deep into 4/20 and he hadnt written anything for it

                                                              Not A Blessed Thing

it might have been that he was terribly disappointed the dusty bud he found wrapped in tinfoil lost its Wowie 

bud waondering around without its THC is like an old man without his pants crepeskin legs stretchedout whitey tighties cuz they were cheap at Kmart and there wasnt a soul interested in seeing him in his underwear or naked 

before his wife died they were married 66 years hed walk into their bedroom after a shower in only his briefs and his wife would growl at himroll her eyes truth was he did the same for her when he caught her dressing before the mirror on her vanity in her bra and panties

they growled for 66 years until she was called away 

their growling and prowling gave them nine children

they survived four of their children 
                                     and each death rapped their skullstapped their spines shrank them  and then three of their grandchildren died

she was beside herself  That wasn’t supposed to happen to us, you and I, we weren’t supposed to outlive our children, our grandchildren; they were supposed to bury us. Moja kohana, I can’t, I can’t do this no more.

just before their third grandchild died she told her sister over the telephone  You tell Ania, you tell your sister I’ll see her soon.

his wife died thirteen days after their granddaughter

thats what bad bud gave him

had it been good bud

                       had he been ragingtopped off with THC  like a good head on a beer his old man told him that a raw egg in a beer always gives you good head he might have reimagined relived the night in San Francisco when he was a bit too drunk and got a bit too frisky with a Chinese girl who sported a scarcely concealed rack – something he didnt see every day – who took exception to his drunken ogle who took exception to him calling her Oriental -- all the countries fled his head -- who pulled some kungfu shit on him and kicked his ass in the bar off the Fairmont lobby

rather than her clobbering him  with good bud he imagined rather that they made nice and on the elevator ride up to his room she let him motorboat her against the mirrored wall locking her hips in between his wrists as he gripped the railing 
         

2257,  Monday,  20  4. 20

WHO

           give ya a hint   it is not the World Health Organisation

The Times of Israel reported April 17 that US Intelligence agencies alerted Israel to the novel coronavirus in November 2019

US Intelligence also informed the Trump administration  “which did not deem it of interest”

anyone with half a brain might recall a similar horrific mistake by another administration the Bush administration National Security Advisor Condi Rice and her team ignored a report of an imminent terrorist attack in Jiuly 2001 a report was later presented to President Bush on 6 August 2001 it was titled “Bin Laden Determined to Strike in US” it also was ignored

spanning a generation it seems either entitlement or audacity powers Republicans and Republican presidents  Trumps administration did not learn a damn thing and is responsible for more American deaths than since the Bushs War on Terror began  and leaning in on American deaths in Vietnam

somebody please make a graphic of those comparisons

1827,  Monday,  20  4. 20  now he could get high

https://www.timesofisrael.com/us-alerted-israel-nato-to-disease-outbreak-in-china-in-november-report/                                                     

https://www.politico.eu/article/attacks-will-be-spectacular-cia-war-on-terror-bush-bin-laden/

     when he wrote Lets Get the Death Show on the Road he was being glibtongue in cheek  then he read an article in The New Republic titled Donald Trump’s . . . Death Cult Takes to the Street

as regular as Trumps suppositories the president compelled his clowns last Friday  tweeting  LIBERATE MINNESOTA!  LIBERATE MICHIGAN!  LIBERATE VIRGINIA, aw Virginia doesnt get an exclamation point and save your great 2nd Amendment. wha is it Donny It is under siege!  

