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   catatonic

             made him catch his breath

Sometimes she wiped the tears from her eyes with the heels of her hands hard  he hoped she saw little angels spark an swirl in them when she did 

                      Sometimes I just want to go catatonic be senseless.

he couldnt relate

reminded him of a friends depression

                                     her tears darkness threats of suicideStop the pain

as imaginative as he was he couldnt imagine that   the depth of her despair

                                                                                     frankly he said as much

I woudnt want to try

No. she said I wouldn’t want you to try. It’s horrible.

her suicide was successful

he didnt doubt it she was thorough

                                      left nothing to chance

Can I help If I can help in any way  please in his ears it sounded like he begged

No. No.  Not that I see.

                           Or not that I can see now.

If anything  please

she deign her head aside smiled weaklyunconvincingly If anything . . . I’ll let you knowpromise.

he nodded

cata-

       prefix means down  against  back

also cat-  cath-  kata-

cataclysm

catalyst  catalysis  catalyse

catastrophe

category

catalogue

catapult

cataract

catalepsy

   catholic from the Greek meaning through the whole  universal  worldwide  all inclusive

Yahright

as he left her those were words that occurred to him which he recited to take his mindhis helplessness away

1535,  Sunday,  27  8. 23

1316,  day-between-2-Ts,  1  11. 23

he believed that everyone had an oeuvre

                                           whether they knew it or not

its like when he was little some wisenheimer a real smartaleck   give em a second  hed recall     dumpy pale blonde boy    Billy  yesGodwin Billy Godwin nobody picked him to play on their team for baseball football basketball kickball anymore than Billy wanted to play   fourth grade he camewalked up to him and lowering his voice Don’t look now, but your epidermis is showing.   It aint   Oh. But it is.   he didnt have a clue what his epidermis was Wheresit showin   That’s for you to find out.   Im gonna give you one more chance  Where   That’s for . . .  Billy didnt finish the sentence because he punched him in the belly

                                                     waiting in the Principals office for his mother to come the Principal told him that Billy was referring to his skin  The stinkin smart guy   Joe. He was correct.   He coud have said Mr White he coud have said

   . . . an oeuvre whether they knew it or not

                                               he truly believed that

the collective work of a painter musician writer carpenter cabinetmaker mechanic

he didnt want to get punched in the belly

French late Nineteenth Century  literally means work

hed say he had an eight hour oeuvre day

got weird looks for saying so

then one day saying it an idea dart jabbed in him the brain  hour oeuvre   hors d’oeuvre  French literally  beside outside of work which would refer to the main course or dishes of a meal  the tasty appetisers small savory dishes

and then another day while performing his oeuvre he realise manoeuvred  and outmanoeuvred an opponent acquiring a valuable project for the company he worked for  oeuvred for

Small fuckin world he muttered pleasantly to himself 

                                                        was very pleased

but little things had always made him happy

evening,  Monday,  30  10. 23

1103,  day-between-2-Ts,  1  11. 23

Disney  It’s a Small, Small World  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PxRW-duSCLA