large pea gravel

it irritated him

hadnt

but for some reason recently it did

                                     he grew impatient trying to determine what the reason was

Fuckit

took a rake to the narrow flagstone walkwayyanking in one direction stopped  shoveled it into a wheelbarrow

he pulled a halfhour

                          stopped

looked over his shoulder at the jigsaw stones the raw earth beneathbetween

                                                                                   WRONG  Im wrong

Youre ohso wrong

Now you open your mouth

Had to dawn on you

                         Youdve been suspect if we interceded

    Suspect  Yes      Thank you

                                       In the future however do me a favour   Say

Say

Yah

      Ill not renege Ill recall                                                   

If I don walk me in front of a freight train

                                            Shishkabobs all around

Jesus

Paints a picture

Yah it do

he spread the gravel back

                             turned churned it looked differentlooked   better

Ask wha occurred to you

Please  You know

Yes

      Though we think you need to confirm it  Get it out release it into the ether

You harpin

Can ifya like

               Askin

   Awright

              Gravel  Minutiae

The minutiae Ive selected that at times pulls on me drags me down makes me hurt  Makes me sorrowful

Throwing it away

Wont make it go away

5AM,  Monday,  30  9. 24

1403,  2sday,  1  10. 24

aww   how sweet

                     the creditcards he holds emailed him today

they were thinking of him

                            How are you? Happy, healthy, smiling?

Nah

in a word  Splurge.

                        not an attractive word  or sensibility

reminded him of regurgitate  spew  lunge  lurch

                                                     hasty thoughtless actions certainly not a considered rap on the knee checking his reflexes

he didnt open them

wondered if they colluded

it was all three

                 Three creditcards?

Too many

Not enough.

he had to mill that over

                              How many do you have

I don’t know. I’ll have to look.

                                he took a swollen wallet from his back pocketwas immediately shorter seated

Don bother too many

No. I’m curious.

Curious

          Of your credit

Obviously I’m very creditworthy.

Guess thas a way of looking at it

he snapped them on the table like dealing stud poker

each made them grimace

counted to himself

                     then picked them up returned them to his wallet sat on it again  eyelevel again

I got a few.

Ya do

You’re not going to ask?

Im not

Why not?

None of my business

You’re being condescending.

Im not

        When Im condescending youll feel the heat my scorn contempt

The only reason I mentioned my three was because they emailed at the same time  Hasnt happened before  I was commenting on the novelty

Nothing else

But you’re not curiou . .

. . Im not not at all

I find that curious.

    Whell I am happy something arouses your curiosity

                                                             Its a good trait

That you lack.

You know better than tha

                            When Im ignorant its for the reason I choose to be

Irrevocable

Irrevocable ignorance.

                         Sounds like a death knell.

Not sounds  Is

I hav . .

. . NO Donwanna hear

                        promptly stuck his fingers in his earsclosed his eyes

yah there were some things he was childish about

                                                       he did refrain from saying Nahnahnahnah nahnahnah  Nah

1222,  2sday,  1  10. 24

Steam   Na Na Hey Hey Kiss Him Goodbye  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QaG2Acg8n60

    abime

             an attractive word

French for abyss

ABIME

English for American Board of Independent Medical Examiners

                                                                   he wondered if the organisation knew that when it chose its acronym

doubted it

            the organisation failed him

physicians sided with physicians therapists with therapists psychiatrists with psychiatrists

Go ahead. Try and take on the medical community, pharmaceuticals, they’re thick as thieves.

he tried

they were

abime

       “Truth grows up inside of all the finite experiences . . . They lean on each other, but the whole of them, if such a whole there be, leans on nothing. All ‘homes’ are in finite experience; finite experience as such is homeless. Nothing outside the flux secures the issue of it.”

                                            William James anti-foundationalist none of our knowledge is certain

truth

he had to look it up in the dictionary

he thought he understood its definition

noun

      “the quality of being true, genuine, actual, or factual.”

digging a bit deeper

there are five concepts of truth

                                 “Precise analysis of the nature of truth is the subject of the correspondence, coherence, pragmatic, redundancy, and semantic theories of truth.”

semantic theory seemed loaded

however

          the sky is blue is true because it corresponds to the reality of the skys colour  2 + 2 = 4 is true because it correspondences with the reality of mathematical principles

couldnt punch any holes in that

anymore than he could punch the medical examiner assigned to his case

“Impairment Evaluations are often used to provide a more objective understanding of the impact of an injury or illness.” or death

“The quality of examinations and examiners varies widely, and it has been often difficult to identify skilled, thorough and unbiased examiners, especially before an examination.”

his said There’s nothing to see here.

like a cop

           Nothing to see, folks, move it along, move it along.

his attorney hoped at the very least that their failed attempt provided him some modicum of closure

closure

        the barn door stills swinging loose moving on currents of emotion  and occasional outrage that presents

    abime

            correct

prior to day-between-2-Ts,  17  9. 24

0949,  2sday,  1  10. 24

https://www.qcc.cuny.edu/socialSciences/ppecorino/INTRO_TEXT/Chapter%205%20Epistemology/Truth.htm#:~:text=Precise%20analysis%20of%20the%20nature,and%20semantic%20theories%20of%20truth.

https://iep.utm.edu/s-truth/

dreaming

 

long

tall

brunette

black

thong

bikini

campanile

bell tower*

words scrolled up

StarWars style

repeating

 

woke

laid still

eyes closed

in profile

she stretchedreached

placed

retrieved

something

from the back

of a matte gunmetal gray

Mercedes-Benz

Sprinter van

hed have preferred

ArmySurplus

fatigue

pale olivegreen

 

from inside the vehicle

looking out

undressed

her head back

identity unrevealed

long neck

slender throat

hair tumbled over her right shoulder

playful strands over her left

one

     delicately curlicued round her aureole

rack of ribs

taut belly

graceful hips

artfully trimmed pubic

muscled thighs

dream

        fulafulafluttered

losing it

losing

          losing

lost it

to consciousness  stomping its feet  claiming what was its

hypnopompic pleads

DENIED

cats hustled in jumpedup on the bed

                                       bugle reveille

Im up Im up

Then open your eyes.

Open your eyes.

he sighed

eyes flooded with sense

                            Gudmornin sunshines

11AM,  Monday,  30  9. 24

0829,  2sday,  1  10. 24

*UC/Berkeley

second tallest in the world

dont build them like that anymore