8.5.18


American carny begins at the top
Huh 

Ohexcuseme my mistake

American carnage begins at the top


1609,  Twosday,  8  5. 18

douche


it wasnt what he grew up with  douche  douchebag dbag    his college roommate from Brooklyn introduced him to the term

they didnt use it liberally 

it took a real gem to provokepry it out of them


the president is a douche

1529,  Twosday,  8  5.18  


dusk fallen purpling sky    trees giving away to silhouettes of themselves


Thats it
        he was over it

when he was looking he really saw and nobody saw what he did like he did 
What are you talking about? Where?

Were past it  On the side of the road  Im not exiting the highway reversing field and coming back up it to show you so you can see  Youll have to take my word for it

Well, if what you say you saw you saw . . I don’t want to see it.

No you dont


his motheryears ago noticed during their Sunday afternoon ride to the country for picnics that he was uncommonly quietly to his father  ungainly observant  she remarked that the family would have missed nearly all the things he saw and pointed out for their attention  things attractive  not so attractive   she said You could be more discerning . . 
. . No  If I gotta see why shouldnt you

their ride on those occasions became more than they bargained for  Its an adventureright youre always saying were going out on an adventure  he hung her with her and his fathers words

his father was demur consolation  Mother, you can’t expect him not to see, that’s why he has eyes in his head.

she would give him cool looks 

the matter dropped



he was over it
               that was the final fawn that broke the dromedarysthe bactrians backhe lumped them together  fuck their humps

the fawns broken legs like mangled spiders legs pointed in all directions 

its neck snapped zigzag

its shattered skullsock of a face peering backwards over its crumpled spine

blood sapped of its colour by the failing lightsplashed like a ruptured water balloon near the asphalts edge advertising the carnage on its shoulder

somebody could start making films now  exhibit dead childrenchildrens deaths

he was sick about the horror of other species dead childrenwhy hold up a human child as something separatemore special deserving of reverence

animal children are slaughtered daily and languish for days in buzzed heaped on road sides and highways   

sometimes theyre never attended to reduced to bonestickled hides that even ravens and vultures disregard

nobody seems upset


hes mentioned it until hes blue in the face  he wasnt able to provoke concern It’s unfortunateyah, but what you going to do? It’s an unfortunate . .
. . Cost

I didn’t say that.

You cant say that Cost is something endured 

Do you even feel bad


Be honest



If I were honest . . sounds bad . . . no.

I honestly feel bad I feel badly each an every time I come across dead animals on the road  I pick them up and lay them in quieter places under trees in high grass lay them in someones flower bed try to create a makeshift reverence

That’s good of you.

Not good  a poor apology for a less than mediocre two-legged selfish species



he was upset

unnecessary death upset him



so yes if a film portrayed innocent children killed hed have no problem with it  it wasnt crossing any moral lines

all one has to do is look around them and see the truth

theres no reason humans are special

when were especially selfish



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