--  nice to be back home

thanks for reedin my wriotin while I was gone

2323,  Friday,  15 4. 16

at odd times   peculiar    times      he becomes otherworldly   notoriously  through no fault of his own(as if fault could ever be assigned in these circumstances)

he becomes consumed with ticks that shouldnt be sounding

presences  that crowd about him press him and deliver open places claustrophobic

he wasnt by any description or inclination an intuit

more accurately he was one who was not in to it

                                       he had to be ridden hard to dissuade him of perceptions  of fact and reason

yet

    he was strummed by strange fingers and hed be dishonest with himself if he did not acknowledge them

he wasnt one to ignore another because they inconvenienced him to pause or come to a rare complete Stop  for there was nowhere he ever needed to be that couldnt wait or he couldnt withstand the umbrage for missing a purported deadline  deadlines exist only in others wont

                                     he wasnt one to ignore another if that drag-entity made itself present

 

the past two nights a disabled cellfone  dead  not charged in months  had rung after three in the morning

he wakened without hesitation and was aware knowing full-well it should not be able to ring

he answered it

whoever  whatever  did not answer his calm unfazed Hello

someone  something  was there

after a long pause              he said Hello a second time

the air-sound went dead

it rang again

he answered

the same

a bit later it rang for a third time

 

his Hello engaged nothing and ended in dead-air

it was then the ticking began

in the morning while having coffee he assumed the call calls  were not meant for him

the next night  after three in the morning  the cell rang again waking him from his unsuspecting sleep

                                                                                  Hello

ticking

empty ticking

            then the connexion went dead

taking bitter assurances from the morning prior it would ring again he buried it under a second pillow beside his head

if it rang again hed sleep through the call

having his coffee he reasoned the call must be for his girlfriend she was the intuitive one  exquisitely so

it was her disabled cellfone

she was out-of-town caring for her ill mother

surmising that as easily as he did he wondered why it hadnt occurred to him yesterday morning

he assumed the puzzlement that must have been had on the other side of the cellfone call to his male voice

he called her

            and as they concluded their call he hadnt wanted it to be the purpose of the call he told her about the his middle of the night calls

 

she apologised(shed been too long with her mother becoming imbued by her apologies to every little thing)

(tersely)Dont apologise to me  The fone and its number is defunct

I should be there

No  Youre exactly where you need to be  Or you wouldnt be there Correct

Yes Correct

Then never  as Ive told you in the past  ever apologise to me or anyone for something not of your doing  Apologises suggest you have done something wrong untoward

You havent  have you

No

Then  please     no apologises

If its our roommates they can say so

Concluding every interaction I spoke out loud to them 

                                           Im trying to sleep

                                           You got something to say  say it

No one said

I dont believe it was them

Who would it be

Damn if I know Thats why Im bringing it up to you

Any ideas

Can you think if there was something where you might have crossed someone on the other side  Of course not maliciouslyYou havent a malicious bone in your bodyToo bad

she laughed

it was nice to hear her laugh hear its music

she didnt laugh enough

but then he laughed endlessly

      

it was his punctuation

No I havent crossed anyone

Dont tell me you havent crossed your mother

Not unprovoked

Which is her second nature

She doesnt mean it She isnt well

And not being well she expects a pass when shes mean She doesnt think a moment what her words do that she attacks you then is spiteful venomous resentful when you turn them back on her  You provoke someone youre due their retaliation

Youre hard

Im human So are you Being there doesnt allow her carte blanche to demean or diminish you

You could leave

I cant

So you say  You ought to say I can but I choose not to

I can 

But I choose not to

Feel better

Yes

Fine

Who did you inadvertently cross

Because I know the past isnt past with your mom Likely shes maligned someone who she took exception to their action then but never called them out for it  And she took it

Caught a film a few nights back The Forbidden Room A chaste removed-to-the-country gentleman who advertised for a manservant asked a truly despicable applicant   Tell me of your experience

The desperate applicant cleverly  sardonically  replied   What can I tell you  Nothing is ever the past

The shit you come up with

Think  Might you two have inadvertently crossed someone who might have a few words for you in their defense or taking offense

Youre expecting the fone to ring again

I put it under your pillow the last night If theyre calling  Im aint gonna hear it

1740,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  6  4. 16

1047,  Thursday,  7  4. 16