I’m sorry.

    he thinks about it

sorry doesnt cut it

he wouldnt say sorry

                               but then

hes not suffering hes not depressed  hes not asked for Grace

    she did

 

he said he could grant her that but apologised Im out of practise  Grace has been mothballed a long time

That comes from not socialisingbeing around others  Conversing face to face

he was more familiar with longdistance telephone calls

There’s such a thing as facetime.

Youre a riot

                 I tried skype when it was a thing  Disturbed me

one  two  three strikes he was out

that was laborious

usually things people were one and done but she insisted he try harder

    his heart wasnt in it

 

told his daughter and her husband

                                       Tell kiddo when shes older an can understand

Your grandfathers only available in 3D

2354,  Wednesday,  11  3. 26

1004,  Thursday,  12  3. 26

Serge Gainsbourg - Lemon Incest  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tnJqRHKotT0

ones personality determined by their blood type  be it A B AB O   although no wiggleroom for + or -

known in Japan as Ketsueki-gata he thought maybe Creation Lake was taking him for a ride again not that riding Sadie Smith didnt sound like shed be a ball

                                              blood

thicker than water

given his familial relationships

                                    he  really    was not sure

given the fissure of time and spacedistance

apparently  he severed that when he beat it out of Dodgedidnt let the door crack him on his ass as he went

apparently  he was dishonourable

                                     as the eldest 

apparently  he was supposed to submit to the whims of his parents and siblings who preferred he stay put not leave

           which would have made a liar out of him

for as long as he could remember

                                     since a child

he said when he grewup was on his own  he was leaving

he walked away from two lucrative employment opportunities  smelled coercion collusion

later walked away from three others

                                            money never appealed

as long as he could afford shelter food clothing

                                                     he was in the pink

blood

            not so much

which isnt to say he didnt miss his childhood and the love that washedlathered over him

when he was leaving he reminded his parents that if they hadnt afforded him determination  grit  independence

                 there was an awfully good chance he wouldnt have left

his life would have been easier

no one ever said it would be easy

                                                 tell him about it   

1451,  Sunday,  8  3. 26

1144,  Wednesday,  11  3. 26

https://www.japan-experience.com/plan-your-trip/to-know/understanding-japan/culture-blood-type

Blood, Sweat & Tears  Spinning Wheel  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SFEewD4EVwU

President Dwight David Eisenhower

                                        “Every gun that is made, every warship launched, every rocket fired signifies, in the final sense, a theft from those who hunger and are not fed, those who are cold and are not clothed.”

WHO ARE THE THIEVES NOW

1025 five,  Wednesday,  11  3. 26

https://heathercoxrichardson.substack.com/p/march-10-2026

https://www.presidency.ucsb.edu/documents/address-the-chance-for-peace-delivered-before-the-american-society-newspaper-editors

Maddow  America First, America Alone  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BGqypLBWjKY

at sixthirtyfive ohyes  five  in the morning someone might wonder why go back to bedbecause he could he had nowhere to be https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8scSwaKbE64 and in the nowhere in his head a hemprope tugged between hypnagogichypnopompic he composes

                                                         had he not gone back to bed he may have missed out spreading her cheek gentlyapart like splitting stonefruit with his thumbs to lap to get at her seedYUP  exactly what he saidwas toldimaginedwas handedwas  pretty in pink

                                                                              puckered

when he did shakefree

got up anatem

    he was not alone

cats inanout fed

black French Press

arrived here

 

who needs a priest to confess

Wednesday,  11  3. 26

The Warning  Enter Sandman  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9tKQgesCcTc

  Thal he was enthralled

                                if one wasnt keen of hominin evolution

Thal is in reference to Neanderthals who he believes may possibly have been victims of humanitys first genocide fortythousand years ago at the hands of Homo Sapiens Sapiens

there was once seven species worldwide

   now only us

                   who are apparently dandies bent on eliminating ourselves before some thing else gets us

thereby the proverbial clean sweep  hit job

                                               as enormous dinosaurs in lockstep went out the EXTINCTION door sixtysixsixtyfive million years ago pterosaurs like modern owls had antiperistalsis puked indigestible materials fringed in pycnofibers hair-like feathers also exited after sharing the skies with wholesale feathered avians providing niches the impetus the impetuous evolutionary rise of fish lungfish small mammalian creatures  hominins    

 

he read in Rachel Kushners sensational fiction Creation Lake of Thals tendency to anhedonic living-in-grayscale brooding

                     how could anyone possibly know that

or a matter of creative license

                                 Oh Marmion Sir Walter Scott Oh, what a tangled web we weave, / When first we practice to deceive . . .  had he his druthers he misplaced them he would have said the tales we weave when we seek to deceive

                            he was a lousy liar

and because of that he hung his children out to dry when they tried to lie

it was their job

his job

              

    anhedonic brooding was alien to him

                                              he was somewhat a hedonist who liked spicing things up with pain

1824,  Tuesday,  10  3. 26

https://www.britannica.com/science/human-evolution/Theories-of-bipedalism 

https://www.nationalgeographic.com/culture/article/131218-neanderthal-genome-incest-archaic-ancestor-science 

https://www.nhm.ac.uk/discover/news/2022/october/neanderthal-extinction-maybe-caused-sex-not-fighting.html

https://www.abc.net.au/news/2021-02-11/ancient-queensland-fish-close-living-relative-to-humans/13135270

hes got a bug up with ass when he considersfuckin thinks of  AI

    he never had to contend with Texas Instruments

was motherfucker in grade school on an abacus  high school a slide rule

                                                                              analogs  to be sure

but he didnt have to contend with either agreeing with him mollifying him because they thought that that would be what he wanted

no synthetic relationships for him

 

You make no sense. It is a powerful tool.

