6.3.16



his dreams might have been for the deaf
                                   subtitled    textsplashed    wrapped in talk bubbles over the heads
of babbling or silent creatures
 
creatures
         because hominids were few and far between the cartooned or comicked characters animals and denizens who inhabited the Two-Hearted swamp oozing through his imagination
 
                                              T  E  X  T was shoving him in the back pushing him out of his sleep                                                                                                          
                                  Y  O  U  R  E    D  O  N  E    H  E  R  E
find some other refuge  freak
                  D  O    N  O  T    T  R  E  S  P  A  S  S
T  r  e  s  p  a  s  s  e  r  s    W  i  l  l    B  e    V  i  o  l  a  t  e  d


N  O    U    T  U  R  N  S
                                      it was crass  unexpected
not that anyone can have an expectation of their dreams or dreaming youve signed in youre along for the ride or taken for a ride when youve expected so much more from yourself or of your id or ego or subconscious whichever monkey has its hands at your wheel taking you out and around for an unauthorised spin

but when youre treated badly you shouldnt suffer it youre not obliged

you assess your odds to either fight or flee

then commit to your decision

he found that he was able to physically rock himself out of his sleep and going over the edge of his mattress he threw his arm out broke his fall kept his thighs on the bed anchoring him from haplessly toppling out the rest of the way

it isnt the way one wants to start their morning
 
nearly breaking their freakin neck



his father didnt get him
he told him that he hadnt dreamt in years let alone in black and white or coloured textualised lauding cartoon characters or people he knew or didnt know complet with music he recognised or a grainy-type of silent film

he couldnt tell him anything other than what he saw

Ill tell ya son  Sounds like a nightmare to me

Well Dad I dont distinguish between nightmares or dreams  Theyre just dreams

Boy 
     Youre strange

Dad 
     Youve been telling me that my whole life
      


1124,  Friday,  4  3. 16
0002,  Saturday,  5  3. 16

spider plants



coming inside her apartment  only hinted at through her daintily curtained windows off the street  he saw that she had a thing for spider plants

but deeper inside her place to say she had a thing wouldnt suffice

a passion

         verging on obsession
spider plants clung everywhere
they were on tables accent tables eschewing where photographs might have stood 
on wallmounted shelves bookshelves a desk rendered nonfunctional
hung in macramé from decorative hooks in the ceilings
clinging obscuring nooks and crannies

 

---   Howl ong does it take you to water them when you do


---   Water them
---   Yes
Theyre in every room they must consume considerable time when you do

---   I dont know
I couldnt say I dont pay attention to the time I do what it takes Its not important how long it takes


Would it be important to you

---   Important

Im not sure Id assess  houseplants    important

My plants outofdoors  I enjoy  And like yourself I couldnt say either how long I take watering them

But Im outside in the air the sun the weather

Then inevitably something distracts me captures my attention or I recognise theres something amiss to be corrected and I immediately take that time  then prolonging my time in the yard



When I go outside theres no such thing as time

---   Then perhaps youve answered your question in regards to me watering my spiders

---   Yes   Perhaps I have

Though that said  not that youd ask me
and not that Id offer to water them if you had to go out of town on an trip or an extended stay somewhere

---   You wouldnt 
 
If I asked

---   I wouldnt
 
Thats why I prefaced my remark Not that youd ask me

Inside is the last place I want to be

Inside is claustrophobic  Walls  Kennels


---   Yet youre inside with me now



---   You must rate huh

---   I must

So no I dont pay attention to the time it takes

Sometimes it even seems they take care of themselves their soil moist long after Ive watered them

he stuck his fingers into the soil of a couple plants
---   Moist Yes
---   And its been weeks

looking around
---   Do you keep your windows closed not let fresh air in

---   Other things come inside with fresh air

---   Other things are outside in the fresh air


---   What are you suggesting

---   Nothing  I wouldnt suggest Suggest suggests judgment an youre your own beast
---   Beast
---   Rephrase
Your own animal Earthling

---   Did you say earthling

---   Am I sounding a little too scifi or sketchy for you

---   Im not sure

---   What I mean  were like all      all things living on the planet  Were earthlings
None better or worse   Sharing  Or I think rather meant to be shared

