Yeahbaby he eruptedentering the livingroom  hed been in a bedroom privacy I’m feelingup mightyup to the challenge.

startled him CHRIST I didnt even know you were here 

                                                         he came in to freshenstrengthen his drink  Connie was notorious for pullin up short on liquor  they hadnt said outside he was inside  

I wanted to talk privatelynot before a bunch of ears acting like they aint hanging on my every word.

A second he took a pull on his drink better  Lemme correct ya before ya go out of bounds makin declarations Aint nobody hangin on your word  Ifya thinkin thathas delusional

No not regarding this call, I told them I was expecting her callshe’s smokin’.

Nobodys hangin on your words

                                  Ive been outside fifteen  feels like fifteen minutes  conversations beinhad are fascinating  Stellar nursery Webb telescope fuckin Webb eliminating queer staff from NASA during the Sixties You yappin with a chick versus tha woudnt hold water

I think you’re mistaking.

I believebetter than think I know  I believe yare highyare high  arent you

Has nothing to do with anything.

Stoned iffy paranoia Whawoud people think can work in funny ways

                                                                        Thasaid I interrupted you were cockadoodledoodlin Whas thabout 

Finalized the trip up to the lake with her.

Her

he gave him an Are you dumb look  You know.

   Oh  Her gotcha

                     Good for you

Gonna have me a tryst.

Cross your fingers

Takin ED up.

   Ed   Who the hells Ed

Only a year old, should still be potent.

    he was confused thinking Ed   Ed Year old   OH ED 

                                                             Or not  Thad be a kick in the balls

Why wood? Get it?

                     Why would I not take ‘em . . . like being twentyseven again. 

Im not thick

                Twentyseven

Fortyone?

Or whaya are

                She said, What’s it doing?   He said, Give it some time.   She said, Well, wake me if it shows up.

 

Nothin

Nothin

      crickets

1257,  Sunday,  14  8. 22

1412,  Sunday

Help Anne Heche 

                    Too soon.   Is until it isnt

Fasten your seatbelts irritated him 

                                      what he gleamed from conversationsYES he conversed specifically about it   That’s an odd question.   How you feel about it   What’s to feel?   Im irritatedfeel set upon  Its a command   A command? I think it’s a request of you regarding your safety.   Because I need to be told how to conduct myself Im unaware of me   Because it’s law.   Law  Because its money  Its enough to keep me off aircraft except for times when I really have to flywhen I have to submit    Other times you drive, correct? they begin to smilethinking they had something on him   I don wear a seatbelt Yes

Fasten your seatbelt meant different things to different people of course age played into ithe appreciated that

thats the purpose of education indoctrination 

                                                laying that on someone is a whole other can of worms worth discussing

 

people didnt like to think they were indoctrinated lead around by their nose 

                                                                                it was one of his better arguments for extremely liberal education  against stringent curriculum  which also irritated the shit out of him

 

he may have been easily irritated

he found such things didnt bother or upset many 

                                                   but it was his habit to entertain answers to questions in the long runnot tomorrow  in ten years twenty years  what were those ramifications how might they affect people unborn which wasnt a plea against abortion  an assemblage who is not a person until they can draw breath on their own outside of incubators female or otherwise

a vast cottage industry was spawned by American capitalism which differs drastically from others Americas has metastasisedbeen cancerous for decades its insatiable greed its bottomline antisocialHell sociopathic corporations their political bedmates enablers  seatbelts  childrens car seats those contraptions grown from them the auto industry thrall airbags all around determined requisite lifesaving products in case of an accident Which is wha an accident an unexpected event sudden in nature associated with carelessness unawareness ignorance a hostcombination of causes Cause and effect

he usually didnt get that far into his argument

when someone yawned in his face he disconnected 

                                                      when theyve yawned perhaps going to excuse themselves opening their eyes again  hes adios

he was everyone is a product of their environment  of growingup

                                                                    he was not swaddled he was not confined by a seatbelt he learned by making mistakes  indoctrination takes making mistakes out of ones hands 

                                                                                                       Do as you are told.

Oh Big Brother  forgive me for I have sinned

1811,  Saturday,  13  8. 22

1020,  Sunday,  14  8. 22

it was a bullet point on his resume

his interviewer gulped audiblyher eyes bugged

he knew right where she was

Applicable skills

did she want him to explaindid she want to crossexamine his reasoning rationale he thought it above her pay grade gambled shed let him ascendlet someone on the floors above her to vet him tell him No, I’m afraid you haven’t the skill set, not to say that you do not have an impressive resume, but, unfortunately, you haven’t what we’re looking for right now.

she quelled her anxiousnessrecovered quickly 

he was impressed 

she finished his resume

placed the cover letter atop it

   finally lifted her eyes to his

Well

You possess an impressive array of skills, abilities . . have had a . unique . background.

Thank you oozed from his mouth like melted butter  her eyes widened

she cleared her throat

he said Have you anything you might like to ask me for clarification or did it read clearly  I wanted to be very specific

Specific . .  she said absentlyher eyes clouding 

                                                    she shook off the fog  You were specific. No.  I don’t have any questions really.

Neither did the young man Bob who interviewed me this morninghe asked me to waitwanted me to meet with someone evidently you  who was positioned above him

Yes.  I understand. 

                      And I’m going to refer you to someone above me. 

Today

No no.   Can youcould you . . return tomorrow?

Yes  I need a job

standing immediatelyextending her hand he stood too Tomorrow, bright and early, Eight AM?

Ready and rarin he took her handshe had a good grip though it was moist Thank you for your time 

 

he exited the shiny corporate building there were shiny corporate metal sculptures on stone piers on the greengrassy islands between lots 

                       he heard a honk

 

he walked over to the car and got in 

                                       Thanks for picking me upI hope you didnt have to wait long

Nah, no trouble, on my way, not ten minutes.

I appreciate it

You’re welcome. 

                   before starting the car he slipped a bit sideways to look directly at him  Your gambit, it’s working?

Its workin Got me past two entry level associates

They didn’t want to be gatekeepers.

They did not 

               I return tomorrow at Eight

I imagine your expression will be . subtly . . threatening?

I was thinking quirkyabrupt though itll dependent on who  I suspect hebelieve theyll be a he  he may find hes not keen on corporate hierarchy keen to say no to me

You’re crazy.

I need work Im incentivising them

Incentise? That’s a stretch.

Surviving hand to hand combat cleavingcaving in skulls with axes rocks like rotten wood  I have unique skills

1704,  Thursday,  4  8. 22

1218,  Saturday,  13  8. 22

Beatles  Maxwell’s Silver Hammer  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mJag19WoAe0