he wasnt fond of whiteyhad little room in his heart

                                                        if retarded he had a huge room

he was white

though had more in common with black folk

reading The Free World Louis Menand it wasnt recommended to him  he had a habit of finding what he needed

pg 415 hafwaydown

                       1960 Leopold Sedar Senghor first president of Senegal “White reason is analytic through utilisation . . . Negro reason is intuitive through participation.”  Menand  “African thought is animistic; it sees objects as the expression of a life force.”

lotsa words for action speaks louder than words

                                                   one could suppose four hundred years bent over labouring would provide American black folk that sense

also during the 60s Diversity Equity Inclusion DEI came into being

                                                                       crazy whitey Republicans and some black are attempting to use it as a stick to beat Vice-President Kamala Harris when they want to give her the opportunity shed counter work them to the corner beat them senseless beat them until that big snotbubble broke or their legs collapsed

PLEASE

         he dared them to say it to her face

Kamala  DEI  if a cheapskate  start at the 10minute-mark through 13minute-mark  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JKYyiBD00Bs

WE’RE NOT GOING BACK

he had a very good habit of finding what he needed

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https://www.britannica.com/biography/Leopold-Senghor

https://www.cooleaf.com/blog/a-history-of-corporate-dei-strategies

whitey idiots  no plan  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nE2I9mnMU9g

he kept letting his body do its job 

was a huge fan 

                  treated it as conscientiously as healthy as he treated his pets

after his cat lost his shit when the neighbour fired up some gawddamn machinery directly opposite the studio window bomber lying in his lap  probably luxuriating in a hypnagogic stateFREAKED

                                                                                   twentyplus pounds of churningthrashing claws and teeth

hed recommend bomber shouldnt have been in anyones lap

   Tore  Him  Up

                   but 

this was his fifth bite

any number he hadnt a guess of punctures scratches

                                                       thats having a feral cats

damned if hed have a pet store variety

loved FERAL with zeal

                        had sex with women who scratched the hell out of his back

went back for more

and more

an more

   pain is a state of mind

ya don mind it don hurt

however

          hes had a long intimate intense relationship with pain

his mother saididentified he was too enthusiastic

You forgot passionate

I don’t want to know.

I woudnt say Not one to kiss an tell

Doesn’t appear you were just kissin’.

                                       she loved getting the last word in

worked on his eight siblings

                              but on the other hand

he was the eldesthad been aroundhad known her since she was eighteen

they were virtually the same generation

                                           Ohno definitely not Ya gotta rein in feral fillies

You understand who you’re talking to?

Do you understand who youre talkin to

                                          I relish my relationships with fillies an pussies

pussy

       she checked out

his daughter saw the wounds when she stopped that night

                                                              Jesus Dad. I think you need stitches, probably antibiotics.

I don

     My bodys on it

 

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checkstand light aisle 2 was lit

he swung in behind a woman unburdening her cart

a strawberry blonde

petite

she turned back to gather a bottle of Hendricks gin

incorrect pleasingly not so petite

Neptunia hadnt seen that before

setting it on the conveyor she turned to remaining fragile items to top off her grocery bags she saw he had few items

Would you like to go ahead of me?

Fuck  green cateyesNo no thank you thas kind of you You beat me he laughed she laughed could see she had no idea why she was Im working on my patience

he heldup TOAD a library book

                                 And I have a book so its not like Im waiting

she mused  beautifully Patience. That comes with age.

Or injury Ive contendedcontending with both

Contend. musing beautifully again  she was killing him  That’s a nice way to say it.

A better way to think

Yes. Perhaps so.

Your Hendricks Neptunia I havent seen it befor . .

. . It’s delicious. Cucumber and Rose. Finishes with a smooth citrus whisper.

Sold  Ill take it

she laughed Get your own.

shed placed the last of her items on the conveyor and tried to reach for the divider bar to place it between their items couldnt reach it

he thought Maybe you can try again  Thank you

                                                Divider bar Gauche  The Dutch refer to it as a beurtbalkje

I like that. she smiled warmly  I won’t remember it but I like it.

Next time we happen in line together Ill remind you

You’ll remember me?

he smiled I think Ill remember you

                                     I miss grocery counters in Chicago in Missoula before conveyors Though I hope whoever they made millions from the concept

Growing up all the markets in Santa Monica had them.

I like Santa Monicawhich is rich  I dislike LA

                                                Howdya endup here if I may

Thank you.   I met a cowboy.

A nice cowboy

Began that way.

Ended

Yes. Yes it did.

                Our kids are in school. They have friends. I have friends. All in all, made lemonade.

she looked right as her groceries began to move forward  Awnuts, you’ll excuse me. I better bag or you’ll be reading a while.

baggers

         let someone else do more with less  must be a market mantra

since he always had few items he bagged himself

if there happened to be a bagger

                                   I got it Take a breather

he was walking  the canvasbag had to be packed particularly

                                                                 shit not casually tossed in Youre supposed to be a bagger

no sense of pride in their work

he was long over it

she finished bagging her items took her receipt was leaving What’s the word? 

Beurtbalkje

I told you I wouldn’t remember. I hope to see you again.

Thad be nice Be well

    he turned to the checker Howya doin kiddo

she giggled  

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0954,  Thursday,  25  7. 24

dizzy

                dizzy

                                dizzzy

                                                  space

                                                                     staring

                                                                                             downUp

                                                                     staring

                                       

                                       SHOCKED!

                                        TO SEE!

                                                                     dizzzy

shocked to see . . .

he didnt fallon   his  face

Saturday,  26  4. 08

1117,  day-between-2-Ts,  24  7. 24