19.7.21

 
Aaah
     he couldnt go off to bed leave her alone until tomorrow 

not a real good bet shed sneak in later and join him 


the night before was unexpected uncomfortable
                                                hed never had a choice from among four willing women who appealed to him between two he wouldnt have been disappointed if it were a coin toss 
                                                                                heads or tails
had it pleasured him he could have randomly paired them tossed twice pair the winners toss a third time 
                                                                                                              winner by luck
whos really enthused winning by dumb luck dumb people 
what would coin tosses say about him
                                            or her
that wont do letem compete 
he thought outside the box 
letem swing for the fence

letem strike a pose  Vogue
                            on fourpost canopied beds the gothic hall was enormous 


she took it hands downshe was arresting 
VOGUE
       she knelt she assumed a mockChrist crucified arms flung out shoulderheight hands adangle wrists rigidspiked she held her head up fixed him with her deepbrown eyes  she was naked no embarrassmentProud an attractive bodylarge round breastsround inquisitive aureoles legs slightly spread  a silkenshaved chevron 

she talked to him without speaking
she was in his head

he was in hers

 

unexpected

uncomfortable

she was in his peripheral the whole day he didnt want to close his eyes
fearful he would lose her


exhausted he invited her to bed and fell asleep 




she wasnt there when he woke

early AM,  Saturday,  17  7. 21
1302,  SunnyDay,  18  7. 21

Greta Garbo and Monroe
Dietrich and DiMaggio
Marlon Brando, Jimmy Dean
On the cover of a magazine

“Grace Kelly, Harlow, Jean
Picture of a beauty queen
Gene Kelly, Fred Astaire
Ginger Rogers, dance on air

“They had style, they had grace
Rita Hayworth gave good face
Lauren, Katherine, Lana too
Bette Davis, we love you

“Ladies with an attitude
Fellas that were in the mood
Don't just stand there, let's get to it
Strike a pose, there's nothing to it”

Kylie Minogue  Can’t Get You Out of My Head  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c18441Eh_WE                                                     

                                          

                           have faith


he could tell you the first timethe only time he sought faith   he couldnt say he had it 


check your baseline stats
                           heart  pulse  bloodpressure  lungs  respiration   then ask yourself the last time you had faith


it is not grace
              it doesnt fall into your lap 

faith isnt mystical its indoctrination 
                                      baptism  Holy Communion  Confirmation  bat and bar mitzvahs  world religions  definitely evangelism

that shits just exercises

that shits not real worldnot street    book learning
                                                     theory

 


he bought in when his daughter had a gastrostomy tube placed  he asked the physician She can have it removed when she doesnt need it anymore he said Yes.
                                            he didnt lie

 

when faith fell away

                           it took gobsgouts out of his heart 

0923,  Day-between-Two-Ts.  14  7. 21
1158,  Saturday,  17  7. 21
Sparklehorse  Eyepennies  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vcam-P0Y90Q