a woman screamed in the night  

somewhere in the neighbourhood north of him

                                                         once

he froze 

        wishing he had a bats a dolphins echolocation preferably a bats dolphins looked humouredsmilin bats got tha pusssnarl thad make a villain run in the opposite direction

only one time

he waited tenfifteen minuteslistening listening for tussle struggle upset  anything above usual night sounds

                                                                                                                   it was a still night birds had roosted   no dogshe figured dogs would have bayed had they been out

only once

 

  he headed inside 

                     all he had My thawas one hell of a scream

got him right in the balls

   

2134,  Twosday,  17  5. 22

1406,  Monday,  23  5. 22

Crow  Evil Woman Don’t You Play Your Games with Me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wbtHje7GpbA

the blacker the berry 

                      an old folk saying the blacker the berry, the sweeter the juice  title of a satire by Mr Wallace Thurman 

          his character Emma Lou Morgan internalises biases against dark-complexioned people

but we don have to internalise bias and prejudice against black people 

America hangs it out in the open like dirty laundry for anyone who cares to look can see

                                                                                             belies code 

                                                                                                           which they

white supremacists believe is clever 

                                       playing footsie with plausible deniability  euphemistic innuendo facetious

probably best we stop with code whitey has trouble with multisyllable words gets tonguetiedconfused Whadya say? better talk like monkeys Ooh ooh awh awh stand flatfootedleaning on knuckles 

                                                                                       Imagine that! paints the same picture they paint of black people which is utterly correct   were human beings

the provocation was Karine Jean-Pierres first White House press briefing an elegant smart young woman her black skin in contrast with her lemonyellow dress was breathtaking

he was sure manymany people were upset

                                              she certainly doesnt talk like former

1651,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  18  5. 22

340preferred,  Monday,  23  5. 22

Kendrick Lamar  The Blacker the Berry  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ghv-qwwmG6M 

former speaks like an 8-year old  https://www.independent.co.uk/news/world/americas/us-politics/trump-language-level-speaking-skills-age-eight-year-old-vocabulary-analysis-a8149926.html

  . . fresh green grass . . where do the children play . . . 

                                                             he mused it found its way 

he had lost the little handcarved bone buffalo his girlfriendbefore they were girlfriendboyfriend thoughtfully gave him in 2008completely surprising him  he didnt realise she understood his fondness for buffalo  for bones   their artistry 

they had to meet a second timemonths apart before they coalescedcaught fire  

as abysmal their first meeting was was as enchanting their second     

it blew their minds

he had carried the buffalo with him every day since

 

it fell from a holesonofabitch in a pocket of his athletic shorts  Sonofabitch       

returned homerealising he had he called her immediately

they played phonetag

finally they spoke early eveningfor which he was grateful the sun hadnt set he knew telling her in the dark would be hard on him 

             The Hemingway line whawas it  YesThe Sun Also Rises  It is awfully easy to be hard-boiled about everything in the daytime, but at night it is another thing.  it stuck with himhed never lose that  there was only one hole big enough to steal it from him

Are you okay? Your messages made me nervous.

Im sorry to worry you I had to tell you I . . I coudnt leave it to a message

he confessed

   

       he concluded  Im depressed Ive lost too many people I love as you know  an the little buffalo consoled me

I know that sounds nuts but its true  hed become a talisman  helped fortify me when I was unable to reach you

I am sorry.

Thank you

          Thank you for sharing giving him to me   He is irreplaceable

 

slowlyslowly slowly  he retraced his walkingreading steps

                                                                he couldnt say how many driedyellow broken leaves and bits of trash paper looked like him 

he found two dimes three pennies two carbusted dead young squirrels

suntime,  Sunday,  22  5. 22

1143,  Monday,  23  5. 22

Cat Stevens  Where Do the Children Play?  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aPHawByQeQo 

Man ohman . . you’re pitiful.

I didnt share with you for you to condemn me

Condem . .

. . Call me pitiful Yare takin your soullessness to a hole new level  h-o-l-e

 

It shouldn’t be that big a deal.

Whaif ya lost your wedding ring

kneejerk You can’t compare the two.

I made the comparison

                        An making it yaoughta be able to understand  if ya took a breath if ya stood in my shoesmy moccasins in my fuckin stocking feet

                                          You that devoid of consideration empathy

No.  But it’s just a thing.

You didnt answer my question

Your question?

        he chirped like a cricket to make his point was it possible he was that dense

Oh . . yeah . wedding ring . .

. . If you had a fondness for your wedding ring or your wife or your relationship  Or are they backburner shit in your life

Talk about considera . .

. . You provoked me

                      Just a thing

No.   A wedding ring is different.

It isnt different its symbolic Ya don get to deliberate whais or isnt for me Ya can expect it to be flung back in your face brother

You don't see the difference?

  I made the comparison

                             Yathink I made it halfassed

Halfassed?you said it not me.

                                 Yes.

You ought to know me better Maybe if I knocked you down a couple times youd better understand me

he sniffed as if he was contemplating a challenge

figured he better piss on that

                              My bloods up Youll have to tell me if you see boids or stars circling your head when you come to  regain consciousness   As upset as I am I might knock ya into tomorrow

                                                                                         Hope you have no plans today

Are you threatening me?

Fact not a threat a bluff I don do either which you know if you know me as well as you ought to as I know you

Yare not stupid

Should I take that as a compliment?

Better a compliment than an icebag for your head steak for your eye

I’m not stupid.

                If I lost my wedding ring I’d be very upset.

Thank you thank you Thank you for the acknowledgment

                                                               Im telling you it hurts that bad A thing is a thing is a thing isnt always a thing Shakespeare

Don be so quick to the trouble

Be considerate when someone tells you it is a matter of the heart

                                                                      Hearts don think  they are

Ill concede I am pitifully romantic  nostalgic

2053,  Sunday,  22  5. 22

1309,  Monday,  23  5. 22

Cat Stevens  Sitting  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dQ8_qVPyh3c