28.9.24


epiphanies

they came an went
                     he couldnt keep up with them
one would appear
                    a second shove it aside third likewise ARE YOU MESSIN WITH ME  third buttfucked by the fourth
toughass epiphanies
                        but if they couldnt hold their own
why would he mourn em


they piledon
               all he could do was witness see if he could make hide or hair of em
NO
      like tryin to take a solitary frame from a rollin reel
cut your fingers off

he had need of em all
                       Sorry babe   Cant digitally please you
trifecta
          cock tongue fingers  ruined

    What did you do?

I  I tried saving an epiphany

But you have them all the time.

Yesyah
          But it intrigued me  I didnt want to let it get away

    Lost fingers. Got away.

Yah

Fuckin pitiful.
                Fuckin pitiful.

spread her legs
                  Get on it.
she was upset
                 but he still had his tongue
On it
Shaddup.
             Ill let ya know when you can talk.


he really surprised her with an index up the ass
she tried to bolt

his other hand was unmolested

she wasnt going anywhere


    she said she lost her mind

he saw exactly where it landed
                                  Whas it worth
More fucks and sucks and pleasures than you can imagine.

he thought shed have negotiated harder
                                            but  brain vacated

he had the upperhand  despite digits missing


that wasnt an epiphany

2219,  Saturday,  28  9. 24

had been flying

crosscountry

back again


meeting his ride at the curb he got in and said Terminal

bro replied Terminal?

Yah  I still have a hard time with tha
                                        Yad think it woudnt affect me since I only fly once a year
Terminal.
            What’s with that?

Id rather theythe recorded loudspeaker system say   concourse

So you don’t distinguish between the two?

Howso

A terminal is comprised of several concourses.

No  Theyre coequal

I disagree.

Youre right
            Like men an women coequal Theyre not   Women are superior
We’re coequal.

Fuck we are
              Youre living proof men are at a deficit  deficient

I pick you up and you berate me?

Im not berating you brother
                               Plain truth
Whatever.
            What’s your hangup?

Terminal or not coequal

Terminal, Christ.

Whaelse is terminal

What do you mean?
Us
      Were terminal   I really need to be reminded of tha when I fly
                                                                         If all the folks who suffer fear of flying  dig  aerophobia . .
. . Yamade that up.
Did not  Fuckin phobias for every fear
                                          Coprophobia  Fear of shitting  Imagine  Kakorrhaphiophobia Abnormal fear of failure or defeat Cant imagine  Athazagoraphobia intense or irrational fear of being forgotten or of forgetting someone something

Nothing to fear but fear itselfJeez
                                    My point is all those folks who fear flyingmedicate themselves last fuckin thing they want to hear at an airport is  terminal

   You been storing this up for awhile?
Canya tell
            Thanks  I appreciate the ride your ear

0558,  2sday,  17  9. 24
1259,  Saturday,  28  9. 24

   obstinacy

obstinate


   Yah

“But because the violence of my early life when I could put a name to it, even a terrified name, I remember details of it very vividly, as well as the fact that none of it ever affected my habitual (you could say even feline) curiosity, despite my awareness of what the results of such curiosity were likely to be. I, like too many other children in my predicament, had discovered that I possessed one ultimate weapon against abuse: obstinacy . . . Humiliation and obedience, ultimately, were and are more dreadful solutions than resistance, even if the latter results in painful defeat, because in resistance lies self-respect.”
                    Caleb Carr  My Beloved Monster: Masha the Half-Wild Rescue Cat Who Rescued Me

 

he entertained anal

admitted to his daughter he was
                                   Yathink? she responded
Hold on a second
                    Arent you curious how I arrived at my assessment
No.

Really

I’m teasing, of course I am. How?

   I was giving it some thought It occurred to me all these years Ive been very thorough
Very thorough.
                 Though that’s who you are.
Thank you

You’re welcome.

Yes Granular  I enjoy research
Minutiae.
I do
History.
          You constantly drag me through years that precede your explanation, help define your argument.
I do because it is critical to understand tha something has had to come before  thathey create the chain of events which culminate in what I understandbelieve  is the present

Always. Laboriously.

Boringly

   Sometimes.

Perhaps

Not perhaps.
You slay me
              Anywho   I was thinking
Maybe my thoroughness is analness

I am anal

Papa. However you want to describe yourself I’m cool.

Thanks baby

You’re welcome.

 

anal didnt fit

he went back to being thorough
                                  however
while reading Carrs passage it occurred to him that he was that
                                                                     obstinate
stubborn  hardnosed  fight or fight no flight
adored confrontation
provocative
ASSertive

   factual
maddeningly so

circled his wagons

his chainlinks blacksmithed wrought by vigorous blows

 

   obstinate
                 not anal
he had to call his daughter to advise her

2230,  Thursday,  26  9. 24
1134,  Saturday,  28  9. 24

Friday all are reggaefridays
                               hes called it that for years his coinage  went over huge with his family and when they dropped it on others it stuck


how now reggaefriday
                         was an illuminating day once he brokeout of dreaming
which no small feat
leftie
      a female cat
roused himbumped his face with hers  hinted FOOD 

she was followed by the queen october shy firstborn bomb tomboy stood in the doorway FOOD
                                                                                  GET THE MESSAGE
he had for years
                   Awright gang Up an Adam colloquially up and at ‘em time but who likes colloquial  Time to get the show on the road
got his ass out of bed
had to make it first


Grrls bomber  Time to eat

they hustled into the kitchen

waiting outdoors were four ferals too

he was an ample provider

gotta to love pussy to be able to contend with eight



early afternoon 

work complete

he went on a walkread occasionally lifted his head when sensingkeening something may be afoot worthwhile presenting
            sometimes something was butifnot he wasnt one who ever lacked inspiration
shit fireworks went off in his head
never a dull moment
his blue eyes shined

 

in the evening he had a scheduled phone call with a friend

he had a habitwas  haBITCHualised
                                       while they yammered he liked to sip a Lizards Mouth beer

also habit was having a couple tidbits at the ready to share with her  curios

he ran into Dave Dyslexia Dave the Church Caretaker whose name he humourously recalled by the Cheech and Chongs bit  Dave’s Not Here  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dX8lZduI8ac

Dave however was not late to churchwas religious as a boy teenager he could stream psalms backwards

he was utterly unfamiliar with Cheech and Chong

    a tidbit



he picked up a Lizards Mouth nineteenounce can from a small local liquorestore whose attendant he was acquainted with she wore a tightfitting black tshirt emblazoned in elaborate white cursive font MULTITTASKER   across her tits

maybe because she wasnt young wasnt beautiful she could wear it to work

he was fifth in line

no one behind him


Heya

Hi. How are you?

I love your tshirt

her eyes startedshe blushed

No ones commented on it
                                  Youre blushing her rouge brightened
she cleared her throat
                          I’ve worn this on occasion onanoff for two years. You’re the first person whose noticed. Not even my boss has.

Maybe hes not a tit man
                           You might imagine I am her rouge became fiercer 

Threeeightyfine I have exact change
                                       he paid slowly with three  ones  two  three  a  quarter  six  dimes
counted them into her palm without looking up

by the time they completed the transaction her usual countenance was restored

he smiled
           I must say  blush looks good on you
it hustled back
he laughed
             Ill see next reggaefriday babe



A titbit  Whacha got for me

his phonefriend almost dropped hers

1524,  reggaefriday,  27  9. 24
1002,  Saturday,  28  9. 24