they hadnt seen each other in three years  an months 

they talked on the telephonewrote every week

he got it in his head he was going to see her

he told her he was coming

she sounded excited at the prospect

she met him at her door

they embraced

he went to kiss her but she turned her head    

he felt her reluctanceher weight against his arms

he let her go

she put her arms around herself  I’m sorry . .

. . No   I apologise

                    I was excited to see you   I didnt ask if you wanted me . . . wanted me . to come I was being selfish

I should have said.

he gently chucked her two fingers under her chin

                                                    Yes   You should have

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Doors  Hyacinth House  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Aeh_cU0pmR8

he took a shortcut to the mall through a department storethrough womens clothing

a pregnant woman stood before a fulllength mirror mounted on a structural pillar

she wasnt holding anything up against herselfhadnt anything in her hands

                                                                                 was looking   fixated 

she looked fantastic in bloom he had a thing for pregnant women knew they fucked  

he had to saycouldnt help himself

                                    into the mirror over her shoulder Seem iffy bout whaya see

her eyes clearedseeing again she looked at him in his reflection

                                                                      I can’t say.

she closed one eye  looked  Can’t say.

she opened itclosed the other

                                No.     No I can’t say.

May I

she looked at him with both eyes a touch bemused  he hoped 

                                                                she turned halffacing him  What?

Better far better  Thank you

Perhaps.

          You were going to . .

. . Yare absolutely beautiful  flowering  ripening  your womanhood motherhood   probably more beautiful than you ever have beenTake that to the bank  Im from a huge family as a boy in relativesin my grandmothers livingroom jostled  my head bounced off bellys halfdozen pregnant auntsacquaintances  I coudnt help but absorb their joy

Yaought to cherish yourself  Yare quite beautiful   Arresting

she smiled wistfully  Keep it up brother, I might take you home, my husband doesn’t share your enthusiasm.

Didnt do it alone  he bears responsibility

    Hmmm. 

                she lingered  then turned back towards the mirror   seemed now to like what she saw

whatever she saw he saw  it made him smile

I gotta go

              Be well be happy

Thank you.

Hellno thank you 

                      You were an unexpecteddelicious treat this afternoon

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he pickedup his bagcarried it as they began walking

she glanced at him  mused

                               The bag's got wheels.

Not this bagthis is my bag No wheels

she leaned to a side and looked it didnt

                                             No it doesn’t.

No

It’s old luggage.

If it aint broke don fix it

                        I don travel that much anthen Im not gone long when I do  If I cant carry it Ive packed too much

You can never pack too much.

  Never  An absolutist

she smiled

           You can absolutely not pack too much, have to have choices.

Might be Americas problem that an its got wheels

she pulled up short 

he stopped a stride ahead of her  halfturned

Choices and wheels are a problem?

According to me  You can quote me ifya like

Why would you say that?

Thats another American problem things have to be easy Im not going to say You havent given it proper thoughthavent given yourself time to think it through

                                         Which you should 

You’re a strange bird.

Stranger than you know

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Doors  People Are Strange  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AgHaGrZkkv4