June 2015 Vanity Fairs cover story is Call Me Caitlyn

The Jender Effect?

Augh   Isnt it too soon?

No   Isnt it way past time?

2332,  Twosday,  2  6. 15

--   Mebbe youd like to contend with this one

Im getting tired

--   Youre joking

--   Nah 

--   I cant  Theyre yours to contend with

for good reason

They occur to you

Not to me 

--   Seems they never occur to you

--   And mebbe Im not receptive 

We churn our butter differently

 

--   I dont think you make butter 

--   So you want to be rude about it

--   Rude
I think not

Honest                                                                                                                                    

I cant think

of the last time you shared anything with me as absurd as I share with you

Im nearly a fuckin daily

--   I apologise Im sorry

Obviously I dont process things the way you process them

You werent rude

--   Thank you

Im reaching out for a little help  a little insight
I dont know what to make of it

Dont know what to make of waking with it in my head to the extent I couldnt go back to sleep until I wrote it down
It had me by the throat

It made me

And I dont know if its meaningful    or critical

--   Again
what was it 

he sighed heavily

Sorry 
Let me redouble my effort

I heard you I just want to be sure I heard exactly
what you said

--   Itscrazy

Woke me

The words the sentence 
was

         Its a type of checkpoint youd see in a fairy tale

--   Its a type of checkpoint youd see in a fairy tale

--   Correct

--   Okay  Its as strange the second time as it was the first

Sorry

Checkpoint in a fairy tale 
border checkpoint  Customs   Border patrol

Did  you  see anything when you heard the words 
--   Pitch black
Had the drapes thrown open last night    No moon 

Words   unwound
in my ears

--   A type of fairy tale checkpoint

--   Its a type of checkpoint youd see in a fairy tale

Wrote it down exactly as I heard it

I think if it was any other way  itd been said that way

Its a type of checkpoint youd see in a fairy tale  I think its the only way into its meaning

--   Jung says you turn dreams like a child turns a ball in his hands  The child babe never saw a ball before

Hes utterly unfamiliar

I know you know

But Id really have to think on it

--   Not too hard

--   What do you make of it

It occurred to you

Remember what you were thinking of just before or as you went to sleep

--   Im still physically uncomfortable when its time to try to fall asleep

I dislike trying to go to sleep

I was icing my back to numb it so I could ignore it falling asleep
Its like sprinting 
to fall asleep before I become too uncomfortable to fall asleep

--   So do you remember anything

--   An old girlfriend 
kinda

Probably better to say we enjoyed each other

I used her she used me but neither one cared
Like Seegers Night Moves

--   Great song

--   Yeah  We joked it was our song

It was a good thing

But shes not a checkpointNot a fairy tale  by any stretch of the imagination

--   Though she might have been the point of entry

Hence  a checkpoint

--   Clever
And checkpoint  Chess  Check  A game  Strategy
--   In a fairy tale

--   Junging it  as you suggested

Looking for a chink in the armour

--   I dont know

Happy it didnt occur to me

--   You said it

Rather a womans voice said it

--   That help

--   No 
Whispered 

like a secret

--   Doubling up perhaps  Meant only for you

Occurred  to you

Whispered to you

--   Yeah

Well
thanks for hearing me out

If I was testy I didnt mean to be

--   No sweat

You gonna lemme know if you turn it out 

--   Yes
Hell yes 

You shared your time

--   Thats awright                                                 

Lotsa luck with it

HA 
I think Ive forgotten it already

--   Wasnt yours

Be cool

--   You too
he walked off
leaving him holding the whispered bag of a fairy tale checkpoint 

though he supposed  why wouldnt a fantasy checkpoint exist
a mere extension of a real life checkpoint

blinkers realised and enforced

                                                                                                   

dreamers blinded

Law backing them

Because the Law has been so Just

                                                        hasnt it 
Challenge it  civil disobedience  dont do what they say to the letter
they bring the house down on your head

and if They become fearful 
fearful

            of your challenge

Law  can execute you

could be why she whispered

0133,  Friday,  29  5. 15
0100,  Saturday,  30  5. 15