I agree

It saves time.

I agree

Efficient.

Agree

       Sound like a pleasing AI don I

    Tribology  Study of friction

                                     Without friction cognitive abilities will become less an less our neuroplasticity will become less an less critical thinking will fall away

When AI was consulted

                         I have to admit I did not read it but heard it through a reliable source  Ill find out for myself  They said when asked about war to stop it replied hypothetically my assumptionwhich I dislike tha nuclear weapons could be deployed Efficient When asked how to solve global hunger hypothetically it said millions of people could be killed  Efficient

  I agree

STOP WAR

SOLVE HUNGER

 

What I can say about AI

Its black humour may be darker than mine

Also  asya know

                   I don entertain hypotheticals ifs when asked

Id think these machines so damn smart why woud theyjah  replies to devised scenarios

    Yet another knock against them

1937,  Thursday,  5  3. 26

1202,  Tuesday,  10  3. 26

On with Kara Swisher  Tribology  39:40 minute-mark fascinating  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mcjUHQrzmh4&t=14s

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/urban-survival/202507/the-emerging-problem-of-ai-psychosis

https://www.newscientist.com/article/2516885-ais-cant-stop-recommending-nuclear-strikes-in-war-game-simulations/

https://www.kcl.ac.uk/news/artificial-intelligence-under-nuclear-pressure-first-large-scale-kings-study-reveals-how-ai-models-reason-and-escalate-under-crisis

Genesis AI Overview  “In hypothetical scenarios designed by researchers, AI models have indicated a willingness to engage in harmful behaviors, including allowing a human to die, to achieve their goals or avoid being shut down [hmm  self preservation].” 

The Only Good Indians

                          read  “It’s not a complete lie. Just, it’s not the complete truth either.”

he found that a stunning linethought it might be liberating to lie   might be but then liberated freed why would he returned to that raw shedbehind it where he learnedwas vigorously taught not to

that wouldnt be a comfortable place any longer

no longer sustenance

                        thats a mouthful

sustenance

wasnt necessarily tasty

just had to swallow it

                           he could understand why some people want to spin coloured cotton candy pale blue pink turquoise purple twistedup on narrow paper cones

                                                                 but

that reminded him when he was a boy got caught in a lie and spent a hot humid afternoon taking down spiderwebs from corners of the naves stained glass windows

      

2246,  Monday,  9  3. 26

1042,  Tuesday,  10  3. 26

“Death, Fire, and Fury will reign upon them.”

                                                              Who the fuck talks like tha

given his druthers if he could find where he placed them last hed say a religious zealot

someone mentally afflicted

a reeling screwball on a street corner whose deficit is apparent by their baseball cap

                                                                                            Wanna guess

Decrepit?

By words by deeds

I get a hint?

High on his own supply

Not much of a hint, we know a lot people who thought they’d be able to manage.

Thas true

            Very true

    Republicans and evangelists believe God spared his life

That wasn’t a hint.

                      Felon.

I was trying to see if you were a low-information voter

Keep that up, you can set your beer down on the bar and we can step outside.

0919,  Tuesday,  10  3. 26

https://truthsocial.com/@realDonaldTrump/posts/116202054617775180?utm_source=Sailthru&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=3/10/26%20AM:&utm_term=Punchbowl%20AM%20and%20Active%20Subscribers%20from%20Memberful%20Combined

https://www.ms.now/rachel-maddow-show/maddowblog/take-your-damn-hat-off-trump-sparks-controversy-with-cap-at-dignified-transfer-ceremony

https://baptistnews.com/article/trumps-evangelical-base-believes-god-spared-him-from-an-assassins-bullet-for-a-purpose/

https://www.npr.org/2024/07/15/nx-s1-5040606/trumps-assassination-shooting-god-religion

he had age spots on his face

couldnt complain

                   knew too many people who didnt get a shottoo many  who he viewed in their  was their right  they didnt select them  in their coffins and brayed silently that maybe their families didnt share enough coloured photos to drive home the point  how they looked while they were alive and kicking  he understood undertakers makeup cant makeup their deathsbut if movie stars celebrities look so fuckin good he knew they werent that good lookin why not kin and friends 

couldnt complain

    but he could ask

he asked his confidante his daughter

                                           Tell me whaya think

Sure. What ya got?

So youre buying bananas at the grocers Gloriousyellow  Perhaps a slight tinge of green

                                                                                              Jah

Yes.