What takes exception  is religion

Religions got to drags its dick through everything  Suppose  lookin for a furrowAny furrow will do  Plant their seedif ya catch my drift

Whas K J V   Yahyah King James version
My notion is K J C  King James crap
Genesis

Genesis one chapter twentysix 
                         God created Man in his image
Then it gets weird
 
His idear  Let us make man in our image after our likeness
 
Whose image Whose likeness is He talkin bout

He elaborates  And let them have dominion of over the fish of the sea the fowl in the air over all the earth over every creeping thing that creepethWho uses creepeth  Creepeth upon the earth

I dont believe dominion meant domination  Its waste



---   Seems I struck a nerve
---   No Nah

Im just intolerant
Religiously

Exactly like my religious counterparts  despite what they say

---   Im not exactly religious 
                    
---   I know

---   How do you know

---   Because if you were I wouldnt be here

---   Or because if I were

you

wouldnt be here

---   Exactly  Then useless as tits on a bull   Useless
---   I dont know what to say
 
---   Say  Howbout a drink
 
---   You think I brought you here for a drink

---   I didnt think anything except helping you with your groceriesYou needed help but had that look Oh fuck Its more than I thought

I dont need help

I thought Id share the lift with you

---   Such a gentleman

---   Dont get lost in that No gentleman Not sweet I just dont want my maw materialising out of the ether screaming
Wha kind of bum did I raise  if I walked past you

---   A boy scout

---   Says a girl scout

---   Then I suppose we have that scenthuh

---   Scentnah Id call it pheromoans


---   You said  phero moans
---   I did

---   Your mother wouldnt appear out of the ether for a crack like that

---   Nah  She cant read lipsshe reacts to what she sees   See


---   A handful of boy scout arent you

---   Then some

Im handy




You recognise your pauses are getting longer


---   Youve noticed

---   Not really  I tend to invoke pauses

You cant talk to me if you dont want me to say exactly what I mean

---   And mean exactly what you say

---   Tits

---   Im not saying it 
---   Its just a word
You ought to try
 
Somebody who lives cooped up needs to let their hair downItll feel good to your scalp

---   My scalp

---   You aint autonomous baby You got your parts and you ought to respect em

---   Are you suspicious

---   Out of left field
 
If I have suspicions inklings I give em wide berth
I do not participate

I dont want any drauma


---   You said  drau ma
like trauma
---   Give the lil lady a lollipop  I did

she rolled her eyes
My maw aint in yer head either Shes deaf to yakyak So if you aint offering me a drink for my labours would ya like to go out for a beer

---   I didnt say 
I wouldnt offer you a drink
---   No you didnt Except I got this powerful thirst an a beer sounds like what Ill need for the parchedness Whaddayasay

---   On me

---   I couldnt imagine a better scenario than cold beer on you all over you


Yer pausing again

---   I am Yes

Repartee isnt my strong suit

---   Id like to have ya at yer strong suit

In yer swimsuit hell yer birthday suit
Gitya bucknaked


In a manner of speakin

---   I dont know if youre teasing me teasing with me or mean exactly what you say

---   I told you I mean exactly what I say

Refreshin
         like a cold beer a cold shower a turned cold shoulder all warmed up

---   Okay  We should go
---   Yer neighborhood Yer buying Im in yer hands



*   *   *



they came back to her place after beers shots and dinner  Coffee

she asked if hed like to come back to her place for a drink


the spider plants roused when they entered

their spiderettes quivered

they quivered again when she left the room and he went to open the livingroom window overlooking the sideyard

he missed their motions
                    though they waited for him to turn his back
he also missed that they quivered against the soft cool breeze entering the window slipping down off the western hills
gently parting her dainty curtains  gently slipped aside  gently undulating on its breath

she returned to the livingroom wearing a black and rust caftan African print

beyond him seeing the window opened she said You couldnt resist  could you

---   I have no willpower to resist

Im hopin its catchin  communicable          Contagious
    
---   But then Id be the only one infected

---   Yes  Only you
 
Exertin my dominion

Dominion  she said as she went to a small almost unseen dry bar nearly cloaked in sheaths of green tendrils

