2.4.15



He woke and slipped the sheets leaving her to her rest and dreams 

he paused
                  to watch her 

often he told her that his days were always beautiful  no matter  because the first thing he saw every morning was her

he enjoyed her                        
                         how she sucked at her lips  fluttered her eyes beneath her eyelids  sometimes screwing up her face
like a newborn babes without the words to say what disturbed her
                                                                                                            lost inside whatever she dreamt                   

he felt a flower unfurling inside him
and when it was bright  dew-speckled  fully blossomed
                                                                                          he stole silently out of their bedroom

the hall was dark
slightly lighted by a patch of burgeoning dawn drifting through the open bathroom window and door off the hall
onto its wall 

turning into the doorway he felt a wash of fresh air across his face chest shoulders belly and loin

the birds were beginning to harass each other  moist melodious assaults  and artful flutters 

he crossed the cold tiled floor  leaned his elbow at the window sill  and breathed deeply
 

after her
               this moment of peace  would be what he would miss most when he died
they were the right atrium and ventricle and the lefts  to his beating heart
warming his blood
filling him to perfection

he was a fortunate man


as he stood in the fresh air he heard a small aircraft pass overhead
to his left beyond a row of treetops at the edge of the hillock where the house stood he could hear the distant
highway traffic 

it was early  so it was tolerable

and standing there listening to what he endured his whole life
he wondered about the time before  before the machinery and belching madness  before everything became anthropocentric 
to benefit his miserable God-infected-and-fraught species 

it must have been splendid
the planet  blue  garden  green  young mountains  shallow seas

it must have been gorgeous
if he could transport himself  hed go   shed go
despite abandoning the other 
 
love never became a ghost
 
   
there was a ripple in the current through the window screen 

the days colour outside  changed

he blinked to reorient himself  confirming the subtle odd orange tint and brilliant rose edges


Magnificent                                    
                    he wanted to show her
but the window fell up and away from him
physics jumbled
the tiled floor  hot  impressed his back 

Ah  he said  young mountains
 


he didnt hear her calling for him
she had to find him 

despite her tears
among her tears

she saw  as he often told her to see

it was a beautiful day




1435,  Twosday,  31  3. 15
1854,  Day-Between-Two-Ts,  1  4. 15