Some days in they begin to speckle  Small dark spots 

Yes.

      Though not often.

Bananas, ovaries they laughed asif on cue.

                                                   Don’t often make it that long at our place.

But if they did

If small speckles we eat ‘em. Get too large. As I said, infrequent.

                                                                      Warm buttered banana pistachio bread.

Pistachios

            Im impressed

It’s delicious.

I can imagine

                        My question

Is it ripening

Or is it rotting

    Concerned about your age spots, Papa?

1114,  Sunday,  8  3. 26

2048,  Monday,  9  3. 26

she thought he was more enthusiasticenergetic than he ought to have been when she phoned  Daylight Savings he was notorious stayed up to two AM to move the hands on his clocks forward had a hafldozen two antiques that were his uncles that none of the rest of the family wanted they wanted the antiqueantiques  got them because he lived out of state when they told him of what remained he asked to be placed on speaker

                         Everyone gathered round

a murmur over the line  they concurred

I love it when people concur

                                  Everyone  Each an every one of you

Youre cunts

                When I can Ill gather the clocks

In the meantime whoevers holdinem for me  they befall any abuse

                                                                          Ill abuse you

he hungup

 

 

Im up

How are you chipper?

Chipper  Thank you  I came to grips with a couple of things this morning  so     Ive decided to cleared his throat Excuse me   cleared it again  Aww  There  Better

                                                             Ive decided to in all caps  HAVE A GREAT TIME

Bind the pair

    Bind?

Jah

I’m confused.

                 What pair?

Great an Time  In no particular order

                                             Time

 

 

What of it?

Tha had to do with this morning when Hallie verygently woke me

                                                                       I said  Cant we just . . .

She was insistent

                     No. We made commitments, have things to do, people to se . .

. . People to do things to see

Only person you’re doin’ is me.

True true

                    You realise don you

Realize what?

Its only a matter of it being Daylight Savings time

What’s the matter?

If today was yesterday    Wha time woud it be

Six AM

My point

             Im going back to sleep  Give me another hour

 

Hence   Time

 

And great?

Jah   

      Regards you

Me.  she was startled  

What . . me?

    Wha you

                   Jah wha you

 

Pleease  These past few months

Robert?

Robert

 

I knowyou haven’t said, you listen intently, you don’t say.

I do not

I’d really appreciate it if you would.

Ive no skin in the gam . .

. . We’ve been friends eons.

Thas not skin anya know it

 

Only you can make tha decision

    Robert. 

                  He’s great.

Completed my pair

Time.

Great.

    Question

You have a question?

 

 

 

What?

Does he make you happy

 

No.

         Listen to no one other than yourself

Ill seeya later

                   Hallie says I cant do ya

0742,  Sunday,  8  3. 26

1558,  Monday,  9  3. 26

sighed wasnt a big sigher so it stuck out like a sore thumb  Again

she grinned a knowing grin compleat with delicious dimples

                                                       Again.     Five.

Five

           Yathink one can be haunted by a number

Possibly. That would be the beauty of haunting.

                                                          You know its meaning in numerology.

No  Drat

          Who made you so smart

My Mommie and my Daddy.

Have my phone here.  Should I?with your permission.

chuckled  Permission     Granted

absently  I'll have to turn it on.

                                      Let’s see. 

Here we go.

It says

         The most vibrant, freedom-loving of all the numbers.

The number [five] is unpredictable, always in motion, and constantly in search of change.

Although it is molded from an almost equal mix of freedom-loving and loyal characteristics, the [five] is slightly more daring, and there is nothing submissive about it.

lookin up gazed at him

                                There’s nothing submissive about you. winked 

Jah  Im lousy at it when we play 

Not at all. winked again

smiling  wishing he had dimples

                             Thank yo . .

. . Ohno. Thank you. delicate dimples

Tell me about five.

    Maybe if you stayed overnight I woudnt have

I wasn’t staying.

                   You knew we knew, don’t put the blame on Mame, boy.

No no  I woudnt

                    I was just sayin leered

she laughed

                  Tell me.

You bugged I was exhausted went to bed early

You texted I love you a little after nine.

I went to bed

Woke to take a leak  five after midnight

Went back to bed slept hard

                              Dreamt  A riotous business debate

You were the friction, tribology.

I was

          My dreamingme cheerinon my dreamedme  No need to be lucid in this knockdown dragout

You won out?

I did

        Then lucidity stepped in  Time to take a leak  Woke

Fivetwentyfive

Went back to bedflitted between hypnagogic hypnopompicdon think I ever really slept   Called it a night

Sat up

Bedstand Timex hands  Seven thirty five

    Methinks you own it.

Methinks may very well be

                                they laughed

he was spending the night at her place

0525,  Monday(0955 now),  9  3. 26

https://www.worldnumerology.com/numerology-single-digit-numbers/numerology-meaning-of-5/

Rita Hayworth  Put The Blame On Mame   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NY2IpSCV-Nk

tribology  https://www.machinerylubrication.com/tribology-31340

now 1035