bugs suicide still haunts him

appleseed remains as quiet as The Sphinx up in her corner  

she didnt accuse him

she remains perfectly still  and fragile   and lethal                                                                          

how long can a spider survive without sustenance

he couldnt remember the last time she silked an insect and sucked out its melted innards

hed been with her every morning afternoon evening at the end of every bath every day as he pursued his health

she quivered to acknowledge his puffed breaths up into her corner raised a foreleg or two  then went still again

he wished her good mornings good afternoons good nights

                                             he found himself missing her now 

every living thing dies

and he alone would bear witness to her death

bugs suicide still haunts him

1629,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  28  12. 16

Its a new day!

it was  although he didnt feel particularly good about it not enthused or infused with any sort of optimism   

darkly he anticipated this new day this revision would attempt what it had repeatedly threatened  and not slyly  it strapped a black mask across its eyes to obscure its identity and went out and committed its felonies du jour

so many were surprised

they clasped their hands to their breasts to their throats  they couldnt imagine the new day did what it did

Assholes  It told you what itd do in plain Englishin your fucking Mothers tongue  Werent you listening  Did you think it was braying colorfully discordantly to simply be politically incorrectWere past that!Arent we?!We say it plainly and without apology! rudely  ruthlessly   because Whites can(whiteskin)     

the new day was quickly apprehended

its brilliant light shackled and arraigned and held in prism

its rainboned coloring some kind of relief  or latent apology    unspoken of course

he watched it happen from the attic

she had to call it a loft

Attic loft pigeon squab deermeat venison liver pate Things dont have to be pretty or poetic he told her  Why do things have to be pretty for youWhats to be gained  Pretty is so much camouflage

You said prism she saidWhy didnt you just say prison

Isnt light held inside a prism or cast through it imprisoned

Prism  prison  prismprison  prisonprism  sunsm  smsun

Nothings what you thinkIts never what you thinkThen why think so

Think why

Why

Or whynot

Whyknot

Its a Hydra dragonheaded  fierce  ecstatic

If youre so concerned with pretty you can never become ecstatic

Ecstasy! my love  isnt pretty

2222,  Sunday,  25  12. 16

1025,  Twosday,  3 1. 17