it woke him twice during the nighta black mans voice he didnt think he owned onewasnt in his repertoire

the first time is was yet dark so he took a piss and as he did he mumbled it to himself over and over and over no wonder he didnt forget crawling back into bed it fixed itself like a mantra or a leech or tick

                                                                                      it was gonna take something more than trying to ignore it to remove it

the black mans voice was melodic it ran over like honey imageries his dreaming mind tried to unleash 

aural  exceeding  visual 

not an easy trick

he was visual to a fault

he was a voyeur

his images were perfectly formed sugar cubes 

he was the hot tea they melted in

not an easy trick

he woke the second time

                           his queen october jumped up on the bed when she jumped up because she was hungry he had no choice but to jump as well

the voice was still in his head

                                Mister policeman gotta learn, dey fucked, if dey fuck with us.

Right on brother

they have to be treated by the law equally fuck that theyre supposed to uphold the law

Quis custodiet ipsos custodes?

                                 Yaint lived until yave heard a black man intone Who watches the watchmen? in Latin

sooner policeman learns hes fucked sooner well get around to healing

0756,  Sunday,  21  6. 20 

1447,  Sunday,  21  6. 20 

The Smiths  How Soon is Now  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OztC_7nkAd8

its Fathers Day

body cravesbodys fulfilled shes pregnant and he celebrates it with a crown and a belt  His Worlds Championship (as long as he can hold onto herthat she doesnt breed with another man and dilute his children half brothers and sisters seemed no one got it   half aint whole)

Fathers Day

he didnt suffer that ignominy

he suffered slights
                     and suffering he wondered if his father had his grandfathers had games played for keeps between husbands and wives played on different fields dependent upon the contendents or rivals who just couldnt see eye-to-eye

he didnt ask his old manhe didnt think his old man asked his old man

kinda like a running joke laughed off shrugged at  it was easier to hold at arms lengthkeep at bay

fatherhoods

motherhoods

cobbled with caulk fibrous with lies halftruths clotted with meaty chunks of truths
                                   Whawas he talking about

Fathers Day

his Fathers Day experiences had nothing to do with him

it was about his daughters
                              being so-very-fucking-grateful to have his daughters

Fathers Day is about being a father
                                       sometimes a prick but holding the line
maybe someday theyd thank him

that wasnt importanthe wasnt looking for absolution

he had been a ferocious father

even if he had known how to be otherwise he wouldnt have been

cat doesnt change it spots

2352,  Saturday,  20  6. 20

what is it about sleep that offended his body
                                                when he woke in the morningevery morning was a surprise to discover what maladies hed suffer

wrists that felt like their insides were filled with broken glass

fists he cant bunch
                     reminding him of when he sparred  fast money  taped poorly   ice

he went away from sparring to hustle pool
                                             there was the occasional poor sportguys who wanted their money back  tried to lean on who was holding  guys  who didnt know him   who didnt know he boxed

his shoulders didnt want him to bring his arms over his head
                                                                 however seven surgeries between them that might been provocation to their discomfort

his hipsknees

he was grateful his body didnt fuck with his ankles and feet

his neck was stiff
                    be coudnt say how many birds passed that he wasnt able to nonchalantly appreciate

by dinner his body seemed to enter a loose alignment  allied with him

the discomfort  dull

not what he experienced in the morning
                                           after sleeping

his body might be taking issue  that   he    dreamed

mundane or outrageous
                         his body was lying-in-wait for him in the morningbushwhacked him

if he slept like the dead

dead people dont dream 

none ever said otherwise

he won out

1 out of 10
             didnt rate 3.0

if he dreamed his body nixedditched the scale and spun up Dick Clarks American Bandstand ratings applied from 35 to 89  except the two scores werent averaged  top score held sway

his body dialed up his discomfort

those morning were the hard mornings   

they had an exuberant debate over who was running the show

he and his body played this game four years ago

his Will won out
                  their first match

it occurred to him this Whatever  was two teams different conferences matching up again   

call it Super Bowl

he wanted to roll to Vegas (he couldnt – physically) and bet heavily on their rematch big money on Will

he wouldnt hedge his bet

All or Nothing

he never did understand people who bet against themselves
                                                                 it seemed that was asking to get fucked

  

set-up by a yet unwritten piece scribbled 1343, Sunday, 13  1. 20

2253,  Saturday – Summer Solstice,  20  6. 20

Charles Albertine  Bandstand Boogie   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hHiFsRQEHQw

Phoebe Bridgers  Punisher  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ncSf8Nk3aq4