Not domination  I recall

---   You were listenin

---   I was 
Bourbon

---   Please  Neat

---   The only way to take this bourbon

---   Im passin a test arent I

---   All afternoon evening long

he heard the bottle gurgle high in its throat as she poured the spirit into two glasses
a handsome cutglass decanter obscured by plants

he didnt see that they drew back as she reached for the glasses and decanter

she turned back towards him and watched him as he walked across the long livingroom sidestepping her eclectic furnishings over to the overstuffed sofa   and sit

and sit erect  athletic   leaning slightly forward 
a big cat in a tree under which its prey walked cautiously  or demurely   nosing the air unalarmed  his scent running downwind high over its head in the moist green air

she crossed the room to him holding the glasses before her

he could smell their liquor 
the vapors emanating chased by the heat in her hands at the glass
immediately an oak nose  a slight caramel note   then an earthy leather crush

she handed him his bourbon

sat beside him

sideslipped nearer him to his warm  Better


she held her glass up  offering it to be clinked by his

he anticipated that 
---   To dominion

---   And to its various domains

toasted  he said Yer gettin better by the moment girl
Repartee with a rapier
  
---   And youre language remains  mired  in double entendre

---   Yes  Up to its hips in muck

---   Muck

---   Id love to
Thought youd never come around to it

she laughed

her mouth wide open

her hand  uneager  to stifle it

he set his glass down on the sidetable among the jungle 
took hers and placed it beside his
and as her laugh simmered to a soft mewing he put his arm around her his hand to the back of her neck took her mouth under his their tongues twined  intoxicated serpents

kissing deeply he took his hand from her neck and clutched her breast  it free under the caftan
 
her breast firmed her breath caught her nipple responded ardently

somehow  unbroken from the others clutch  they made the bedroom
it was warmed and fluttering by buttermilk candlelight





                                                 he stepped back into the livingroom naked
copped their glasses of bourbon and returned to her 
they played more an some more  they turned their glasses before the tall flickering flame enjoyed the restless reliefs
and striations playing mutely on their bodies 
he took her with his mouth
she hadnt liked it before 
he made her take him in her mouth
she hadnt liked it before

then exhausted
 
slightly drunk

he smiled at her down into her face an swept teardrops from her eyes with his thumbs                                                                               
and when they wouldnt cease he kissed and perfectly licked them from her crushed eyelids
babying her with hushed there there there an sshh sshh  quiet sweet girl

unable to salve her tears he laid back on the bed pulled her gently to him  and held her

simply   held her
             
without understanding without judgment

until sleep took them



he didnt wake when her glass fell onto the bed  pushed by an clumsy immature spiderette

she woke  caught her breath  her tears welled in her eyes again

she deftly escaped the bed without waking him

he was so beautiful in the blue moonlight

hed cracked the blinds so they were striped in cast bars  like Twenties erotica  their eyes  the windows to their souls  secreted  hidden from the other  made foreign  and foreign queerly unknown  unknown to themselves or each other  then strangers  and then strangers fucking strangely  uninhibited  their bodies dispensed  light and darker pieces morsels  skewered into smaller  delectable  portions to eat
delicious
  
relished




he stirred almost not at all  so very lightly  when he was stung
she expected that of him
 
he had beautiful scars  she traced them with her fingertips making him explain minutely how they happened  if they hurt badly

No he said  he said he was comfortable maybe too comfortable with pain
It keeps you in the moment in the here and now                                                                                          

the plants crowded descended upon him

on his unconscious  beautiful  body

they fed 
where her mouth had kissed him and teased
where she playfully bit him extracting comical ouches and in return he pinched her  grabbed handful of her ass and thighs her breasts sucked on her skin bruising her he promised  where no one would see

she whispered No one ever looks at me

Everyone looks at you  so Im being very deliberate  so no one will know I ate you


her tears


plants silently padded in from the outside rooms  helping themselves
they left heavier  engorged   soft thuds    scratchier slides


then he wasnt there



only the dominion he talked of



0154,  Twosday,  1  3. 16
 1444,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  2  3. 16