                                                  https://newrepublic.com/article/157356/donald-trump-coronavirus-protests?utm_source=newsletter&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=tnr_daily

the 2nd Amendment A well regulated Militia – The National Guard last he heard – being necessary to the security of a free state, the right of the people to keep and bear Arms, shall not be infringed.

tortured logic to scream like a little girl that Sheltering – at – Home threatens gun rights – Hell! hundreds of students murdered in their schools havent threatened gun rights – other people other than the monkeys who jump at the bars and shake and rage have certain unalienable Rights as enshrined in the Declaration of Independence  that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness

                                                      Oops  lets not forget that all men are created equal

the Declaration of Independence was signed 4 July 1776

the Constitution was signed in 1787

the 2nd Amendment was ratified in 1791

priorities

priorities

the presidents are skewed

his words dont sound like hes intent on defending and protecting the United States

1535,  Monday.  20  4. 20

https://www.archives.gov/founding-docs/declaration-transcript  

never let anyone insult you at your own assembly

fuckin cut em off at their knees and let them drag themselves out the door

its not a gathering for free speech

Shaddup Listen

Ill tell you what I am feeling and what I think  Believe that

Ill tell you what is right for me And what is wrong

he detested blowhards  of any stripe

his daughter was holding her own

she dismissed the monkeytold him he wasnt to come back Tell your superiors.

but detesting blowhards he couldnt resist hanging aroundfingers crossed knowing full well it was just a matter of time before they stuck a pin in themselves and blewup shred like a childs toy balloon pieces scattering everywhere

he never did mind picking their pieces up tossing them out in the trash likely from where they came

0118,  Saturday,  14  12. 19

1354,  Monday,  20  4. 20

Crosby, Stills, Nash  Helplessly Hoping  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kyquqw6GeXk

gratefully he threw her a curve

she didnt want anything beside her head as she was falling asleep

she didnt like pillows towels anything against the side of her face

her head laid on a marooncoloured UGG blanket

she liked it well enough

her head would roll roll rollright

she had to sleep sitting up for now

congestion in her lungs forbid her from lying flat she chokedcouldnt breathe

falling asleep rather catnapping her head rolled rightshed wake turn her head roll it left

on and on and on shed roll roll roll her head right and left  

she looked uncomfortable 

she didnt open her eyes

she was driving him nuts  driving herself nuts

he sat beside her in a ladderback chair he needed to be as uncomfortable as possible it was his watch

hed fix her wagon 

shed get some sleep if it killed him

he rolled up a pillowcase

semiconscious she rolled her head left

quicklystealthily he slipped the rolled pillowcase under the UGG created a bumper 

her head rolled right again

her cheektemple rolled against it

she nuzzled the UGG

her breathing deepened

intently he watched

she slept   

she slept for better than forty minutes not once rolling or rocking her head

actual sleep 

when she woke

unlike other times

she didnt awake with a start a panic

forty minutes

forty minutes

he was grateful

1532,  Friday,  13  12. 19

1118,  Monday,  20  4. 20

his daughter and soninlaw had decided to downsize

that had never been something he ever had to worry about

they never owned a house

when they were younger the only reason that spurred him in particular to own was to have a yard to grow a garden in

then his wife got sick

                       and they were grateful they didnt have a house they would have lost it

his daughter and soninlaw bought a small house outside Los Angeles 

which upset their daughters

they were going to have to share a bedroom

it was wise they didnt say anything to him

he didnt have a bedroom to himself until his wife died 

he think he paid too much

                            too much

they asked him if he would help them move

he moved furniture professionally weekend gigs for years to help make ends meet when

they sold off their livingroom furniture it wouldnt fit in the new house sold their diningroom table leaves chairs and buffet they wouldnt fit either

they went through their closests through the girls closests sold clothes gave away clothes

his daughter said We’re going through our books . .

. . Your library Excuse me for interrupting

You crack me up, Dad. You have a library. We have books. We’re not – excuse me for saying so – attached, or committed to our books. You have to have hardbounds, first editions, which speak to you. Books aren’t possessions to us.

Okay Would you mind if I go through the books youve decided not to take Ill buy them from you

No. Take them, please. You can’t buy them.

they kept more than they thought they would

Hey he told them Books pack well Theyre stable stackable make for good bases for lightermore fragile items Theyre gold

he only took a few they werent going to move

he wasnt into fantasy literature 

thats what he said

they were impressed they had books he called literature

he just wanted them to feel good about their books

1043,  Monday,  2  12. 19

2319,  Sunday,  19  4. 20

The Beatles  Paperback Writer  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SepZDSkY4Ro