistwrestle itself from out under his arch anif he hadnt grasped it
behind its head when he did it would
have freed itself
otherwise there wasnt anything serpentine about it
it moved it might have wanted to thrash
like a stout sapling haltingly stubbornly yielding to a brisk wind at the head
of a storm front
it writhed stiffly
he felt bad for its circumstances but he had no manner or way to express his
sympathy
if he dropped it he felt it would
exercise its outrage against himlash out as he was convenient
he couldnt assume anything mammalian
existed in it nothing mammalian wrapped around its reptilian brain
imagine the oddity mixing inside his skull like a
lava lamp gone roguegone hallucinogenic its wiggling clots roiling oil heated
glass threatening to meltto spatter its componentsits very self on his bonybricked
concave that formed to protect him protect him from without not
from within
not from within . . .
not from within . .
he understood
that what was within him had always been his greatest threatthat there was no
gulf between what was real or what could be realthat what was improbablewhat
was impossible always remained possible
Im probable
Im possible
he didnt need drugs to mindfuck
himself
1503, Monday,
13 5. 19
1425, Day-between-Two-Ts, 22 5.
19
