the day descends(night descends –
why this day) ahthis day because its the months end the day his family
lefttheir stay at an end its the day hes held hopefully onto ending a string
of twentyfive weeks since hes seen his girlfriendhis partner(the terms
girlfriend boyfriend never cut it to understand their commitment)
the
day descends
a
countdown to a determined end
when something ends it descendsit
is in decline
he sat leaned back in his old Steelcase
sec chair and looked at what he wrote
Dark he thought
but his idealism was
affected by his realism he wore them at
the same time
hed never be a fanatic
when her text message arrived
in the morning complaining that she wasnt feeling well he tipped the scales she left uncommitted titter-tottering he arraigned it NOitd been too
many times
when she called late that evening
she was hurt that he was unsurprised
he didnt apologise
she said she missed him badly(raising
the stakes working leverage)
he replied Ah I miss you too love
Though its not what you say its what you
do
What are you sayinYoure acting
passive aggressive
Im not being passive
aggressive What would you say to mewhat would
you say if I stood you up thirteen times consecutively over twentyfive weeks Then I said I missed you badly . . .
. . . Im not well
Yes Then dont make plans And certainly dont tell me that you dont want
to commit to a timeframea timeframe Ive set
I didnt I asked a week in advance to meet Friday
evening
You abide timeframes every day of
every week working
That said your incentive is money
Im not offering money
Youll work unwellYou wont see me
unwell despite us living together while you were unwell
When I say its not what you say
its what you do Im making a simple statement of fact
If youre irritated by that fact
its your irritation
And youre not irritated
No
Im realistic I put my finger in my mouth wet it then hold
it up to the wind to find out in what direction it blows I also look around me for clues
Im fine
Ill not coerce you to spend time
with me You can or cant Thus far you havent Pretty simple arithmetic
0714, Friday,
31 3. 17
2040, Friday, 31 3.
17
1390 days remaining or fewer Russian by
Bob Marley Waiting In Vain https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qTG7ZxO3-sE
